Dear Charlie,
My great grandma died yesterday, she was 109 and I haven’t seen her much lately because she doesn’t recognize me anymore, but i’m sad for losing her. She was hope, a long and happy life that I some day hope to have. She died ready to go, and i’m glad of that. To be honest, i’m more worried about my grandpa. He spent his last 10 years looking after his mum, and he’s 75! He lost his wife 15 years ago and i’m not sure how well he’ll cope losing his mum too. He’ll be fine on the outside though, he’s always been like that. I just really hope moving back to his old village and being around people he knows and friends he’s known for years will keep him happy.
In other news, my best friend is once again experiencing heart palpitations and an unusually fast heartbeat. The doctor’s are saying there’s something “unusual” after seeing his heart scan. I’m just really worried about him. He may act like an asshole sometimes and we fall out far too often but I will always love him for the things he does right. I never want to lose his smile and his warm hugs and our late night conversations. He said it could be nothing, but then again it could be serious and like always, i’m expecting the worst and it’s killing me.
It just all seems to happen at once, after a long and happy summer, everything just tumbles down. I’m so tired of disappointment and heart ache and emptiness. Why do the people we love always seem to leave?
Love (really) always, EL.
