ok a lil delayed but cyuya-was-missing-but-back-now lore
some of you may have followed my* old main (@actualsasori-moving) or moved with me* to the current one (@dissociativeyugi). if so, you know that I have dissociative identity disorder (formerly called multiple personality disorder, if you're unfamiliar).
when this blog fell inactive last summer, I was under the impression that I had lost interest in bsd for the most part. you may recall my name being listed as saso.
last summer, we were still very new to our own disorder, and were not very good at telling the difference between frequently fronting alters. at this point, there are at least six alters that we thought were all saso. I was among them.
when we first started getting into bsd last april, it was directly tied to dealing with current trauma that we were actively dealing with, and bsd became our primary outlet. and as you probably might have guessed, cyuya "the grind never stops" nakahara was our character of choice. the grind was a metaphor for us coping. push through the abuse. push through the trauma. the grind NEVER stops. better days await us, we STAY dream chasin.
and as sometimes happens when someone with DID copes when something they can't handle almost exclusively by emulating a character that could, our brain thought our best bet was to become that character, and we split an introject of cyuya, me. I became our host alter from April to July, then fronted on and off through September only to deal directly with the trauma, and then when it was over and I wasn't needed, I fell dormant.
and when I became relevant again, I came back! hi. now with new and improved lore. it was probably best last year, given our situation, that I not know that I was separate and understand my purpose. but time yields perspective and now I'm back and I actually know it.
and that's the lore! and now that I know it, I can tell you to reasonably expect me to come and go on this blog (my personal main) as I front and don't. whenever I'm gone, a different alter's blog will most likely pick up posting. If you're interested in having those, let me know and I'll compile a list so that you can keep up with us if you want to.
thanks for reading! we stay dream chasin y'all.