#sxf angst

[miiraaee]

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[makovayabulka]

i don't think that Loid will actually give Anya away when operation Strix comes to an end.

but what if he did?

[aka-thesheep]

An SxF AU idea: Very angst tho, be warned.

I've been thinking about this idea for a while, actually ever since Fiona Frost showed up in Spy x Family: What if there was an AU where Wise decided to pair up Twilight and Nightfall for the Operation Strix?

What if this arrangement seems perfect at first, but slowly turns sour once everyone involved realizes that they aren't really all that happy in these conditions?

Twilight might have felt relieved that at least he didn't have to put a civilian in the mix, at least Nightfall was an agent he knew he could count on even with her intense personality. But the thing is that Twilight can't ever allow himself to relax inside the Forger's house, because unintentionally Fiona is a constant reminder of his mission, he doesn't feel like he can ever let his guard down- For his sake, yes, but also for Fiona's and Anya's.

Fiona would probably be delighted to be Twilight's wife for a mission, even if she knows it's just pretend. But her fantasies alone can't keep her from sensing how tense they both are. He is constantly thinking of work and the importance of the mission's success, she is constantly trying to gain his favor by overworking herself in the housewife role- That she sometimes forgets she needs to be a mother, too.

I think an AU that focuses on developing Fiona's over attachment towards Twilight, her perception that “Being of use = Being loved”, and her complete lack of a motherly instincts could be fascinating. I would prefer if she wasn't physically abusive towards Anya (like how the anime implies she would be), but that she instead just struggles with providing emotional support to Anya, she is more naively neglectful because being a mother to Twilight’s child may sound like a dream come true, but motherhood isn't something that comes naturally to her… (she lives in an overly conservative society that pressures women to be married and have children so they don't get reported as spies and traitors. I think Nightfall would have expectations of a comfortable life = the social norm, but that doesn't mean it would be comfortable to HER specifically.)

Oh, and Anya, my poor baby. Can you imagine how happy she would be to be adopted by two spies at the same time?! She would be so excited to live with them in their secret hideout and learn the ways real spies train, and go through crazy adventures to save the world- Starlight Anya is ready for duty! She will go through any trial they throw at her and she'll end up on the top of it all, shining victoriously!...

But, without someone who understands her, who supports her and provides her comfort- With her constantly chasing the massive shadow that is Agent Twilight and Nightfall being no different, neither of them being well adapted yet to give her the proper attention she needs… I think she would turn out a bit more reserved, a bit more shy. Not at first, though, it's a gradual change, Anya is a dreamer, she wouldn't let the initial impressions ruin her greatest adventure yet, at first she would try her best to make Papa proud, to prove Mama that she is worth staying in this family!

Yor would probably have to live with Yuri to hide away from the secret police’s vision, at least until she finds a husband, right? At the start of the series she is very recluse and barely paying attention to her surroundings when it comes to her daily life… probably because she can't stop thinking about her real life, her nocturnal life (at least that's what she thinks about herself, she is constantly doubting if she even deserves to live a normal life when she is “not normal” like everyone else). She probably wouldn't be happy about occupying Yuri's house and making him worry about her personal life, she would probably feel guilty of taking space in his life as well.

And yes, Yuri would be OVER THE MOON that his mom- I mean, that his sister is living with him again!! They have so much catching up to do!! (He already sees and talks to her everyday) He wants to buy her favorite candies everyday!! (She is a grown ass woman), he wants her to read his favorite childhood book to him before sleep!! (He is a grown ass man)-

I'm exaggerating but I like to imagine that Yuri really wishes that he could go back to the simpler times where the world seemed so big and wonderful and that his big sis was there with him the whole time!... Not how it is today, when the world seems tiny, his sister isn't near him as nearly as often and everything feels grey.

In fact, he now contributes to making the world grey, and he knows his sister wouldn't like it if she knew what he does under her nose. Torturing people who the government deems too dangerous. What would she say if she knew how violent he can be?! No! She can't know anything about his job!

I think he would do the actual unthinkable: Actually go out of his way to find suitors for Yor, only those he see as worthy of her though! (She hates it when he pushes his friends on her, she still isn't over her self worth issues + it's really, really awkward!)

I would like to think Yuri isn't COMPLETELY unaware of Yor’s mood and personality shift. She seems so distant now… like she isn't even sure if she is there, in the room with him. But I do think he would mess up flawlessly in trying to cheer her up, idk, maybe it would even workout and get a chuckle out of her.

So yes, no one is really satisfied with their lives now, and things may seem hopeless, but my idea for this AU wasn't for it to be completely bleak and sad! I wanted things to appear bad at first, and slowly work towards a better situation.

Honestly, you wanna know what I think would be really interesting?!

