#takeit rambles

[amberwrithing]

automatically checked out when anarchist groups in fiction feature that their leader is referred to as a king or queen or ruler. It’s like Mary have you heard of the point? She just left orbit. She’s on the moon. Next

[amberwrithing]

I like to stim by waving around a string on a stick and my kitten likes to stim by batting at said string on a stick. symbiotic experience

[amberwrithing]

A good way to say “do you want to talk about it or figure out a way fix it?” Without putting the person on the spot so much is “is it tiring?” If yes, they just want to talk, if no, they likely want to fix or brainstorm.

[amberwrithing]

When I used to go into the replies of a post and see lots of @s it was like ‘aw lots of people tagging friends :3 ‘ now I’m more like ‘ah. A room full of People yelling at each other. Lovely’

[amberwrithing]

Last night something strange happened that I’ve never experienced before?

I’ve been going to therapy and doing an exercise that makes me recognize when I’m triggered/about to spiral into an anxious thought, and I had a nightmare about one of my triggers, and just as I was about to panic, I did what I would do applying the exercise, because at this point it’s p much a habit: I stepped back, determined where in time my thoughts were ( in this case I was worrying, so they were future oriented) then I focused on what I was doing ( walking ) and where I’m going ( home from work) and along the way I realized wait. How did I get here? Monday is the day after tomorrow I don’t have work yet? And I woke myself up using logic? I think? I’ve never been lucid like that before and it was kind of funny and jarring,,,

[amberwrithing]

Low key always wondering if neurotypical is just polite talk for what in actuality is just neuro-conforming. Like yeah ofc I’m really exited about my interests that’s why they’re interests?? Am I supposed to be ambivalent ? Of course I’m “ emotionally disregulated “ when I’m shamed and told to ‘stop asking ridiculous questions’ or told ‘it’s so simple what’s wrong with you?’ because I don’t understand something. Am I meant to brush it off ? Is it normal and expected behavior to stiff lip anything that could come off hurtful to me ? Just wondering. Just wondering. Is it abnormal to care so deeply about a subject that i forget myself a bit? Is it abnormal to care so deeply about how I’m treated and spoken to that I can break down after a while? After a lifetime? Or do the people who decide that just not abide those things because it’s not in the interest of their ideals? Of their ends?. Just wondering

[amberwrithing]

I’ve been using tumblr and Twitter together for a while but lemme tell you it feels SO odd to see tone indicators on here, , it feels like such a Twitter thing to me ( not a bad one, and I think I just haven’t followed a lot of ppl who use em till now ) but still!! Funky