#talis rambles

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Bellamy, every time:

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I'm six followers off 1k and I already have a 1k Fic planned, but I'm thinking I should probably do something more interactive as well.

Anyone have any suggestions?

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Author Tags

Tagged by some incredible writers and wonderful humans whom I adore:  @eyessharpweaponshot @marauders-groupie @clarke-the-spooky-ferrari @she-who-the-river-could-not-hold @probably-voldemort @kombellarke @pawprinterfanfic and possibly a couple others, but tumblr’s been dropping notifcations lately, thx tumblr. Anyway, everyone should go read all these angels’ fics!

Fandoms You Write for: The 100 at the moment, but I also write Pride and Prejudice, North and South, and I’ve got one or two Broadchurch and Good Omens fics in the works. I’ve also written for Supergirl in the past, but I don’t do that anymore. 

Where you post: AO3! and I’m currently moving over some old fics from ff.net

Most popular one shot: Based on both kudos and comments, The Bruise Won’t Heal (the stain stays put) which is about Clarke finally snapping and giving spacekru a piece of her mind, which I literally only wrote as catharsis for myself and then it turned out a lot of people agreed with me :’)

Most popular Multi-Chapter: I Don’t Need Your Love (I Just Need You Now) which is a fic about Clarke being stuck in a bad relationship and Bellamy trying to help, and involves a lot of mutual pining. Although Set The Dark On Fire is pretty close behind it, and was the first fic of mine to really take off and be “popular”, and I’m pretty damn proud of that one too. 

Favorite story you wrote: I mean, just for my own personal sake, I’m so in love with my Good Omens Bellarke AU all this, and love too, will ruin us because I love Good Omens so much, and I love Bellarke so much, and doing the research for all the periods of history they appear in was just SO MUCH FUN. I’m such a slut for research, you guys. 

But also, if I could sneak another one in there - Right Hand Slugger, because I’ve had the entire fic planned out from start to finish from around halfway through writing IDNYL, and I actually wrote the ending before i wrote anything else :’) and I’m slowly working my way towards it. It’s the fic I pick up and write when I’m in a good mood. It’s my happy place.

Story you were nervous to post: I feel like I’m always nervous to post my stories? But especially anything with smut - because it’s so far out of my comfort zone - or something that I’m viscerally emotionally attached to, like STDOF. 

How do you choose your titles: Song lyrics my dudes. And lines from poetry! Richard Siken is a GOD.

Do you outline: I outline all my fics like i’m writing some kind of bizarre crackpost. Dotpoints of important plot elements, chapter breakdowns, but all worded like a tumblr starsign breakdown from 2012. 

Complete number of stories: 35 on ao3!

In progress: 11 published (but some of those are oneshot prompt fills), and about,,,,,,,, i dunno, fifty? unpublished adlksjfhdkjadfshdsfkdsajl

Do you accept prompts: I do for my follower celebrations, but especially since my 666 Celebration, I’ve still got about 15 prompts to fill, so I’m really not taking any at the moment. 

Upcoming story you are most excited about: I mean I’ve got a couple of surprise blarke fics in the works, but other than that I’m pretty excited to post my first Good Omens fic. Nervous, but excited. 

Tagging some absolutely fabulous humans! @fen-ha-fuck-you @clarkgriffon YOU KNOW YOU WRITE BITCHES! also, @chase-the-windandtouch-the-sky @detectivebellamyblake @carrieeve @chants-de-lune @grumpybell AND THERE ARE DEFINITELY OTHER INCREDIBLE WRITERS OUT THERE SO JUST CONSIDER YOURSELF TAGGED AND SELF-ACTUALISE BITCHES!!

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A lil update!

Hey everyone, I hope you’re all doing well! 

I just thought I’d give y’all a little update on where I’m at in life and with my fics and such, because things are gonna change up a bit in the next few weeks. 

So! Firstly, I’m heading back to uni soon, which starts in just over a week, which means that invariably my fic updating will be slower than it has been over summer. I’m sorry in advance, but I promise I’m still here, I’m just plodding along between lectures and assignments and some barely-there semblance of a social life. 

I will be finishing the 666 Follower Celebration Prompts soon, I SWEAR. Largely because when I hit 1k, I have a big surprise thing planned (it may or may not be a fic and some other lil bits) so I want to have them all finished by the time I get there. So if I haven’t filled out your ask yet, I promise I’ll get to it soon! 

I would also like to send out a HUGE thank you to anyone and everyone who nominated me for the BFWAs. I am so touched and emotional, and honestly never expect anyone to be that invested in anything I write, and I cannot express how truly grateful I am for all of you, and for anyone who even takes the time to just read my fics. 

