"it's okay to rest. i'm right here."
"creepy sentence, thank you."
there's no seat in the console room. she's going to bully the tardis into changing that. it's not that she plans on going on a trip again ( she is lying to herself; she knows that she's lying to herself ) but she hangs out in the very much grounded tardis often enough that she'd like a seat while she's sitting around watching the doctor tinker.
( she's not in her thirties anymore. sitting on the floor has to be a planned event. )
but it's nice to have the tardis in the backyard. donna has never much understood the man cave thing, but suddenly she's found herself remembering things she hadn't remembered for fifteen years. it's nice to have a space away from the family, even if she feels routinely guilty about it.
so it's her bedroom, most often, when the doctor isn't there in the console room tinkering. the tardis even kept her bedroom. or put it back. whichever one it is, she's grateful. it's got all her things still there. souvenirs she'd picked up for her gramps still in place, like it was yesterday. no dust present.
"insanely creepy," she adds, eyes still closed, tipped over on her back on the familiar bed in the tardis bedroom. there's no bite behind her words. while she'd been terrified out of her wits the first time autumn had appeared, by now she's alright. she's familiar. you see a ghost twice and have a conversation and it's sort of normal. "sounds like the thing a serial killer says in one of those american cop shows right before they get you."
"i think i'm going mad. for so many reasons, really, but -" so many. she doesn't know whether to go with the alphabetical or chronological. there's a strain in her voice when she talks. she's been given an opening, and the tardis -- it's safe. autumn isn't going to tell on her. she nearly says the big one - wanting, so badly, to keep everyone together, to keep the doctor here, to make sure her family are happy, but she clamps her mouth shut around the words.
"i don't know what i was thinking with this UNIT job. smartest people in the world, and then there's me."