sometimes it's hard to fully let it go; mine very nearly drove me to my own end, but I beat it in the end. It's what helped form the person I'm today and I got what I wished for I'm my younger days - I just had no clue what piece I'd have to pay just to get it - and it's the source of my pessimism today. Too much awareness like what I have just robs you of deep felt joy if you don't stay on your toes. It's the double edge of it. Ignorance is bliss as it's said.

















