#student depression

[bpd4myheart]

When you’re tired, exhausted, shaking, haven’t eaten enough at all, for several days,

And it’s week 6 of school

An you wanna just drop out of school

But not have to face the consequences

“That’d be nice”

[bpd4myheart]

I think about saying something about what I don’t like, what he’s doing...

I hesitate and don’t do it bc I don’t want to sound negative and end up feeling judged and like the bad guy.

So I don’t say it.

If it is small.

If it’s big.

Every time I hesitate, I care about, what I used to care a lot about, less and less.

[bpd4myheart]

Got any ideas for a Title for my lame ass poem?

The Origins of Poland and Oregon

are sort of books atop the shelf.

 The Riverside Chaucer sits on the box

of overtone dye not yet used for bleached hair.

 Two sets of clean clothes are piled upon the bed.

She says she cares about wrinkles but here

 we are family, my brothers, sisters

and me, myself, and I worry a lot

 that there will be no vacant spots

when I get there for my afternoon class.

 Princess Jellyfish, My Brother’s Husband

are two books of manga that she felt like

 feeling nothing, anxious for nothing. Why

is E.L. James sitting innocently

 on two bibles? Hey, I wonder if God

cares, or would laugh, or would even notice

 me, Senpai. God might say something like this:

“Just reminding you that I’m your Senpai.”

 In 1984, the Inferno

consumed my lover, Melatonin, whole

 origins, books, spots, God, and wrinkles

are the least of my worries.

[bpd4myheart]

Me:

Me: *gets reading and school work done before next class*

Me: Wow...What is this feeling?

Me:

[maybeahumanbeing]

Soooo… I moved out, started university and went in expecting this to be the great time of my life everyone promised me.

But instead I feel like I just came to the USA expecting the american dream and a Gatsby type lifestyle only to work in a can factory and to come home to unpaid bills and a carrot for supper.

Its day 2 and I already can‘t do this anymore.

I want to go home.

[bpd4myheart]

I’m thinking about my professional career future and it is overwhelming me since shit I read online about how other people have prepared to become what I want to be are things I haven’t even thought about or feel like I’d be able to do.

Like who am I why do I want to do this?

[bpd4myheart]

Can I just spend the rest of my day crying, instead of attending my night class?