aiaiaiaiaiaia✹✺❈ ~
... I am so unorganised it is not even remotely laughable. And it’s such a shame too as I’m letting my self and others around me down. People are aware of my other good qualities, such as my enthusiasm and persistence, so they end up expecting better, but I find it so hard to even get myself together and it is really ruining a lot for me.
Starts off with the small manageable stuff - coming in late, library books due, AV equipment needing to be returned - then missing lectures, not reading the unit assignments, then not even checking my timetable two weeks in a row, but having a vague assumption about what the schedule is and ending up missing a vital, key event. ugghh....
Don’t even get me started on painting yet. I had something for a while, like a slow tide of inspiration and energy lapping back and forth that’s receeded for the last few days, making me stranded.
I promise I’ll do good this year, I need to put forth my actions, be the person and artist I want to be...