I’ve kinda been an anxious butthead over RPing outside of a tiny bubble of safety lately and as much as I want to tackle some folks, my brain isn’t really being cooperative.I also want to apologise to everyone who I ever said I would RP with that was associated with the “Red Lotus” story.
Since Tiergan is pretty stoic and almost anti-social, Red Lotus was originally just supposed to be an easy way for me to meet with and RP with anyone I wanted by having a built in source of conflict-generation. Tiergan would show up. The Lotus would do its spooky thing - instantly the two characters would have a reason to interact and go ‘wtf’ over the artifact and its shenanigans.Unfortunately, I was wrestling with a really bad case of depression at the time (my real life was kind of a nightmare back then) - and I was very bad at establishing boundaries. This meant every time someone indicated they wanted to also join in, I had a very hard time saying no, so the list of people involved went from like 20 to OVER 75 PEOPLE. I also felt more and more pressured by folks to turn it into some big overarching plot - and again, because I was bad at saying no back then - I tried to do it to make everyone happy only for that to go down about as well as trying to juggle 75+ individuals sounds. Eventually I got overwhelmed and quietly hid away. Some other unrelated Bad Experiences™ occurred that caused me to go on an almost year-long RP hiatus and thus the plot was pretty much dead for good.IC-wise, Tiergan found a way to shatter the Lotus into countless tiny pieces to stop it from doing what it was doing and I use that as story fodder for some private personal stuff inside of my safety bubble, but other than that - the Lotus plot is dead. :( I’m sorry.