In regards to your "spill". I won't neglect the fact that all of what you described is a truly terrible circumstance. But I know that you're intelligent. And very proud. I feel as if the combination of those two particular traits will amount to you not being physically able to allow yourself to stay in your current situation permanently. You'll no doubt find a way to change things. It may not be easy or enjoyable, but somehow I don't see that stopping you.
Huh. Well I suppose I appreciate your seemingly heartfelt sentiment.
There really isn't much that stops me. Really.
As aggravating as it is to notice all the simple things most people I see in media, or speak to online are taking for granted, that I've never had, and may yet never have, I still don't really consider it a big deal.
There's countless other aggravations, each more distressing, or inconvenient, or pointedly abstract than the last, that I'd rather focus my negative energies on. And that may not stop it from being a fact, but it does make it much easier for me to deny that little fact the opportunity to be A Thing.
It's not a big deal, but I appreciate the encouragement. Spurring people on is typically my department, to be honest. Sometimes English's, although he rarely finds a dent in my approach or my defenses sufficient enough to warrant me needing any, so he just tries futilely to whittle me down.
If the opportunity presents itself, hell the fuck yes I'm going to remedy that shit, but in the meantime? It's just a little tidbit, some meaningless fact about my disposition to confess, while we were on the topic of not being entirely aloof and obtuse from every conceivable angle.
