Tarissa!!! It’s been 15 years (more like a few days but I’m dramatic)~~ my fault, but missed you!
NCT I answered but ayee iKON! The ults! Thank you for asking 🙏🏼
My first bias: not under the forceful influence of my cousin? Bobby
Your current bias and why: you know this all depends on when you’re asking but since this ain’t my ikon blog (no mutuals here right?!) Donghyuk (don’t tell my fellow Jinhwan stans) - DK is so charming and nice and his smile is so cute and he’s so hard working and the list is infinite
Fav song: Everything (so much meaning in the song ㅠㅠ)
Fav MV: Beautiful... lol! But official mv would be Apology
OTP: 97’ Jundongsss
Member with the best smile: BOBBY
Fav choreography: Goodbye road
Fav era: rubber band!!!
Do you own merch? Too much? 1 ver of all the albums (minus Japanese albums and new kids begin... sad about that) slogans(I ordered but haven’t recieved them yet) and I just recently (finally) got the konbat ver. 2! Oh I also own an acrylic standee and uhhh posters
Have you seen them live: no :((( I hope!
Favorite voice: Junhoe, without hesitation!!!
Favorite dancer: I SAY GOD YOU SAY KIM EVERYBODY SAYS DONGHYUK
David Reed was, all things considered, rather okay at the moment. The office was quiet, just the way he liked it. The only ambient noise was the perpetual hum of the fluorescent lights and the distant rumble of the air conditioner, keeping the SPIRE stacks at a comfortable 74 degrees Fahrenheit despite the outside chill. He was, as far as he knew, the only person here, and that was pretty nice. This wasn’t unusual, as it was pretty late on a Thursday.
What was unusual was that it had been quiet all day as well, with not a single other soul seen or heard during the entire time he was here. That was fine with him - they were all with their families, as was the norm on Thanksgiving.
He had family, of course - back in Iowa, but that was a little far away, and he didn’t like visiting more than once a year anyway. They were just his cousins, and they always told him he was welcome, but he could tell it was just a formality because of family bonds and all that other crap. He was there for Christmas, and he enjoyed the younger cousins the most, because they didn’t know. He liked it that way.
He sighed, flipping shut the case file on his desk, letting his hand rest over it. A glance at his watch told him it was well past 11 PM, which was too late to be doing any work, much less finishing up case reports. Still, they needed to be done, and working on a holiday meant two things: one, overtime, and two, a minimum of interruptions. Plus, no Tarissa annoying him with her singing. She was helpful, sure, but the constant noise was not a trade off he liked making in return for her assistance.
He blearily rubbed his eyes, blinking a few times to get them to moisten up and stop irritating him so much. He didn’t really miss the danger of working out in the field, but being a desk jockey had troubles all its own. Minor ones, in comparison, but troubles nonetheless. He closed down the intranet access and dropped the file into a desk drawer, locking it before standing up.
It was a lazy, tired stand, followed by a lazy, tired stretch and a lazy, tired yawn. He wasn’t lazy, but he was tired. Working this late was unusual, but the extra money was always nice, and this way he could come in late tomorrow. All part of the plan. He’d get on the Rondache case first thing in the morning. For now, though, time to go.
He slid his chair in and picked up his coat from the back, slinging it on as he strode out of his office and closed the door behind him. The stacks were as silent as his room, and he took a moment to breathe deep. The smell of this place was soothing - old books had a very particular scent, one that was comforting and calming. It was knowledge, wisdom, all gathered up and stored so SPIRE could help save the world.
Or, you know, someone just wanted a really expansive private collection.
He was still taking a moment to unwind when he heard the door open and slam against the wall, which was not as surprising as he thought it would be. A moment later, the newcomer rounded the stacks rather roughly, leaning against one of the stacks for support. She was holding a bottle in one hand and her keys in the other.
“Tarissa? What are you doing here?” Reed called out, confused. What was she doing here this late on a holiday? Did she forget something?
“Mr Reed!” She called out, her speech slurred by the amber liquid in the bottle.
“Are you drunk?” His confusing went straight to disapproval.
“Yyyyyyup,” she said as she took a few steps forward, managing to keep her balance before she got to her reception area - or, in front of the counter, anyway. “Happy fucking Thanksgiving. Your family is shit too, eh?” She gave him a cocked grin as she looked up, eyes bloodshot, and he could smell the booze coming from her.
“What? No, I just...Rysand, what are you doing here? Go home.”
She shook her head vehemently. “Fuck that.”
