“ i left a lot people behind that i thought i owed when i signed up, ” john admitted tightly, gaze downcast as he adjusted the beads around his wrists uncomfortably, sharing personal information was always difficult but he felt as if marcos was finding himself in a similar situation that john had been in. the feeling of love, even the belief that he somehow owed those that he had left on the rez for all that they had done for him -- the crippling feeling of guilt just for even THINKING of leaving. “ and it took me a long time to realize that i didn’t owe them anything. ”
john lifted his gaze to meet marcos’ over the table, lips pinched together. he had wished that someone had told him the same thing back then, it might have helped him move past the guilt faster. “ you have to do what is best for you, sometimes that means cutting people loose. ” // @sunofeclipse ♡’d for a starter