Not doing a NY resolution for weight-loss because it never worked. These are pics I recently took before I start my journey to eat healthy and pursue fitness… not because it’ll make me look hot or give me sexual attention. I’m doing it because of the number of flare-ups I’ve had the past 2-3 years. I’m doing it because I’m tired of emotions dictating how I live and eat. I’m doing it because I believe that, as a result, I’ll get to live a long and healthy life. I’m tired of losing weight for vanity. It’s time I do it for me and my sanity. This is an on-going project… not one that’ll be complete by the end of 2023, but one that’ll continue for the rest of my life. So, I have to make changes that are realistic. I’ve always struggled with weight since home-schooling for my 9th-grade year when I gained 30 pounds (circa 2005). I’ve always struggled with physical insecurities, mostly weight related. To put on weight after a partner’s death and then during the pandemic seems normal or to be expected for me. To receive judgment about it is abnormal. You don’t need to point out that I’ve gained weight, when all I needed was you to be gentle and see me. To pull me out of the darkness. To help me feel safe until I was ready to try again. To be a role model of living a healthy life. For me, the NY started on my 31st birthday. I’ve lagged for 2 months, but now I have the time to see what I need to do for long-lasting results. PS: I lost the pandemic weight I gained which was 20 pounds. #2023 #goodbye2022 #strongerself #hairyhomo #fuckvanity #hairygay https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm28OMTN-D1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