“Excuse me!?”
She was taken aback, then she nodded. “Right. Sorry. Fuck that, sir.”
“Jesus, Rysand, you’re completely wasted. What are you drinking?” He snatched the bottle. Or, he snatched at the bottle, but she was too quick for him and she moved it out of his reach.
“It’s liquor, sir. Alcohol. A fermented grain mixture that is at least 51% corn, aged in new charred oak barrels, and is 80 proof.” She held up the bottle to show him the label. Wild Turkey 101. “It seemed appropriate, given the circumstances.”
He was amazed she could even say those words, but she was pretty erudite under normal conditions. “You can’t be here, Tarissa. You’ve gotta go home and sleep this off.”
“No! No. No no no,” the last one coming out rather like a petulant child refusing to get into a car seat. “No, I’m not...I’m not going home, Mr. Sir. I’m gonna stay here. Home sucks.”
“Then, go somewhere else. No one’s here now anyway.”
“Yoooooou’re here,” she slurred, pointing at him as the bottle seemed to dangle dangerously loose in her hand “Duh.”
He sighed. This was not worth the overtime. “I’m leaving. Go be with your family. Happy Thanksgiving, Rysand. I’ll see you on Monday, and if you show up drunk, I am suspending your pierced ass.” With that, he turned and strode out the door, determined to let that be his parting blow.
“Fuck you, sir!”
Okay, that was new.
He turned slowly to face her, as if questioning his ears. She had never shown an ounce of actual disrespect before, and now this? “Excuse me?”
“Why the fuck would you tell me to be with them? Did you just...forget all that shit I told you all when you hired me?” She gestured wildly with the bottle, propping herself up on the countertop, eyes ablaze with real anger. He had touched a hell of a nerve. “I’m not going to see them. I’m never going to see them. And you fucking know why.”
“I don’t know what the hell you’re on about, Rysand,” he said, his voice a threatening growl as he took a few steps back to her, “But if you ever disrespect me like that again, I will fire you so fast you won’t have time to kiss your ass goodbye.” He was right up to her now, looking down. His limp hampered his approach a little in his mind, but she was focused right on his face, not his legs. “Am I clear?”
She was taken aback by his reaction, and she waved her hands in front of her, holding them up in a gesture of innocence. “Woah, woah, Mr Reed, I’m...I’m sorry, I thought you knew and were just being...just...you know.”
“No, I do not, Rysand. Being what?”
“Being an asshole, Mr Reed! Okay!? Being a fucking asshole, like the rest of my goddamn fucking family!” The last word was a focused shout, and a careless toss of the bottle on the floor punctuated the sentence with a loud crash.
Silence. Tari slumped down to the floor, all mirth and joy from her state gone. David didn’t know what to do as Tarissa started crying, legs pulled up and arms folded in front of her eyes. The bottle was nearly empty, thankfully, but there was still broken glass to deal with. He glanced at the big red EXIT sign, but only for a second.
Son of a bitch.
He went to the broom closet and opened it, pulling out the broom and a dustpan. Tarissa’s sobs echoed throughout the stacks, muffled slightly but not really enough by the books. David tried his best to ignore them as he swept up the glass and washed off the dustpan. By the time he’d cleaned up the glass and the scattered bourbon, Tarissa had gotten little better. Again he glanced at the EXIT sign, and again, he turned away, sitting down next to his agent.
“I’m sorry,” she said in shaky tones, trying to hold together. “I’m sorry, I just, I didn’t know where else to go. I can’t go home, Mr Reed, they’ll kill me,” She stared straight again, eyes redder than before from the crying, cheeks shining with the recent tears. This was the first time David had ever seen Tarissa in any mood that wasn’t obnoxiously cheerful. “And I’m...I’m not going back to my apartment. I can’t be there.”
David said nothing, unsure of how to handle this.
“I thought you knew,” Tarissa said after another moment of uncomfortable silence. “I thought...I thought they told you everything I told them, Mr Reed. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
“Told me what, Tarissa?” he asked against his better judgement.
“That I was...that I used to...oh, God, I...I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Mr Reed, I can’t- I can’t do this. I can’t do this. I’m sorry. Please leave.” She was tripping over her words, and herself, as she tried to stand up. It was not a great attempt, and she held on tight to the counter to keep herself up.
David stood up, helping her keep steady. “Easy, Rysand. Easy. It’s okay, it’s...it’s fine. Don’t worry about it. Let’s just, uh…” Well, he couldn’t take her home, and she said not her apartment, which really left just one place. “Let’s get out of here. You can sleep on my couch.”
