#stupidt

[misssgender]

I do enjoy my eyes, their size and shape, my gaze and how it drips off of them. I love my cupid's bow and how it's stamped with flushed pigment. I love my freckled skin that embrace my rosy cheeks. I'm happy I kept my nose's little subtle bump and her width and lack of definition around the nostrils. My thick hair that I care for so effortlessly after years and years and years of being able to take the time to learn.

I guess I cherish the little skills I had to build up over time to take care of myself after an upbringing of neglect, a variety of abuse, enmeshment built from an environment of precarity and scarcity. It's my 10th year on the big E and it's been messy and it's been beautiful and it's been hard, very very hard and it's shaken me to the core several times.

This has been my desktop background for 7 years at this point so maybe it's rubbing off.

Anyways I was feeling kind of shitty about myself and my body earlier; the way the world treats me based on my outside is not how I should treat myself on the inside.

[scyftan]

it's honestly interesting comparing vampire and canon larissa in that each of them has found an "acceptable" outlet for their toxicity/negative traits. for canon larissa, she's condescending, manipulative, and difficult. for example, the thread with farah where she is purposely over-familiar out of jealousy, then gaslights farah about it. because that behavior is embedded in a social context and isn't OBVIOUSLY harmful, she's getting away with it and can justify it to herself. whereas vampire larissa is prone to outbursts instead, such as when she literally grabs star and lifts her off her feet to get a sniff, and that is also "acceptable" because violence and physical aggression are a given among vampires. interestingly, because vampire larissa HAS these outbursts--does one big, explosive shitty thing, versus canon larissa doing a bunch of much smaller shitty things spread out over time--she goes into a kind of collapse of shame and guilt afterward. e.g. she will likely have a strong guilt reaction to star in that thread over time, because she's honestly embarrassed herself.

[ghoststrikes]

wanted to create sth wholesome for that serirei au where shou, tome, and teru are their adoptive kids but this is what my brain decided on instead

[wwowza]

Yall im mad dumb im just now realizing that Kyoko and kyos names are similiar

[ughquaria]

oh she’s a comedienne 😩

[gilodinofficial]

how we all gon look next update when Nevy starts acting a fool and gilodin starts tanking

[riconastymp3]

Starting to get pissed off im never holding anyone’s hand

[vampirefunkmetal]

ive been doomed to be ramuda kin by my very existence. i too am a tiny, gremlin, fashion designing, chaotic bitchy air-sign with stupid hair and a big coat