Their conversation had started out like any other, simple questions were asked about their everyday life, promotions and schedules. At some point they had taken a turn, for whichever direction he didn’t know but some of the answers to the questions had been funny, some serious and some a little bit of both. The previous question had been one of those that you could either laugh at the answer or be serious and try to come up with a deeper meaning, her answer, perhaps didn’t surprise Wonho but at the same time the young male wasn’t prepared for it.
“ I wish I could fly and magically appear and disappear.”
What does one reply to that? Should he laugh? Or should he take her seriously because it might actually be like that?. When times get rough and you just for a while want to get away from everything, it happened to him too even if his debut hadn’t been for long but with all the things happening before that he also wished to appear and disappear at times. They were probably not the only ones who felt like that, he had heard of idols, his seniors, taking breaks from promotions just because they got ill from the stress and everything around it. A part of him wished that it would never happen to himself but then again a person never knows what turns life will take and the only thing you can do in the meantime is enjoy the good times.
“I used to wish that too. Now, since I debuted, I haven’t had those thoughts in a while. Perhaps they won’t return for now or perhaps they will return but..Why do you wish that?”
His words remind her of herself when they had newly debuted; heck they remind her of how she was just a year ago. When you're working so hard for something and you finally get it, the rush you get is insane. So she understands it, wanting to stay put, and placing all your energy into moving forward, and staying where you are at the same time. It seemed confusing, and she's pretty sure she won't be able to articulate that out loud without sounding nonsensical, but she really understood it.
It's been different lately, though. Mina doesn't want to complain, but she had moments when she just wanted to fly away. Get a break, find some time for herself--or at least some personal time with people she really considered near and dear to her. Promoting was still exciting, performing exhilarating--but in the early hours of dawn when the dark circles under her eyes especially sagged and she had barely had an hour of sleep, that's when these treacherous thoughts invaded her brain.
"I guess I'm just tired," she admits with a small sigh. "I've barely had time to rest during the last two months, and sometimes work just feels.... neverending." She knows it's crazy to feel that way, especially since memories of being jobless, with no promotional activities at all, are still vivid to her, but she can't deny the fatigue and stress she's constantly feeling either. Nevertheless, she puts on the brightest smile she can muster--she doesn't want to be labeled a complainer. "But I'm thankful too! I'm greedy too... sometimes I also want more work." She can't help but laugh, because one minute she's talking about wanting to fly away, and the next she's genuinely saying she wants more on her plate.
"You'll understand it one day," she murmurs, nodding her head once and patting her friend on the shoulder in a gentle manner. "Buuuut--if you can appear and disappear magically... where would you go?"