𝟜𝔽. ℍ 𝕖 ’ 𝕕 𝕘 𝕖 𝕥 𝕓 𝕒 𝕔 𝕜 𝕚 𝕟 𝕥 𝕙 𝕖 𝕣 𝕖 𝕒 𝕟 𝕕 𝕥 𝕣 𝕪 𝕒 𝕘 𝕒 𝕚 𝕟. The scribbles on the sheet were only another hurdle, an obstacle in ink on the road and he was far from throwing in the towel. Giving up was not an option. Standing up to power-hungry thugs was a necessity, and as much as Steve hates the thought of war, aware of all the rotten fruit it bears - loss and death. Injustice. Separation of loved ones…family, lovers, close friends. Running away is never an option.
It hadn’t come as a surprise to him that Bucky had enlisted, what came much more as so was how late in the game he’d finally brought it up. Steve’s eyes are nearly glued to his own enlistment form , slender fingers tracing over the printed words. Found not acceptable for induction into active military service. There had to be a way, a hidden passage to wriggle his way through, and the time for finding the crawlspace was running out.
Svelte fingers grasp onto the sheet of paper a little tighter, blue eyes following the brusque rustle of tossed down papers. “I always assumed you were going to go. Just hard to believe you’re already another step closer to gettin’ out there.” He pauses, eyes diverting back to his form.”I should be going with ya. who else is gonna keep ya from pullin’ careless stunts out there?”
There is a solemn grin on Steve’s lips, sun rays trying to brighten the day behind gloomy rain clouds, and yet his stomach sinks down, and the depth of the concern is written in his eyes as they look up to meet Buck’s. There is some good left in the world, and Bucky Barnes is a big piece of so in Steve’s life.
It’s yet another reason he has to keep fightin’. Another reason to keep taking a stance, to keep returning to enlist day after day, no matter what the consequences might be. He can’t condone Buck to go out there and risk his life on is own, not without giving everything he can to stand and fight alongside him.
“No one’ll need to. I only get into trouble because of you.” The words came gently, bringing warmth to his teasing in each word, but it was true. Back alley fistfights, scolding from adults when they’d trespassed and the occasional run-in with a truancy officer all littered Bucky’s past, but they all had one thing in common. He had simply been following Steve. From the stories his father told him as a boy, Bucky knew that war would be absolute hell on Earth. Without Steve there Bucky could only hope he’d be able to keep his head on straight so he could come home.
Ever since Steve’s first rejection, Bucky had been plagued with nightmares of Steve ending up on the front lines. He was small and agile, but he had always looked like an easy target. If the bullies in their neighborhood could see it, he didn’t doubt the Nazi’s would as well.
More nights than he could count Bucky found himself waking in a cold sweat; plagued by scenes of all the ways the world could kill his dearest friend. If he tried, he could easily recall the sight of Steve limp in his arms, his fatigues stained a deep, muddy black as thick red blood stained green cotton twill. As much as it pained him to think it, if Steve was there Bucky knew there would be no way for them both to come home. Either Steve would get himself killed being the brash man he was, or Bucky would be lucky enough to take the bullet for him. Of all the ways for their time together to end, he didn’t want it to be like that, “Besides, it’s not like we’d be deployed together anyways. You just go where they tell you, not where you wanna be.”