Avatar of the Eye but itās me as a child responding to people staring at my prosthetic leg by going up to them and saying āI saw you looking at my leg, do you have any questions?ā (No one ever did. They just got embarrassed I caught them staring)
I just read your post about different entities Jon could be an avatar of, and now Iām thinking about my two Vast OCs who love learning and how it wasnāt just that things happened to push them towards the Vast instead of the Eye, itās also the way they approach learning/knowledge. Itās not just about wanting to know, itās also about knowing how much they donāt know and canāt know, because space is big and the ocean is deep and weāll never know everything, and thatās part of the fun!
EXACTLY!!!! this is a thread i didnāt get a chance to include in TSP but i wanted to so bad, like. bringing up the fact that jon ISNāT actually that scientifically minded! he would find it frustrating to not know things, where part of the exhilaration of science and discovery IS an appreciation for the unknown! thatās why the vast and the dark work so well together re: space and sea exploration, etc. itās just such an overlapping thing for them. a lot of scientists are THRILLED when they come across unfamiliar territory or get excited when they find out they mightāve been wrong about something because the chance to update information and also know this still isnāt the end is just.Ā
you know that feeling you get when your chest feels too full of air because youāre so overcome with passion for something that you canāt put words to? because no words exist to even describe the sheer magnitude of this love?
I've been thinking a lot about the Circle of Magic books lately and rediscovering how good they are, and imagine Briar accidentally calling Rosethorn "Mom!"
first of all, same. second of all,
Briar: Thanks, mom
Briar: Why is everyone staring at me?
Tris: You called Rosethorn mom. You saidĀ āThanks, momā
Briar:Ā What? No I didnāt. I said, "Thanks, man."
Rosethorn: Do you see me as a mother figure, Briar?
Briar:Ā No! If anything, I see you as a bother figure, ācuz youāre always bothering me!
I first followed you when I identified as a biromantic ace girl, and now I think I'm probably actually a straight trans guy. I'm going to unfollow since I don't id as sapphic anymore, but I just wanted to say thank you first. This is a wonderful blog, and it really helped me feel comfortable questioning and exploring my identity! So thank you!
Aww, no need to thank me! And you don't have to unfollow if you still want a place to get some nice queer positive posts! I've loved having you as a follower. Seeing you in my notes makes me smile š
I'm so happy for you, though, figuring yourself out and all! I wish you all the best in your journey of fully discovering your identity!! And please don't hesitate to come to me if you need advice or someone to talk to or anything else š
I just talked my mom into naming our sourdough starter Victor Hudough! (I originally wanted to name it Valjean bc sourdough --> bread --> Valjean stole a loaf of bread, but she said no. I think it was the pun that convinced her)
hey real quick, if you havenāt spoken to anyone today, just say Victor Hudough out loud so your day is blessed with top quality punsĀ
Maybe TS (or Brian, for that matter) could be a quadruple amputee, so all four limbs are prosthetics! Also, I kinda want to project onto Jonny and have him be born with a hole in his heart, but my heart was repaired when I was a baby and at this point it doesn't really affect me, and I kinda want Jonny's heart issues to affect his day-to-day life more
oh i really like this one for ts. it and marius would definitely do the wholeĀ āneed a hand?ā gag to each other and just crack up
i feel like this is meant to be an easy one and i am so sorry because i know that iām gonna get it wrong but iām thinking artemis because the first emoji (the mum with her daughter and son) is leto..??
I'm loving your TMA Shakespeare thoughts! Why do you think Beatrice would serve the Eye and Benedick would serve the Lonely?
ah yay iām glad!! that particular arrangement started as a joke post about elias and peter, but the more i think about it the more i like it for them.
beatriceās main flaw is that sheās judgmental and critical. she prides herself on her wit and her lack of involvement, the fact that sheās an observer rather than a participant in the culture of courting and familial duty. she considers herself above it, and she considers that a mark of her own wisdom and acuity.Ā
her aversion to marriage is founded in her aversion to being controlled. she does foster real relationships, though: she loves her cousin and her uncle genuinely and engages with them as equals, even as she exalts herself for being free of the system they perpetuate.
she values knowledge, truth, she thrives on being one who knows people, one who is trusted with sensitive information. sheās all about āiāve a good eye, uncle; i can see a church by daylightā and ādisdain and scorn ride sparkling in her eyes, misprising what they look onā and āhe is now as valiant as hercules who only tells a lie and swears it.ā
benedickās main flaw is that heās fickle in interpersonal relationships. heās obnoxiously, vocally against forming any kind of romantic attachment, and though he seems to be loyal to his friends, his allegiance is fleeting: āhe wears his faith but as the fashion of his hat.ā
heās also quite critical of people at times, but only insofar as they interfere with his own comfortable way of living. he judges hero harshly because she threatens his friendās bachelorhood, not because he actually has anything against her. he trades barbs with beatrice because theyāre too similar in all the wrong ways, and she threatens his solitude by being perfectly companionable.
his perpetual alienation isnāt for any particular reason to do with other people; itās his own issue. he refuses to marry because he believes that he would never be happy or comfortable in a marriage, and he wonāt subject another person to what he would become in that situation:Ā ābecause i will not do them the wrong to mistrust any, i will do myself the right to trust none.ā
and then when you put them together, you get beatriceās shrewd judgment with benedickās fear of attachment:Ā ābut that my lady beatrice should know me, and not know me!ā you get the masterful manipulation of their insecurities to make them realize and admit their love: beatrice is said to be too judgmental to accept benedickās love, benedick too prideful for beatrice. they say she will receive his love with criticism, and he will receive hers with mockery.
you getĀ āi do suffer love indeed, for i love thee against my willā andĀ āto bind me or undo me, one of themā andĀ āa miracle! hereās our own hands against our hearts,ā because this love goes against everything they profess and stand for, but itās true and deep; they love each other despite themselves.Ā the progression of their relationship is about beatrice learning how to let herself be vulnerable and benedick learning how to let himself care and be cared for.Ā
whereas beatrice has thus far fostered relationships with a largely one-way flow of knowledge, put herself above those in her life and tried to know them without being known herself, she has to let benedick know her. and whereas benedick has always compensated for his insecurities and trust issues by putting distance between himself and others, he has to let beatrice prove to him that love is worth it.