So what’s up? First and foremost, Pokemon X and Y were just announced. We only have five of them announced as of yet. The starters and the legendaries: Fennekin, Chespin, Froakie, Xerneas, and Yveltal. I’m really excited to see the rest of the Pokemon, hopefully there’ll be a new eeveelution. But the 3D graphics, wow! Well, moving on, I’ll tell you all the things we have planned for this year. I think the Imagine Dragons concert is going to be on Valentine’s Day which I’m uber excited for. Were we able to go to it? How was it? But if something happened and I couldn’t go, there are still other things. March is Momocon. I’m out of my head with that. We planned to go as God Tier Tavros and Jake, along with Jennifer’s Horuss. And then of course JakeDirk. -swoons- Oh about that, Homestuck has ended, hasn’t it? Well you probably wouldn’t have finished catching up, because you still aren’t, but ask Josh about it. But you should know about the game that comes out in 2014, which will be the year you get this letter. I bet it’s going to be awesome. Hmmm... And in April is your birthday! 18 wow, you’re an adult now right? Well I guess I am too. How was that? Was I able to come to your party? And I think prom might’ve been in April. How did that go? Was it the most romantic thing ever? Dancing under the lowlights of the aquarium, in love? And then May is graduation! Man that would’ve been so exciting. Did we see eachother? (oh and did I ever tell my dad about you? I’ve been so nervous about it but I know I need to) June is my birthday then, eh? I don’t know what I’m going to do about it considering my dad will be moving to Arizona. But I just want to spend it with you. Then we can have all of summer to hang out! Oh and then in college in the fall. I’m sure you get in. You told me today that you still don’t know what you want to be but you’re thinking among Dietics, Nursing, and Psychology. And I said Anthropology. This would be the beginning of second semester. How is college so far? Do you like it? Is it all that you hoped for? Do we get to be together?
I guess that brings me to my next point. I’ve never had a long lasting relationship. I really want this to last, and at two months, I don’t see a flaw in our relationship, whether that be good or bad. Man won’t it be devastating if we just happen to break up and I get sent this letter only to be flooded with old emotions that I made myself forget? I wish more than anything we’re still together in the future. I honestly don’t see why we would separate at this point. But hey if you, Grant, actually read this, tell me about it. I’m sure that even if we are separated, we’ll still be good friends. Because if there’s anything as close to being a good boyfriend as you, it’s being a best friend. Our conversations generally last like you getting done with all your work and stuff in the afternoon and then we skype until usually around 12-2am. And just today (the day I’m writing this), I got a free texting app on my phone so I could text you during school. I wonder if I ever get in trouble for that. But anyways, this is the part that I say where I would like us to be in a year. I’d certainly like to physically talk to you and be with you, that’s one thing for sure. You promised you’d teach me how to hang out and get me out of this “hermit” stage or whatever. You’re so uplifting. I’m not sure what it is, but you make me feel so comfortable and special and fearless. And I’ve said that’s what I think dictates my life: fear. And now that we’re in college, I won’t have that fear. I only wish you could send a reply back in time to tell me how things are going. Is it worth the wait?
Hmm.. do I get my first kiss? How was it? I’m not even sure how it’ll be. Is it spur of the moment? Is it long and drawn out? How did it feel?
A single notification on a Facebook most often carries little to no meaning. A friend can like a status and a life will go on unchanged. This was not the case, however, when Josh Parker sent me a message for the first time. Of course, I was skeptical at first. Who is this random boy? What possessed him to want to get to know me? However tacky and outdated YOLO is, its spirit guided my hand and clicked “Accept.” Now I’m sure we’ll open these letters in a year and laugh our asses off, Joshie. Anyway, little did I know that at that point my life would change forever.
My relationships in the past have been failures. There’s never been on honest “love,” a staple, of course, to any serious relationship. All of that was surface level. I’d known for a while that I wasn’t attracted to the people I dated. I looked at boys. I like boys (Hear that mom and dad?). Surprisingly too, once I had gotten back from camp, I realized that I was no longer the derpy little sophomore I had once been. People were hitting on me, and I liked it. I finally had chances with guys. With your request Josh, I felt confident. I saw you, and I looked in to you. Before I started taking a chance with this unbelievably adorable boy, I needed to creep so hard. You gave me your tumblr, I went through all your videos. Once I had access to your pictures and statuses, I went through everything. I didn’t want the first boy that I really liked and had a chance with to reject me. You started talking about Homestuck and Pokemon and I realized that you were just about as dorky as I was. Additionally, you were intelligent, charming and, overall, alluring. We had only spoken for about two days before I said I liked you (Gotta go fast). I buried my face in my arm once I clicked send. I thought at that point I had made a terrible mistake; like I hd ruined a blossoming friendship. You know how going fast complicated things later, but this action kick started what had now blossomed in to a beautiful relationship. I think about you constantly, and today was the day where I didn’t actually have to go through school without thinking of what you were doing. We complained about stuff yeah, but it was extremely comforting to have you there. Today was just a small example of how much you overwhelm my life. There has not been one night where I have not Skyped you and felt my heart fill with love (Grant will be laughing at this point because he made a cheesy Les Mis reference). Every moment I spend with you, good and bad, has shown me what it’s like to actually feel love.
To the us of the future, be safe you moron. Especially you Grant, you get really excited about things and tend not to think about their outcomes. You had better be loving the crap out of Josh and being the best person you can be and fulfilling your dreams with whatever you want to be doing. As long as you’re happy, I hope you are prospering with Josh at your side. And to Josh, at this moment as I look at you (you just waved to me) I have never felt so in love and so attracted to a person in all my life. Never before have I yearned for anyone’s touch as much as I do yours. I want to lock my lips with yours and give you all the love that exists inside of me. I hope that you and Grant are so intensely happy together and that you look back at this message and are reminded of all of the love that exists between you two. Joshie, look after him. Sometimes he gets discouraged and shy, but not around you. He loves you so much and won’t ever stop. And to you from the Grant of 2013, I hope that he is comforting you. I hope that you are happy right now (I love your squinty smile and dimples) and that you will be in the future as well. Be accountable for each other, make sure that the other is happy and be a shoulder to lean upon when they need it most. You two are so perfect, and I wish I could know right now what you two are up to now and what you have done. How was Momocon? Did you two go to see Imagine Dragons together? Was having sex for the first time magical? I wish you both the best in your life ahead. I love you, Joshua Parker. Remember that for as long as you live. I love you ecstatically. I love you most ardently. Be happy with your lives and good luck. If there is time travel in the future, I wish that you would somehow show me that you two are together right now! …It was worth a shot. Enjoy yourselves you crazy kids! Live the crap out of your lives!!