#tea-service

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finals week

I chewed and filed away all of my fingernails, should I begin to chew on my cuticles too?

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This is just where my brain is at:

His failures are not mine. It is not anything I did or didn’t do that has caused him to feel this way. He is trying to figure some things out for himself at his own pace that is separate from our relationship together.

I need to remind myself that it is not my job/duty to “fix” on his behalf.

It just feels weird. Like I’m being punished and avoided. I’m needy and I’m taking it personal but this moment he’s facing has nothing to do with me and everything to do with himself and his own actions.

It is not my job/duty to fix

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Always feeling like trash. When/How do I find purpose in life. I never thought I’d be such a cliche. Bleh.

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But I desperately want to dress cool and in oversized / chunky tulle and gems

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I don’t know what I’m for sure doing and I’m scared.

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I really really really have a deep desire to be coddled by the one I love. I want to cry into his arms.

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One thing I miss. Maybe. Mi copeté.