#talking duck

[demiidevil]

You know, stimming isn’t always visual or auditorial. Some people physically stim and it fucking sucks because we can’t do that without bringing attention to ourselves.

I stim through singing. Am I a good singer? Yes. Does that make my experience all throughout elementary school any less humiliating? No.

Throughout all of elementary school I was constantly singing. (Keep in mind I only very vaguely knew I had ADHD and didn’t even know what stimming was so it’s not like I could even really stop myself.) The teachers tried everything they could to get me to stop but I just???? Couldn’t???? I didn’t understand why and I hated the glares people gave me when I just couldn’t fucking stop. How was I supposed to handle myself if I didn’t even know what was going on in my head in the first place? I was so confused and then of course there where adults in my life trying to get me to do things The Neurotypical Way™️ (IE. making me say every day before school “my name is Ducky and I will not sing in class today.”)

It was torture. I felt so fucking awful that I couldn’t do what I was told. I felt embarrassed that the teachers would have to stop their lessons to try to get me to stop when I desperately wanted to, but I just couldn’t.

It wasn’t until freshman year of highschool when I stared to learn more about my ADHD. something finally clicked and I realized “OH MY FUCKING GOD I STIM THROUGH SINGING”

Now I’m able to control it better but like... people should know that this isn’t just my experience. This is a universal experience with a lot of kids with ADHD/autism. I feel like we should bring more awareness to this and start to educate kids (AND THEIR PARENTS) on their disabilities more because if I had known all that sooner I would have been able to tell my teachers. My classmates. I would have been able to help choose what would be best for me because I would have actually known what was happening in my head.

So I guess. Teach kids with ADHD and autism about their own disorders. Don’t keep them in the dark. Ignorance leads to judgement and humiliation.

[demiidevil]

I just realized something

The future chapters of Deltarune have a HUGE possibility of having a main character being in a canon lesbian relationship what with Noelle’s crush on Susie.

That’s huge and not unrealistic at all if we think about the history of lgbt rep in Toby’s work

TWO NB protagonists

A NB villain (Chara)

Two lesbians that you have to help get together if you want the true ending of the game

Two male guards getting together in the pacifist route in undertale

Noelle un-deniably having a crush on Susie

So idk about you but I’m pretty hopeful about where noelles adorable crush is hinting

[demiidevil]

When people call Chihiro “he”

[demiidevil]

Okay y’all we be eating good tonight because I just realized to something

So Jiro’s quirk lets her turn her heart beats into loud sound waves so what if she thinks of things that make her happy or nervous to make her quirk stronger by making her heart beat faster

What if, to increase her bpm (beats per minute) she thinks about Momo

Y’all,,, her love would rly be giving her power,,,,

[demiidevil]

me: :( me, thinking about if Peko had survived and Fuyuhiko and her didn’t have to hide their relationship anymore and they could be the stupid, silly siblings they couldn't be growing up: O h  o k a y i’ m c r y in g n ow!!!1!!11!!

[demiidevil]

Well the only way to get back 20gayteen now is to make kiribaku officially canon.

That’s the only way sorry I don’t make the rules.

[demiidevil]

This has been on my mind for a while,

Please tell me I’m not the only one bothered by magne’s quirk being based on gender and labeling her as a male.

Like she could have had a quirk that turned her into a magnet or an anti magnet so people flew to her or away from her at will.

but no it just had to do with gender.

[demiidevil]

So I actually had a nightmare last night that I joined a group chat that my 8 year old stepsister was on and there was someone with a map pride flag in their profile picture who was talking to her and I woke up terrified

My little sister goes on her iPad a lot and im afraid that when she starts discorvering more corners of the internet she could get hurt

Obviously this was just a dream and she’s not actually in any grouphats that I know of but it really made me worry for her because she has a lot of spunk, but she’s still incredibley innocent and I’m afraid that if something were to happen like she were to become friends with a pedophile she could really get hurt or worse!

She reminds me a bit of me when I was younger and I thought I was ready to handle the internet when I very obviously was not. And the thing is? She has the kind of personality to make that same mistake and I’m terrified that she will!

But you know what? As an eight year old, it should not be her responsibility to become more mature than she should be all because there are people who want to take advantage of her!

The fucking “anti-contact” pedophiles should be smart enough to know not to interact with minors!!!

If you were really anti contact, you would not put yourself in a position to get a crush on a minor!!! Don’t be around kids!!!!

Ugh... I really just felt like venting this and also hopefully this sends a message:

If you are a map, don’t interact with children. It terrifies everyone. Especially those who know what kind of things can happen when you do.