As sappy as this sounds, waking up today I had a feeling of subtle contentness, more of a weirdly peaceful aura. I've lost that for a while now, but it's as if seeing the boys breaking down right then and there yesterday, made all of us come a little closer and let ourselves loose. I may not have been able to actually cry, but i did have an amazing long chat with one of my friends over the phone, and whether it saddens me or not, seeing that our boys are still there, stronger than ever, still as one, makes me even happier after all. Today, that's just a reason for me to be thankful they never gave up, and not letting myself give up yet.2018 has been hard, and we all just need a to have a break, even if it's just for a while.










