Xavier's Speech and Questions - Answered
Hello, hello. We meet again. I missed all of you and I am still slightly depressed at how all of you betrayed me and lied to me. I may be very sad while writing this so bare with me. I hope this doesn’t take me back to all those awful feelings you caused me.
I ain’t mad at cha, jk I’m pissed.
All three of you all lied to me for absolutely no gain to your games at all. That makes no sense to me whatsoever. Lying just to lie is just pointless if you want my vote in the end, but I guess there was no way of you knowing I would be on the jury.
Bernel, I will start with you. I honestly can say I forgot you were in the game. I mean, when we were on the same tribe we sort of talked, but it was so pointless because all you did was bullshit me. I knew you were lying and it was just annoying to have to cater to you when it was so obvious I had no power to control my fate when I deserved to be in the game much more than you did. Furthermore, you put no effort in the Rites of Passage and really didn’t seem to give a shit about the majority of this cast. Speaking of rites of passage, I am just surprised at what you said about me
“I am sorry to have voted you out on a personal level, I personally loved you and I would love to talk to you more….”
That surprises me because for me…
I hated talking to you. The only reason I did was because maybe, just maybe, you would grace me with a vote to keep me in the game. You made no effort to talk to me, you lied to me for no reason, and had made it seem like I didn’t deserve your breath. That is just stupid. I want to know why you told me “[6/16/15 5:03:58 PM] Bernel: you’ll be nervous until you stay I guess”
I don’t see what you gained from that and why you didn’t just tell me the truth. I would have played the Hidden Immunity Idol if I had it, so I don’t see the point in lying to me about myself staying in the game.
My questions/requests for you are as follows:
Why did you lie to me when there was absolutely no reason for doing so?
I really lied to you at first because I just had no fucking clue when it came to the Idol. On the Re-Vote, I don’t recall actually telling you that you had my vote, I kind of just didn’t care at that point. I was really just focused on taking you out of this game because I felt like if you had made the Merge with you and your crew, it would’ve been a wrap for me and my game. So I lied and I was the one who mainly pushed for you to leave this game, and I got my way so I was pleased.
Why did you deserve to make it farther than me?
I deserve to make it further than you because from the conversations that you had with Justin on Chief’s Island, you were pretty blatant about your status on the Heirachy of your previous tribe. So you made the mistake of being a bit bragadacious, and I kind of shut up and rolled with the punches. So you got ousted for being a threat.
What makes you a better player than me?
I don’t quite think that I am a better player than you, I think I am more of a quiet player. Even in our one-on-one conversations you said like “I wasn’t running the show, but I wasn’t going home soon either”. Like you just kind of felt cocky. I do think you’re a cool dude but me talking to you was only for game, I knew you needed a vote from me, and I was just playing along. So I do think that I spotted what you were doing and I didn’t really let it mist me into voting for you to stay, even though I easily could have done that.
At what point did you do something for you?
Voting you out was for me. From what I guessed, you had strong ass ties with people on New Tabal, and if you Merged with them you could strategically have a numerical advantage.
Write a 75 word apology outlining how you did me wrong and why you think those things are wrong.
Xavier, I’m not really going to bullshit you. I don’t think it’s wrong what I did. You said in your Jury Question that you were just sucking up to me for a vote, and I sensed that. And I knew that you were a big game threat, so I voted you out. That was my plan before we even ended up on the same tribe. So I did what I did to advance my game.
If you had to choose your favorite song from the High School Musical Movies what is it? If you answer this question correctly, you will 100% get my vote.
Ben! I really didn’t get to talk to you because you never initiated a conversation even though we were “aligned.” Then in your rites of passage said “- I tried saving you in the vote against Jordan”
You didn’t do that and I can’t believe you would lie in Rites of Passage. I mean I get you saying that if nobody from that tribal council was on the jury, but the jury talks! It isn’t like they weren’t going to show me what actually happened. All you did was push the problem and try to make Gage look like the person that wanted me in and it showed you really only cared with preserving yourself. I understand that and think it is a good strategy, but to think you should lie about it?
I don’t really get all this hate you are getting though. I see why people are saying you used people, but that is just a part of the game. Maybe, you changed at the merge, but I don’t think you were as nasty as people make you out to be. I am mad at you for not trying harder to keep me, but at the end of the day
In viewing the season, it looked like you played a very good game and I am not going to let bitterness get in the way of my voting.
My questions/requests for you:
Who do you think is going to vote for you?
Honestly, I’ve deliberated about this for a while, because I’ve been trying to count any kind of jury votes I can get… I’m unaware of who hates me because obviously I’m not allowed to know, but I’m counting on votes from Sky, Carly, Jordan and Gage hopefully and maybe Justin but I’m not sure how he feels about me, and hopefully you!
Why didn’t you try and keep me before the revote, maybe, you and Gage tell Justin you were going to vote for me and then vote out Bernel, Justin, or Jordan with me?
