#taeontae

[hellotweetygirl]

taeontae replied to your chat “Me: Looks at my sidebar all lit up with green dots Me: Sees nobody...”

and i feel sick constantly bc of this. i'm so worried. i just want to know he's okay and once this settles down, shinee will be okay.

Aww sweetie I’m right there with you! ;;;;; 

I was balling my eyes out last night in bed and being a general hot mess thinking about how much he’s suffering right now. This hurts so much that I don’t know what to do with myself when the feels strike all over again I just sit and cry and cry. 

Not hearing any news is making it worse. Not hearing anything from Jinki is making it unbearable. I truly hope the members are taking care of him and that he feels able to come and receive shawols love and forgiveness and doesn’t sit in dark places flogging himself over this. 

Until then we need to hang together and keep supporting each other. 

#shawollove  

[gotmehookedonthekpop]

Thanks to @taeontae for tagging me. This was fun! Do it if you wish: @suntae-lotion, @kumalacindy, @always-baby, and @itscoolmantotallycool.

[odd-vs]

Thank you so much for sharing all of your adorable Onew fanart! The omelet hoodie and ontae backhug are faves! (But they're all super cute)

Thank you for checking them out and sending this message... ㅍ///ㅍ

[damnonew]

taeontae replied to your post “saraimt replied to your post “fuck axs” I hope you still got...”

you WILL have better luck for LA. *sends pos vibes*

taeontae

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“saraimt replied to your post “fuck axs” I hope you still got...”

POSITIVE. I just realized my abbreviation for positive said p.o.s and that's not good. SORRY!

this made me laugh so fucking hard omg....

[orgel-ontae]

tagged by: @itsonewday ! Omg thanks for thinking of me, kiddo! Name: Raechel Nickname: Rae (because Pan tagged me I'll say fetus too lol) 
Gender: Polygender lmao 
Zodiac sign: I'm a Proud Sagittarius 
Hogwarts house: Lmao I'm Slytherin 
Favorite color: purple (like the deep ones) 
Time right now: 10:27pm 
Average hours of sleep: Like 4-6 
Lucky number: 21, because I read somewhere your lucky is your birthdate? But 7 is my fave I use it for everything lol 
Last thing I googled: “cal calore" (fuck, man, I love Cal) 
Number of blankets I sleep with: NOT ENOUGH (one) 
Favorite bands: SHINee and Bastille 
Favorite solo artists: Hayley Kiyoko and Halsey atm 
My dream trip: idk somewhere with colour and plants and water and calmness and someone who is v affectionate and hugs me, or maybe a hill with the city in front and stars and warmth? idk 
What I’m currently wearing: a pyjama dress thing and a night-robe thing and some Harley Quinn socks Age of my blog: a year? i don't keep track lol How many people I follow: exactly 400 god bless 
How many posts I have: im on mobile and too lazy to see if there's a way for me to check lol sorry 
What I post: SHINee and sometimes other things but it is Rare 
When my blog hit its peak: lol never, but like, prolly recently. people started following me out of nowhere lmao idk I tag: @taeontae @diamondacequeen and @nonbinarytaemin Pass or play!

[gotmehookedonthekpop]

Thanks to @taeontae for tagging me. This was fun!

Do it if you wish: @suntae-lotion, @kumalacindy, @always-baby, and @itscoolmantotallycool.

[hellotweetygirl]

onthighsbelongtotaemin replied to your post “Random question to my fic writing friends:”

or you could just delete it, hide it in a random file, & pretend it never happened. "this is not the fic you're looking for".

Hahahaha! There’s actually one fic I’ve thought of doing that with cause I feel like it isn’t my best. But I have this stupid rule about being honest about my growth as a writer so... *grumble grumble* 

onthighsbelongtotaemin replied to your post “Random question to my fic writing friends:”

i read it anyways. the very first thing i ever wrote is a good concept horribly written & i do my best to forget about it but if i don't acknowledge it it gets worse in my head. ironically, there are at least two fics that i usually hate in my head but when i read them they're not that bad, & i get reasonably frequent asks about one of them. so i don't know if "exposure" might help you or not but it's somewhat beneficial to me.

I did get through reading it and editing it for ao3 but it wasn’t the easiest sigh... I do think you’re right about exposure helping, this was my SBB from last summer and you and @moshiznik are basically the only people that gave me feedback on that at all so getting it out there for more people to see might help! <3 But yeah I am fighting that feeling that it’s worse than it really is and I wish I knew how to kill that feeling orz

taeontae replied to your post “Random question to my fic writing friends:”

Some of mine make me cringe so bad! I don't know if this is the kind of hurt you meant but it does cause me pain lol

I think we all have one of those fics as writers! But hopefully I (we!) keep getting better with time! 

.....

~~I have been trying to think of a way to describe this feeling of ‘hurt’ since last night and the best I can come up with is that this fic is so personal and took so much of me in writing it that when I opened it for the first time since last summer it was this feeling of seeing an ex (ex-bf, ex-friend, whatever) and being hit with the all the mixed emotions that brings up. Like remembering the good and then being slapped with reality of a painful breakup. Does that make any sense at all??? I have no idea anymore... *sigh*