Rushed this SO BAD because I wanted to get this done before my sixth day. Anyway. T updates!
Cw for some wannabe sex education under the cut
For now the roughest part of the journey has been worrying about going bald and remembering if I actually put the gel on or if I put too little or too much or if I didn't at all. Being schizoid really doesn't help with this, but the main reason I've been having troubles with it is because when I wake up I'm still in an off state. I'm just dissociated and it makes it tough to remember what I do in the morning.
Another not pleasant change I've already started noticing has been genital changes. I find it inconvenient rather than unpleasant, it's probably in my top 3 of the changes I look the most forward to. I'm a bit shy when it comes to talking about it but I feel like it's the one part that's talked about the least, and it's one of the earliest changes too! (And when it is talked about, it's often demonized or treated as undesirable and diagusting) It's still too early for there to be any noticeable changes in looks, especially since I always had a higher testosterone level than avarage because of PCOS, so a lot of stuff was already happening before T (ie; minor facial hair, lower voice register, higher libido, etc.), but there have definitely been noticeable changes in sensation. My biggest tip is to not wear pants that are right against your crotch and that if you pack (esp if your packer is right in contact with your skin like an STP), finding a way to keep it in place could probably help keep the stakes down, consider investing in a harness of making your own. Or just buying some tight boxers. Have fun with your new found pubescent boy libido /sarcastic