“No, I can’t, I- I’ll just sleep here tonight, I can...the desk is fine.” She made a weak attempt to pull lean back against the counter, but wobbled unsteadily on her feet, and David moved in to support her again.
“No. You need a proper bed and some water, or Black Friday’s going to be more of a nightmare than it already is. Come on, Rysand.” He gently guided her towards the way out as she weakly mumbled a thank you, stumbling every step of the way.
Tarissa would take the same route home from work, every night. She would turn down the same streets on her bike, and she would drive down the road, virtually alone on this stretch of highway. Every night, the fifth light after the old farmhouse would wink out, just as she got close to it.
Every night, when it turned off, there was a brief second as the unflash of darkness formed in the space where the light had been. It was a dark flash, the darkest she’d ever seen anything, a black that stood out from the rest of the night like a hole in the sky.
She always felt cold as she drove through the space, a brief chill that penetrated even during winter through her normal layers. A cool breeze was welcome on the hot summer nights, but this was a sickly cold, one that seemed to sap her strength rather than refresh her.
A strange noise bubbled up, one that seemed sound from inside of her rather than around her. It was low, and quiet, but she always heard it, and it always reminded her of looking down into a deep, bottomless ocean, watching as the light would just peter out.
Then, she was through the space, and all was well again.
After the first few times, she always gunned her engine. She made a note to fully investigate one day. Maybe her boss would be interested.
Tarissa slipped the tome onto the shelf, shoving a few other books aside to make room for it. A Biologikal Studae On The Therianthrope, by one Charlotte N. Q. M. s. Celler, Esq. Originally published back in the 17th century, it was considered the authority on werewolves and other shifters until it came to light that virtually everything in it was completely made up.
Except, Tari mused, for the parts on the fur quality, which are surprisingly accurate.
The bell at the desk dinged. She considered just letting Reed take it, but she knew that Reed wouldn't take it, because Reed never took any of them. At the start, when his limp had been much worse, her doing all of the grunt work made sense. She could get anywhere in the room with no trouble, given her climbing skills. Translating those skills to book filing was pretty easy. And fun!
Well, fun for her. Reed didn’t tend to think so.
Their first month or two was not super smooth. Both of them were new to the position, and as Tarissa had learned, they were rather different people. Where Tarissa would hop from shelf to shelf, singing Let It Go loudly (but expertly, she might add), Reed would stay in his office and occasionally grumble (equally loudly, which was an impressive feat).
Now, they had worked out a sort of rapport.
Stepping into the shadows, Tarissa moved to within sight of the front desk. There was a woman standing there. Detective, likely, by her outfit. Short-cut black hair, high cheekbones, piercing gray-green eyes. Tarissa didn’t know her name. Yet.
Feet securely gripping to the shelf above the desk, Tarissa dropped down and held fast, getting at eye level with Detective Tilde, as a quick glance to her badge revealed. Tilde jumped and stepped back, hand instinctively reaching for her sidearm before she settled down at Tari’s wide smile.
“Greetings and welcome to the archive section! My name is Tarissa, and I am the primary research and filing assistant here. How may I assist you today?” She always enjoyed greeting people in this pose.
“I...uh...” Detective Tilde seemed a bit flabbergasted, but she composed herself quickly, a quirky smile gracing her lips. “You’re interesting. I’m here to some old records on a case, am I in the right place?”
“You are! I do not have the authority to search and recover files from cases, solved or otherwise, but I can pass the information on to my supervisor, who does. Do you have the case number and your employee number?”
“Yeah, they’re right here.” Tilde dug around in her pocket, then pulled out a post it note, upon which a string of letters and numbers was handwritten. She handed it to Tarissa, who pulled herself up and out of sight.
A minute later, she walked into Reed’s office. Her boss was typing away at a computer, cross-referencing it with a book from the stacks. He didn’t look up at she entered. “What is it this time?”
“Case files request, Mr Reed,” Tarissa said as she slid the paper onto his desk. He frowned at it, likely displeased that he would have to go and do actual work, but he nodded and tapped a few keys, then pulled a key off of his belt and handed it to her.
“Section H, cabinet 9S.”
“Understood, Mr Reed,” Tari said as she exited, vanishing into the shade right outside the man’s door.
A few moments later, the files were in Tilde’s hands. Smiling, Tari walked back into Reed’s office. “How are you today, Mr Reed?”