Had we done that, the vote still would have been 3-3 and Jordan was old rakuru strong all the way so it seemed kind of pointless, but the bigger reason is because I trusted Bernel, Justin and Gage a bit more than you at the time as I had known them longer… also I wanted to get Jordan to waste any idol if he had one so I really wanted the votes to go onto him.
You say the only reason you didn’t try hard enough to save me is because you had just met me. I don’t believe that to be true. Would you, at the f12, gone to rocks for Gage, Sky, Lachie, Laure, Carly, Jordan, Bernel, or Justin?
I would go to rocks only on the conditions I had immunity or played an idol because at the end of the day, I play the game for myself, and as much as I liked people I didn’t play this game to get rocked out. If I had safety, I’d have gone to rocks for Sky, Lachlan and Gage, but not for the others as I voted out Laure, Carly, Jordan and Justin and I didn’t speak to Bernel as much as the other 3.
I want one adjective that summarizes, how you played this game and how I played this game?
For me I guess I’d say analytical because I constantly analyzed everything I heard, thought about and thought could happen which led to my decisions. For you, I would say contingently because you adapted your game to what was thrown at you, and from what I saw and heard about you, you always tried shifting yourself into a better position.
Lachlan, I am disappointed in you very much. I don’t see how you deserve to be there at all. You didn’t submit for challenges. You hardly talked to me. And you even had people who were closest to you practically targeting you. So, I really don’t see why you should be there instead of me. If you were on original Tabal, you would have been gone first in my eyes. Also, YOUR Rites of Passage does to make sense either. You claimed that you and Sky ran any tribe you were on together.
The vote Danielle went home we went on call and she said “I am so mad Lachie didn’t submit. We can’t win with him.” To which I refuted and said you should stay. So really what I am most mad with you is, you didn’t reciprocate that.
And I don’t see why you should be at the Final tribal council, sitting where you are, when if it was a three strike rule, you would have been out very very early. People like, Caroline, Danielle, and myself had to try and stay in the game, worked hard in challenges, while you just aligned with the right people and seemed to float by. You didn’t really try to get to know me and I don’t think I will be voting for you tonight unless you do a stellar job answering my question.
My questions/request for you:
I need you to write a 100 word apology for not helping me stay in the game.
The only thing I maybe apologize when it comes to your demise is that, yes we didn’t throw the challenge for you. It was honestly a plan that had never came to mind, and even if it had, I thought you were going to be fine anyway. I knew of the alliance between Gage/Ben/Justin/Bernel and that would be able to control the situation and convince the latter two to get you stay in the game, obviously that’s not how it worked out. But, reflecting back, your ousting was not an extremely bad thing to happen to my game. It still managed to get out people who I thought necessary, and it also allowed me to closer to one of my main allies in the game (Catherine) because lord knows if you had been there, I wouldn’t have been able to do the things we did together throughout the merge.
I want an explanation on why you deserve to be there over, me, Caroline, Danielle. This needs to be a flawless argument that I can find no counter arguments.
I don’t deny I fucked up a few times when it comes to the pre-merge, missing challenges etc. But do I deserve to be here over you and the others? Hell yeah I do. I mean for one, you hadn’t gone through the fucked up crazy merge we had, and seriously, it was extremely extremely stressful. And yeah I’m not one to make excuses but it was very hard to try and balance this game on a timezone SO different to you all and in those first few weeks of the game I struggled to handle it. But most importantly, I deserve to be here over you, Danielle, Caroline and whoever, is because I had convinced you to keep me here. I mean you said it yourself, you were really mad I missed the challenge (mind you I think I had a fairly good reason). But you did nothing about it when you could’ve easily flipped on me and gotten me out. And that’s because I had convinced you that you needed me for your game and that you couldn’t break the alliance we had created, that it was better to get out someone who you had no affiliation with despite I had missed the challenge. Also the Caroline vote out, was because again I convinced you it was better for OUR game when in actuality, I only wanted her out because I was a lot closer to Daniel than I was to her. I mean I tried my DAMN hardest this game. You may have not seen it because we didn’t speak a lot, but that is something that no one in the jury can take away from me. And that is why I deserve to be here over you, Danielle and Caroline.
Why did Tabal 3.0 not freaking throw that challenge and then all say you were mad I went?
Like I said before, It was just something that never came to mind (I don’t know about others) and after Ben and Gage told me about the alliance they shared with Justin and Bernel at the fake merge, I thought they would’ve had control and kept you safe. Again, that obviously didn’t happen.
I want you to rank the jury from who you like the most to who you like the least.
I like everyone on the jury, and this maybe seen as cowardice, but everything I think/feel about the jurors has been said in the Last Rites so the question is frankly pointless
Good Luck to you all! You all outlasted us and definitely got to where you are someway. I am glad to have played with you!
