So an update regarding the okcupid guy.
Last week he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. I thought, holy shit is this real life? Do I have a boyfriend??
Well, he has not spoken to me at all in the week since then.
I feel like I’m living in a Taylor Swift song.
I fucking hate this. Like, if he wants some space, that’s cool, I get that. But fucking tell me that. I’m not a goddamn mind reader.
He hasn’t been online on okcupid at all either, which has me thinking he did meet someone else on there that he liked better. But if he did, then why ask me to be his girlfriend? I’m not gonna just sit on my fucking hands, waiting around for him.
I don’t understand what’s going on. Like, literally. I have no frame of reference for this kind of behavior. I have literally no clue what is going on and I hate it. My depression and my anxiety are getting worse because of this. I’m not sleeping through the night. I feel like I’m on the verge of a panic attack all the time.
This is shit. Boys are shit. Dating is shit. I hate it here.