#super grumpy today

[loki-the-bunny]

[thecatladyknits]

Yesterday was my birthday. I'm 34.

I hate birthdays anymore. I don't want to get older and it still bothers me that it gets lumped in with Thanksgiving even though I say it doesn't bother me anymore (because it sounds childish). D also kept joking with his relatives that I'm like 45 and they didn't understand he was joking and they don't really know me so they were like really?? and I'm like no. It was just weird. I asked him to stop it and he seemed put out but I'm like they're old and can't tell you're joking and it's just awkward.

Obviously I look the same as I did yesterday but looking in the mirror this morning I'm just like... yeah I am looking my age. I don't look 22 or even like 27.

It made me think of some older woman who told me when I was like 13 and acne ridden with oily skin that having oily skin would mean I wouldn't age as fast and my skin would look good when I was older. Somewhere in the back of my mind that really stuck and here I am at 34, still with acne and now scowl lines and definitely not good skin. I was once young and ugly and now I'm older and uglier. Super duper.

[be-inspiration]

I wish my mood didn’t turn to shit with the tiniest inconvenience like I could be okay and then a customer says one word wrong or I can’t get a plastic bag open and suddenly I’m frustrated enough to wring a man’s neck

[missjojothemighty]

Perhaps a bit tmi lol, but I am in such a terrible mood today

Well, today would not have been my first choice to start my period in general, but considering it turned out to be the first one in about 6 months that made me actually physically ill from my head to my toes, goddammit, I was not a happy camper! (though thankfully those have been much less frequent in the last couple years)  Had a Final first thing this morning, and almost missed it because I was stuck sitting on the floor in front of the toilet puking for about 20 minutes, and then of course had the lovely cold sweats and excruciating pain to go along with it, on top of only getting 3 hours of sleep last night and being so busy at school that all I’d eaten in almost 24 hours was some noodles.

I just want this week to be over already. D:

[coffeesuperhero]

my friends are at sdcc running into celebrities and seeing kickass panels

I'm spilling hot coffee all over my lap

guess which exciting thing I'd rather be doing