Let's say Loyd Forger meets Yor and both start to hit it off really REALLY well! Can you imagine the scandal that would be?! Not only for the society at large, but also for Operation Strix's success, the Forger family needs to be a perfectly nuclear family with zero divorces!!! (No, I'm not saying he would cheat on Fiona 😑, even if their marriage lacks romantic love he isn't an asshole + He would be heavily ostracized for commiting adultery and they would probably get Anya expelled for it + We're talking about Twilight, the “she wants to prolong our arrangement?? I wonder what that might mean! 🤔” Guy, he won't even realize the Love Truck-Kun coming his way!)

What I really mean is a slow burn between four people who know that they shouldn't, but are starting to catch feelings for each other. Oh, who is the fourth one?

FRANKY MOTHER FUCKING FRANKLIN, THAT'S WHO-

YOU FELL FOR MY TRAP, THIS IS A FIONA x FRANKY POST HIDDEN AS AN ANGST AU-

No but please seriously hear me out: Fiona is so convinced she loves Twilight and that she is made for him (you read that right. She thinks SHE was MADE for him, because she lacks her own sense of self and wants and needs, that she keeps prioritizing what she thinks HE needs), can you imagine her starting to catch feelings for his friend?? His ONLY friend?! She would be DEVASTATED, she would feel awful for starting to emotionally cheat on him with his best friend and that cute lady with red dress that Anya adores!! (Twilight doesn't actually care if she liked Franky because 1: He is happy for her finding someone she likes so much, after all, to him she always seemed very cold and angry, 2: You really think Twilight and Franky haven't kissed once, huh?)

Oh, who's the cute lady with red dress that Anya adores?- GET PLOT TWISTED AGAIN, THIS ISN'T JUST SIMPLE A FRANKY x FIONA AND LOYD x YOR AGENDA POST!!! GET HIT BY MY QUEER POLYAMORY BEAM!!

I want them all to hold hands and start co-parenting Anya, I wish I could talk more about it but I'm at work and I fumbled three times already :P

[tazuransi]

i pledge myself to you

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[lady-charinette]

(for this: https://www.tumblr.com/lady-charinette/723936178046418944/ask-game-based-on-this-poll-you-can-send-me-asks)

twiyor forced to fight? 👀 hope you’re having a good day!!! 🫶💖💞💝💗

OH that one slaps! I love me a good angsty fight between two loving spouses! ^_^ Aw, I hope you're having an awesome day too Sadie!! :D

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“Yor…” Loid’s voice quivered, taking a step back.

Before him stood his wife, his for-Operation-Strix fake married wife, and she had stiletto daggers in her hands and a dark, unfamiliar expression on her face.

No, Twilight knew that expression well, had seen it in the faces of many men, both young and old, in the faces of the experienced fighters in the frontlines.

He had seen it when witnessing his sergeant’s eyes following the trickle of blood as it escaped their enemy’s mouth.

He sees it when he looks in the mirror too.

“Finish him, Thorn Princess. You know what’s on the line.” Shopkeeper’s low, deceptively calm voice sounded from the cover of shadows. It seemed to be all around them like a phantom.

Twilight’s fist clenched, the leather of his gloves groaning in protest. “Yor! Please listen to me, we can find a way to escape. We don’t have to fight!”

A voice Twilight didn’t want to acknowledge as his own quietly whispered in the corner of his mind: ‘I don’t want to fight you.’

Yor’s mouth turned into a thin line, raising the blade close to her face. “Loid, please. Run.”

It took a second.

No, half a second.

Even he could barely keep up.

A ringing.

White noise.

One swing of the blade.

A burn.

No, a cut.

With reflexes honed from grueling training, Twilight used the wall as leverage to jump over Yor’s next attack, but she seemed to anticipate his moves.

Turning faster than his trained eye could keep up, Yor turned her torso and threw one dagger up in the air.

It nicked his suit, a hair’s breath away from drawing more blood from him.

Twilight noticed too late the dagger missed him on purpose.

The actual hit knocked the air out of his lungs.

Yor’s heel dug into his stomach, the force slamming him straight into the opposite wall with a sickening thud.

Thorn Princess wasted no time to gain her footing and dash towards Twilight. The spy was no crumpled heap on the ground where she had thrown him.

A presence much darker and subtle barely tickled her senses.

Behind her.

Yor turned on her heel, muscles tensing to land a right hook at her opponent before her fist got caught in a much larger hand.

Twilight’s form was almost completely hidden by the shadows, the overhead lamp swinging softly to move her husband in and out of the light.

Much like her emotions that night.

Yor was used to sensing killing intent from her enemies towards her, the assassin within her was confused why she didn’t sense any from her husband, despite him appearing like an apparition of death itself ready to claim her soul.

Was this the last thing his enemies saw before Twilight the spy ended their lives? Thorn Princess didn’t envy them.

Twilight’s expression softened immediately, his grip tight but not painful on Yor’s hand. “Yor, we have to end this fight.”