And now for a fic progress/update list:

Bury A Friend, Try To Wake Up: One chapter left to post, and I’m about halfway through it. I put it down for a long time, but I recently picked it back up again, so it should be posted sometime in the next few weeks. 

Right Hand Slugger: Updates will be slow but they WILL BE COMING! I’ve got the entire fic planned out from start to finish, I just haven’t written it all yet, and I’d like to get a few chapters ahead before I start posting again, so that I don’t leave another six month gap between updates. 

Oh, How I Want To Break Free: I will update this at some point! I’ve gotta rewatch the movie first, get some inspiration back 😂

all this, and love too, will ruin us: The third part of this is well and truly underway, so I should have it finished just before I start uni again, and once it’s edited I will post it, so it should be up really soon! 

Unposted WIPs update:

Things I (hopefully) intend to post within the next six months/year.

Blarke 50/50 AU

Practical Magic AU

My crack fake pregnancy modern AU

Princess Diaries 2 AU

Justice League AU (mostly designed as little scenes and snippets, not a full story because that would get GIGANTIC)

Reincarnation AU

My 1k Celebration Fic (to be posted at 1k)

Other fandom fics update:

I’ve got a Good Omens Fic in the works! An actual one, not just a blarke AU. So if you’re a fan of ineffable husbands, watch out for that!

I’m reposting my North and South fanfic from ff.net to ao3 sometime in the next couple of months. 

I’m a quarter of the way through a little Broadchurch fic as well.

And my Pride and Prejudice fic (which I’m also moving from ff.net) will be getting sporadically updated whenever I have time to edit the chapters as I move them.

So that’s it! 

All this among trying to work on my own novels, as well as uni, because apparently I’m clinically insane. Anyway, thank you all for showing any interest in me and my fics, let alone caring about them enough to comment and keep reading them. It means the absolute world to me. I adore you all. 💖💖💖

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Did anything plot related happen in that scene? Who knows, Protective!Bellamy is BACK BABEYYYY!!

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My boy bellamy must be HYPE to be participating in this real-life reenactment of the Ulysses pact from the Odyssey

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8 People I’d Like to Know Better

tagged by: @pawprinterfanfic @she-who-the-river-could-not-hold and possibly a couple more people? but tumblr has been dropping notifications, so if i missed yours i’m sorry <3

tagging: @foreverandalwayscrysis @little-oxford-st @clarkgriffon  @fen-ha-fuck-you @chase-the-windandtouch-the-sky @yourereallyhere @still-watching @detectivebellamyblake @wankadi @biblarke @ravensluna @nvermindiseeyou @aainiouu @hellyeahbellarkee @broashwhat @baellamy @bellamyshope AND WHOEVER WANTS TO LEAP IN AND DO IT!!

name: Talis

birthday: never heard of her. in this house we live like ancient cryptids

zodiac sign: i existed before the zodiac calender and i will outlast the planets

height: 5′4″

hobbies: writing, reading, singing

favorite color(s): dark blues and purples

last song listened to: Stormy Weather - Etta James (from that Knives Out inspired playist I mentioned in this post

last film watched: rewatched Jumanji last night because Sanditon broke my heart and i had to revert to childhood for a hot minute. 

inspiration or muse: angst, music, poetry, my own tragic life 

dream job: author! and if i was less anxiety-brained, probably an actress or singer. 

meaning behind url: to most people who know me in my real life, i’ve always seemed super extroverted - drama kid, bit of a know-it-all, massive motormouth etc. - but just because someone seems one way, doesn’t mean they are. I’m the biggest introvert there is lads! 

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i feel like im the only one that thinks neither clarke or spacekru was in the right last season?? there were no good choices. both clarke and spacekru need to apologize to each other. clarke made some shitty decisions to save her child. they made shitty decisions (involving her child) to save everyone. this was the season of shitty decisions lmao.

I had a hard time working out how to respond to this ask, because on the one hand, I agree with you - the whole point of this show is that nothing is ever black and white, there is never any ultimate right or wrong, it’s all shades of grey - but on the other hand I still think Clarke is morally more in the right that the others. 

I should explain.

This difference between those two factions of shitty decision making is CONTEXT. Without context, it’s very easy to disregard their motives and circumstances and say that both were in the wrong. I’m going to use a super basic analogy here. 97% of scientists believe that climate change is real. When people debate it, they usually have one scientist who believes and one that does not, in order to make it “even”. Without context, that seems perfectly fair. However, in order to make the debate actually even, you would need 97 scientists on the side of climate change and only 3 opposing. It’s the CONTEXT that is important to the debate. 

