#strwb thoughts

[strwbrry333]

I just found out that if I pursue my master's degree part time while working for my university's hospital (I currently do) that they'll pay for it entirely!!! im very stuck between doing a social work degree or a clinical psych one, what do you guys think 😵!?

[strwbrry333]

𔘓𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ welcome!

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22 y.o. | infj | she/her

pisces sun | leo moon | aquarius rising

fav artists: type o negative, mushroomhead, windhand, gojira, korn, nirvana, alice in chains, seether, mudvayne, mazzy star, the cranberries, fleetwood mac, and so much more!!

fav things: nana, strawberries, coffee, attack on titan, twilight, music, writing, flowers, sunny days, driving, creating, and more <33

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[strwbrry333]

i might redo my blog theme……hmmm

[strwbrry333]

so unexpectedly (expected) my birthday went pretty horrible (#3 worst birthday I've had lalalala). my mamaw threw a party for me that she did not tell me about, and texted me "we have your cake, where are you?" - ma'am I didnt even know that was going to be a thing (skull emoji here). so I go because I had nothing else but it pissed me off cause she does that to me so often and expects me to drop everything without saying anything beforehand (what if I had had plans??). but anyway I get there and everyone is already done eating, and she invited all her sons and their families (I don't fw them at all), and even invited my father who I have been no contact with going on 4 years now (?????). it was insanely weird and awkward, no one said happy birthday besides my siblings and a cousin, and no one spoke to me besides them either. honestly one of the weirdest experiences I've ever had. and the only thing my mamaw said to me was "have you heard back from (this job) yet?" which why bring that up in front of my whole family, when I had told her no twice already? it was so embarrassing and awkward. my father got me a gift (I have told him, and told her to tell him 3 million thousand times to STOP getting me things because I will throw it away or give it to my siblings, I want nothing from him) and I had to open it in front of him and her, everyone had literally already left at that point. it was a diamond necklace and earrings, and candy I liked as a teen. it really pissed me off and it was just obvious he was trying to act like everything is fine when it definitely isn't. and then my weird uncle also picked me up when I walked in to "shove me under the bed" and was literally pushing my tits up with his arms around me and I had to shove him off, so that was really cutie!!!! I have not spoken to him in months either so don't know why he thought that was a great idea. honestly it was a fucked up day and really messed with me. but I've deactivated my socials for now and got a new job that I'm not telling them about, and will be steering clear for a good while yayayayayayayyy <3

[strwbrry333]

welcome back !! congrats on your engagement ! <3

hii thank you so much!! <3

[strwbrry333]

hiii <3 miss your posts :(

hi!! I am back now after forever! <3

[strwbrry333]

i think blogging again will be really good and fun for me because there's just so much all the time, and I like this form of an outlet. a lot has changed in a short time and looking back it's hard to even comprehend cause it's like wow. that was really my life just a short while ago. I was in a very, very horrible relationship and felt like I was stuck and had to be responsible for a grown ass man and had to stay with him and suffer. that was a little over a year ago that I had to call the cops on him for actively destroying my apartment, among a bunch of other stupid things he decided to do that night (both of us were on the lease but he never paid a dime for anything, and I mean Anything!!!) and I drove to stay with a friend for the night, and then 3-4 hours to my home town (in a horrible snow storm, it was also my first time ever driving alone, and my phone was off too loll). so it was very very scary and it's crazy to think it happened!! but in the time since then, I got my own apartment, my first tattoo, started a new relationship (i really never thought I'd be with anyone ever again), and got engaged!! it's crazy to think about that, because my fiance now is so unlike anyone ever and I never thought a relationship could be this way. it's been like a fairy tale since meeting him again (we knew each other in high school but never knew we had crushes on each other back then loll) and it took a lot of learning and adjusting because this is the first healthy relationship I've ever been in. but I moved back to my home town last month with him, and he and his family are building a house for us (it's getting super close for us to move in!). when it gets warm, maybe around end of march-may, we're gonna get married and i'm very excited <33 it was hard to make a very long story short, but in the year I've been gone I've learned a lot about myself and I feel like I'm me again. I'll also be 22 on the 4th and that's so weird to think about! I'm so happy I remembered this blog and can't wait to start posting and sharing again <33

[strwbrry333]

hi everynyan i might be back but idkk :0 lalalalala

i will probably remake my intro post yay