Teacher: Does any one how many Muses there are in Greek Mythology.
Me: Nine
Teacher: Very good and these were the Muses of Zeus.
Me: Apollon
Teacher: No they were of Zeus you must be mistaken.
Me: The Nine Muses of creativity and Music were Muses of Apollon, as he was the God of Music, medicine, and prophecy. I have this book on Delphi, a sacred shrine to Apollon, in my bag if you would like to consult it, but the Muses were definitely of Apollon not Zeus.
Ok, so this morning, my Facs (Family And Consumer Science) teacher decides to fail me on a cooking lab because I was tired and didn't have the energy to help anyone clean up. Little did she know, I was tired asf, my legs were aching, I had a major head ache, a sore throat, and to top it all off, I had surgery on my knee a while ago and today my knee almost gave out in her class, and another thing, I realized my life is just a pattern. Wake up, get on bus, deal with fucking teachers all day, then go home, do hw, go to bed, and repeat all that the next day. So on that note I was a little on the depressed side this morning too. That's like me having her fired for being sick and not being able to go to school. She pissed me off on that. She also failed me on something because I didn't answer 3 questions out of 16. She said those 3 questions were the "key questions". That's like saying, "This test is worth 500 points, but only 5 out of 100 questions give you the points. Like are you fucking serious? That's fucking stupid and it pisses me off.
One positive thing I can take out of this school year is that I have a wonderful class. I have 21 students and they are a wonderful group of kids. I’m often told I have the best class in the school. Of course there’s always a few issues, but nothing major.
I’ve also gotten much better at controlling my temper the last few years. Last year there was a girl in one 4th grade class who was absolutely horrible...one of the worst kids I ever had, and I only had her once a week for 40 minutes! By the end of the year it took me 20 of those minutes before I would lose it on her LOL.
This year I think I lost it only once or twice and it wasn’t even a big deal, so yay. I’m like a confidant and counselor to the kids. They want to speak with me privately about things they’re going through, and I talk them through it. Even when the one girl who is emotionally disturbed and bipolar has a freak out, I’ve gotten excellent at quickly diffusing it. Her counselor told me that she loves me and feels like I’m the first teacher to really care about her.
I just got an email from a parent of a kid in my class who is worried because her daughter, who is very smart, has been feeling down lately. I’ve noticed a few times at the end of the day she looks depressed and I ask her about it, but she just shakes her head and tries to smile. Well her mother told me it’s because her BFF is also in my class, another fantastic kid, and she has been making other friends, thus she feels excluded. Now every time I call on the other girl or recognize her for something, she’s getting upset. Today I accidentally forgot to give her and another girl a paper and she took that to heart...I even asked her “You’re not upset because of that are you?” (I apologized...lol)
I try really hard to relate to the kids. I’m 20 years older than they are, but I remember fourth grade vividly. I was bullied by my peers, AND bullied by my psycho teacher. Once I accidentally knocked her vase over onto her desk and she screamed at me calling me lazy and put all the wet paper towels on my desk saying, “HOW DO YOU LIKE IT HUH?” Believe it or not I knocked it over again later in the year and immediately ran to the back of the room crying hysterically. I always think of that story when I get upset with them. Like a little girl who was NOT where she was supposed to be knocked over a ceramic gift I got from a student that was on my desk and it broke....I almost lost it but then thought about that...
I always have a story for the kids to try and relate to them. I argue with my parents too, I’ve told my parents I hate them too, I love that Full House episode, etc.
The parent of this child asked me to talk to her on Monday about how she’s been feeling. Apparently she feels like no one notices her and she feels invisible. She wants me to talk to her though without letting her know her mom asked me to...
I feel so sad for this girl because I know EXACTLY how she feels and I’m 20 years older and still feel that way every single day and I don’t want her to live her life that way! I hope when I talk to her I don’t cry or something and can help her in some way.
I love my kids and I feel like they’re my own...when they’re sad (about something legit...not like because they didn’t do their h/w and have detention) I’m sad too.
Mom picked me up yesterday and I got a fever when we got home. Woke up this morning with such a scratchy throat, I sound like a smoker. Still haven't finish this assignment that takes hours to do with over 1000 words to write....
1. My business teacher grades homework fucking fast
2. My econ teacher likes to put all the shit up for like 5 weeks in advance in an hour and scare the hell out of me because I thought they were all due tonight.
3. My english teacher is posting things at a nice pace..