In order for spacekru and Clarke to be both equally in the wrong, their situations would have to be the same. And they are very much NOT. From Clarke’s perspective - because Bellamy didn’t want to kill his sister, Clarke tried to find another way to stop her; she compromised even though she knew there was an easier way to solve the problem. Then she was captured. The last thing she said to Bellamy before she was captured was, “Keep Madi safe - promise me!” and he did. The next time she saw him, they reaffirmed that they were in this T O G E T H E R and she trusted him to make things right. At this point, Clarke didn’t expect to live, she just wanted Madi to be okay, and she trusted Bellamy to take care of her. THEN the next time she sees Bellamy, he tells her that he’s putting the flame in Madi. Clarke’s one and only person for six years, her daughter, the person she entrusted Bellamy to, a C H I L D. My dude. My guy. My pal. This is betrayal at its RAWEST level. This isn’t Clarke staying at Polis to keep an eye on Lexa, this is using a CHILD to overthrow a cult army. Those are drastically different things. So when Clarke took Madi and ran, she was well within her rights to do so. She a) had no guarantee that if they stayed, they would live, b) probably hoped Octavia would show mercy on her own brother and c) had just been betrayed by someone she loved. And then when she got to the camp, the only reason she helped McCreary was to keep her mother alive, NOT because she agreed with him or because she wanted the rest of them dead, but because she thought that the only two people she had left in the world were Madi and Abby - if she couldn’t trust Bellamy, she couldn’t trust anyone. 

Spacekru are the ones who put McCreary in charge in the first place, by overthrowing Diyoza - which, by the way, wouldn’t have happened if any of them thought to USE THE FUCKING RADIO, EVEN ONCE - but I digress. If Diyoza had remained in charge, odds are the conflict would have deescalated much sooner, and Earth would probably still be a planet instead of a husk of radioactive rock, but I digress. Bellamy made his decision to chip Madi because, “This is how we save our friends, this is how we save Clarke,” while failing to take into account the fact that Madi is a literal child. Also the fact that through the previous 4 seasons Bellamy has been vocally outspoken against grounder culture, the flame, and IN PARTICULAR child soldiers - y’know, because that’s basically what The 100 were at first; children forced into a war they were too young for - means that his choice was especially baffling, but I digress. 

Having Madi become the commander when there was no actual certainty that wonkru would follow her makes her a target for assassination not just by Octavia herself, but by any of her followers who would reject Madi’s supposed “right” to the commandership. Bellamy also made his decision after being directly told that it would mean Clarke never forgave him………… and then was somehow upset when she left?????? WOT. I’m sorry but that writing makes no sense. I can understand the rest of spacekru holding a grudge against Clarke for that, but Bellamy??? He did what he did to SAVE Clarke. He achieved his objective. Yes, she slapped him and then left, but he had ALREADY BEEN TOLD that she would never forgive him. He made his decision with all the information at his fingertips, knowing exactly what harm he was causing to Clarke and Madi, and then was somehow surprised when it backfired. 

Not to mention that Raven and Echo are, from their perspective, understandably mad with Clarke for leaving Bellamy to die, and take Bellamy’s side. Which, with the information they have, makes perfect sense. What still doesn’t make sense, however, is then choosing to kidnap Madi and take her to an active warzone. For all they know, at this point, Madi being the commander is well past its usefulness - the two armies are already marching towards each other, the war is inevitable, the die has been cast. And yet they attempt to take Madi anyway. 

,,,,,,why?

Spacekru as a concept bothered me in these scenes because the “family” thing seemed to be used as a reason why they were in the right - Bellamy wouldn’t kill Octavia because she’s his family, he wanted to give Madi the flame to save his family, Raven and Echo justified their actions in the valley because of their family. But why is their “family” more important than Clarke’s? Because there are more of them? Because they have six years of history together that we didn’t see?

 They have an entire “family” of people to back each other up. Not to mention (and I’m about to get very morbid here, so I apologise) if one member of spacekru dies, they still have the rest of their “family” to help each other get through it. If Madi dies, all Clarke has left is her mother, (and Bellamy, or at least she hoped so). Clarke hasn’t had that six years with a support network. She doesn’t have anyone else on her side. She’s alone, she’s scared, and she’s heartbroken, and spacekru doesn’t have that problem.

Both sides being in the wrong makes sense on paper, but when you take into account both sides motivations and where they came from in regards to those decisions, and with how they were executed, it just doesn’t hold up. Clarke was entirely alone and her entire life was completely upheaved and then her best friend fucked her over and his “family” all took his side without question, despite supposedly loving, or at least liking, Clarke. I’m sorry, but… those two things don’t even remotely compare.