Reed didn’t answer. Tari expected this, as he never had, and likely never would. “Same as always? That is as surprising as it was yesterday. Do you have any additional assignments for me before I go to lunch?”
“Nope,” he said, again refusing to meet her gaze as she stood there, hands behind her back, bouncing on the tips of her toes. Her smile made the room that much brighter. He probably thought it was disgustingly bright.
“What do you think I should get today, Mr Reed? Do you have any suggestions on new restaurants that have opened around the office? I have been looking to expand my palate.” She continued the conversation, knowing that he would continue to pretend she wasn't in the room. It was fun that way.
Silence. He turned the page.
“I believe I will indulge today and pick up a slice of pizza from Dante’s. Would you like one as well, Mr Reed? I shall pick one up for you when I do, and you can continue to work.” Satisfied, she gave a decisive nod. “In addition, I will be borrowing ISBN 8211-9332-7658 to read over lunch. I believe you would better know it by the title, Wizards of America. I will return it following my meal.” She turned on the balls of her feel and exited Reed’s office, heading for the door to the station.
“Sausage and pineapple,” came Reed’s voice from behind her. “And a coke. Please.”
Smiling, Tarissa gave a slight nod as she exited. “Understood, Mr Reed.”
The walk back to Crowe’s apartment was a long one from where they were in the quarantine zone. The sun was nearly down in the sky, and the three were moving fast to try and get home before curfew hit. They’d been nabbed once, and Crowe had no intention or desire to get caught a second time in a single day.
“So who set us up?” Ember finally decided to ask.
“I’ve got three guesses, and all of them are Conner and her Renegades,” Crowe said as he ducked under a collapsed section of roof, holding it open for Tarissa and Ember to follow.
Ember scoffed, shaking her head. “She still salty about how you beat her to that crossing last month? Sure as hell ain’t your fault she can’t do her shit properly.”
“Well, when you decide to take the dangerous route right through the military base, getting half of your crew pinched is a lot less easy to excuse,” Crowe reasoned. “She wanted to get there first. She knew the risks.”
“And you shot her,” Ember reminded him.
Crowe gave a nod of admission. “Yeah, I kinda did.”
“You two lead very interesting lives,” Tarissa said as she hopped over a barrier. “I take it that you are both procurers and distributors of illegal goods?”
“When you phrase it that way, it makes us sound like professionals.” Ember moved up next to Crowe and doing some window shopping as they passed the stores, summer displays set out for a sale that never ended up happening. Storefront signs had faded a little in the twenty years since the outbreak, sections of the entire mall having collapsed out of neglect and some malicious intent. Due to their size and layout, malls tended to attract people who didn’t want to be found. Find way to control those metal shutters and you’ve got an easily defensible home.
Of course, for these same reasons, malls were raided early on in the panic that followed the outbreak. Every camping store had been stripped of survival gear as people went to live in the wild. Guns and ammo were taken with abandon, often used on friends or family - and equally often, on their new owners.
For those reasons, Ember and Crowe didn’t bother searching the place thoroughly for any gear or tradeable supplies. The area was off limits anyway. “We are professionals,” Crowe protested, keeping his voice down. “At least, like, eighty percent of the time.” Glancing up ahead, Crowe noticed them moving into one of the squares that lead off into the mall’s various arms – and smoke rising from a campfire that was escaping out one of the broken windows. Looking back to Ember and Tarissa, he put a finger to his lips, lowering his stance and pulling the rifle off of his back.
The two nodded in return. Tarissa’s steps became noiseless as she too dropped lower. Ember pulled the sidearm from her waistband, producing a small click as she turned off the safety. Following Crowe’s lead, the three moved into the square.
An elevated square fountain was the centerpiece of the area, coated in moss and mold, but otherwise drained. The glimmer of coins could be faintly seen in the last dregs of the sunset, and the area smelled of staleness and smoke. The fire’s crackling was audible even from outside the square, and several stalls sat around the area, their products a testament to their time. One had rows upon rows of cell phone cases for display, another was showing off makeup, and a third had custom made CAUTION signs. BEWARE OF ZOMBIES, one said. The irony was not lost on Ember, who silently giggled as she passed by.
Approaching the corner, Crowe peeked out around the fountain and at the campfire. Behind him, Ember and Tarissa were stacked up, ready to move if they had to. The fire’s area was empty, though the fire itself was still going, a trail of smoke and sparks rising up to the ceiling. A purple two-person tent was set up nearby, with a folding camping chair set out close to the fire. A pot was sitting on a metal grate, cooking some kind of soup or stew in the fire’s heat as flames licked the bottom.