The steel of her weapon caught the light once it hit them and Twilight swung his head back to dodge the upward thrust aimed at his throat.

Twilight put as much distance between them as possible, knowing it would be an easy feat for his wife to close that distance. He needed time.

“Yor, please, I can contact Franky, I’ll make sure Garden can’t hurt you or Anya! You won’t be forced to live like this any-“

“-You don’t understand!” the blade caught his eyes as Yor’s fist tightened around it further, but she made no other move to point it at him. Her eyes seemed to burn holes right through his skull. “I fed and clothed Yuri with this job! It’s the only thing I can do that I’m good at, Loid! My abilities…they, I can’t work like this at City Hall!” images of mocking faces entered Yor’s mind, memories of people ridiculing her for her lack of skills in everything but killing. “These hands…they can’t do anything else but kill…”

Thorn Princess wasn’t one to be caught off guard, but she was. Her body was too quick for her mind to catch up with.

The sharp point of her blade was turned up before she registered Loid crossed the room towards her.

The blade dug uncomfortably into his forearm, soaking the material of his suit in his blood, but Twilight ignored the burning pain in favor of holding Yor’s hands in his. His gaze finally caught hers and held it. “You’re wrong, Yor. These hands…they dress and bathe Anya every day. They make our dinner and buy the food we eat. They clean Bond after he comes home from playing at the doggy park the whole day. They gently carry Anya to bed when she accidentally falls asleep in the living room watching Spy Wars past her bedtime.” Twilight slowly rubbed his thumbs across Yor’s knuckles, feeling the bumps and callouses from fighting, but sensing their restrained power.

Yor was holding back.

Twilight smiled. “…They stroked my hair while I was having dreams about losing my mother in the war. They welcome me home and take my coat after a long day at the hospital. They patched me up after I got roughed up from a secret mission…I never knew these hands to be anything but kind to us, Yor. Maybe inanimate objects didn’t get that same treatment but…these are your hands, Yor! The hands that you love and protect with and kill. All these years, you’ve worked this job for the same reason I work mine: to protect the people that are dear to you.”

Droplets of liquid slid down over their joined hands and Twilight lifted one hand carefully to wipe away the tears falling down Yor’s cheeks. “These hands aren’t just good for killing, Yor. Just like you aren’t only good for killing. Just like I’m not only good for killing either.”

Yor’s- Thorn Princesses’ defenses slowly crumbled, the edge vanished from her eyes like mist in the wind and finally, Loid could gaze at his wife’s face without the looming threat of death hanging over both of their heads.

“Hey.” Loid leaned his head down to touch his forehead to hers and closed his eyes, nuzzling into her.

The sharp clang of metal hitting the solid ground echoed in the barren room as Yor dropped her dagger to curl her hand around Loid’s, pushing her forehead up against him in return. Yor’s watery “Hey.” made Loid wipe the remainder of her tears away and blink back the onslaught of his own.

Nuzzling into each other, assassin and spy allowed themselves this brief reprieve before Yor’s words washed over them both like a shower of ice shards.

“They have Anya.”

Taking a deep breath, Loid slowly straightened his back with his eyes still closed.

Opening them again, Yor knew it wasn’t her dear husband who stood before her.

It was Westalis’s greatest spy and Ostania’s greatest nightmare staring vowing a slow death to any who stood in his way.

And then Twilight spoke, words that caused Thorn Princess to pick up her weapons again. “My communication lines were suddenly cut, I suspect Garden isn’t the only one playing a hand in kidnapping Anya.”

The glare of the mighty Thorn Princess could topple the bravest men and send them begging on their knees. “If I may, I think I’ll have to take more lives today, including that of your colleagues.”

While Thorn Princess fixed her gloves, Twilight ripped a part of his suit to still the bleeding on his forearm. “Casualties are unavoidable on both sides, you have my full permission, Yor.”

Despite the use of her name, it was Thorn Princess’ gaze that glared daggers at the prospect of killing her husband’s fellow spies.

Together, both spy and assassin rushed to save their daughter from both Garden and WISE.

Thanks for reading! Hope you liked it :3  

[indulgencecentral]

Fuck The Heartbreak Out of Me

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

A horny crack fic for the SxF fandom.

Pairing: Loid Forger | Twilight × Yor Briar Forger | Thorn Princess × Fiona Frost | Nightfall

Genre: Gratuitous smut, mild angst and smut

Warnings: (See AO3 tags)

MDNI

A/N: When I had this idea I was so excited and it came out so well. I hope you like the dynamics here and see what I see in this fucked up threesome. I honestly wanted to post it here but like, it's 5K so click and enjoy!

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[fanwarrior321]

ya see, it's this kinda stuff that creates UNNECESSARY ANGST FOR MY HEART. like, yor, my love, IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE. THOSE ARE YOUR HUSBANDS PEOPLE

[miiraaee]

ANGST TIME‼️