Throwback to That time when back surgery happened. It’s been 4 years since I had a L5/S1 ALIF discectomy. This procedure is when they open you up front the front and the back. No days are easy. “How did YOU need back surgery” you may ask? Debilitating pain from bulging and ruptured discs became worse overtime. I was the one pushing myself past my body’s own threshold of discomfort and then a little past that. At this point I was at my 16.5 year mark in my career and with many thoughts of, “just fix me up and put me back in the fight”, Little to my knowledge I learned this back surgery would take me approximately 15 months to get back to 85-90% of Robyn. There were days, weeks, and even months I completely quit and turned to a diet of narcotics and alcohol. (Which only a couple people come to know how bad it truly was) Unable to jump back into my old fitness mindset from the pain, I became grossly out of Standards, majorly depressed, and addicted to narcotics. It was a cycle that lead to horrible behavior and decisions. Long story short, I couldn’t handle the self sabotage so I self admitted to a substance abuse outpatient clinic while on active duty. My boys and my own life were far more valuable than allowing a temporary trauma to beat me into a fraction of the person I’ve trained my entire life to become. So, I thought “FUCK THAT, FUCK THIS, and FUCK YOU!” And I got back to ME by crushing the grind every…… damn….. day! I was the only one that knew when I had enough. Thank you to everyone who has been the love and support and believing in me over the years. #tbt #backsurgery #trauma #neverquit #teamnoabs #chickswholift #chickswithscars #nooffdays (at Everywhere) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXSTLQQjDTm/?utm_medium=tumblr