Waving his hands forward, Crowe stepped out, keeping low and his weapon out and ready. Save for the crackling of the fire and the bubbling of the pot’s contents, silence ruled as the group scurried around the campsite and past it, aiming for the opposite end of the square. They’d nearly reached it when they heard a faint twang, and an arrow flew past Crowe’s head, embedding itself and its aluminum shaft in the painted wood of one of the square’s benches.
With a shout, Crowe stumbled back, landing on his rear and nearly crashing right into Ember, who was trying to keep from laughing. He scurried a few steps on his hands and feet before standing up, following the trajectory of the arrow with his eyes and glaring up at the ceiling. “You’re an asshole, Fletcher.”
Swinging down from his out-of-sight perch in the rafters, Fletcher grinned, a composite longbow in one hand and another arrow in the other. “Admit it. You missed me.”
Grinning just slightly, Crowe nodded. “I did. A bit. Come on down.”
Sliding down one of the support columns, Fletcher was on the ground in seconds, sliding his bow over his shoulder. Crowe shouldered his weapon, and Ember and Tarissa followed his lead, moving back over to the campfire. They met by the fire, Crowe and Fletcher embracing briefly before he gave Ember a kiss on the cheek. “Good to see you alive, birdbrain. You too, Em. And who might this be?” he asked as he turned his attention to Tarissa.
“My name is Tarissa, and I have recently met Crowe and Ember,” she explained, extending her hand. “Your name is Fletcher? As in, the part of the arrow?”
“I have an actual name, but it’s stupid, so Fletcher will do.” He grinned, then shook Tarissa’s hand firmly. “Pleasure to meet you, Tarissa.” He sat down, then indicated the others should, too. “You all look tired. New gear?” he said, nodding to the assault rifles that Ember and Crowe carried.
“Military wasn’t using it anymore,” Crowe said simply. “Decided to put it in the hands of some more honest citizens.”
“Not sure why they gave it to you, then,” Fletcher said as he stirred the pot. “You know Conner’s out for your ass?”
Ember nodded. “Yeah, she tried to pull one on us today. Or, we think it was her. Lured us out with the promise of Firefly work. You know anything about them in this area?”
Fletcher shook his head. “Sorry, Sparky, can’t tell you that. What I can tell you is that she went so far as to ask even us to do something to take care of you for a bit. I was actually on the way to pay you a visit and warn you – she’s been offering good payment for anyone who can dupe you into a dummy job.”
“Well, she succeeded,” he said, voice tinged with annoyance. “Got me about 8 hours of running around and captured by the military that I really didn’t need in my life. Did she want to embarrass me that much?”
“Seems strange that she’d want you to be made a sucker,” Ember commented. “Maybe she’s trying to kill your rep?”
“Could be, but this seems complex for something like that. I have a feeling the military thing was just a coincidence – the pick up point was on one side of town, the meet up was the other. Why so far apart from each other?” Crowe mused aloud, trying to piece it all together.
“If I may assist?” Tarissa began. Crowe indicated her to continue. “Perhaps her efforts were merely to remove you from somewhere, or make sure you are not a variable in a situation. If your job was a false one, the location spacing would be best at making sure that you would take as much time as possible. Perhaps she did not want you to interfere in something.”
“But what? What else has she been doing, Fletch?” Crowe asked the archer, turning to face him.
“Aside from her usual activities?” Fletcher shrugged, still stirring. “Nothing odd. Heard some rumors that she’d gotten roped in with a hunter or slaver ring, but that was two or three months ago. She’s also been trying to acquire a lot of demolitions gear and vehicles, along with survival supplies.”
“Slavers? Would she r-“ Crowe stopped short as a few lines formed, connecting dots. Glancing over, Ember had the same expression on her face, and they both felt dread wash over them like a bucket of ice water. “Oh no,” Crowe whispered to himself, eyes wide as his brain was going through the worst possible scenario.
“What? Did she…oh no,” Fletcher said as he too made the connection. All three of them got up, and Fletcher began to pack up his tent and gear. Crowe and Ember were already heading for the way out. Tarissa also stood up and followed her friends, confused. “Go on ahead! I’ll catch up!” Fletcher called as the group ran towards the exit.
“What is it? What is the reason for our haste?” Tarissa asked as they hustled, the girl keeping pace easily.
“Yasala,” was all Crowe said, his voice shaking as they sprinted through the ruined mall.