I'm so emotional. It's horrible. One thing goes wrong, it isn't part of the schedule and I'm screwed up for the rest of the day. It just drains any energy I have. Sometimes I think, if only I was more out spoken, and able to freely talk to people without the urge to hide behind the nearest fake fuckin fern, but that isn't me. If only i could say, "hey, this is something i dont like, and i don't appreciate you saying it." I've always hated things like that about myself. I could never stand up for myself, and to this day my go to response is more than 75% of the time, "I don't know." But, slowly I've come to accept the fact, this is me. It shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks or says. At the end of the day, I have to be satisfied with me, myself, and I. One day, I know I will accept my weird awkward, scatterbrained self.