so the testosterone is definitely almost done exiting my body which issss unfortunate but as for some last observations... my voice is deeper, if only by a few notches, but that makes me happy. im unhappy with the fact that my range is shot and i cant sing well anymore, if anyone whos been on t has any advice to regain or train myself id love that. im much hairier, albeit its barely noticeable, but I NOTICE IT and it makes me so happy. honestly i was pretty fuzzy before t but being on it for just a few months made my mustache DEFINITELY thicker and far more visible, and the hair around my cheeks and chin and jaw is much longer and thicker as well. i believe that when i go back on t im really going to be able to grow a beard, and maybe even pretty quickly (for trans masc standards, anyways). hair that ended at my belly button now goes all the way up my chest and is on my boobs too which i think is sexy. hair growth was one of the most important things i wanted from t and im really happy to be assured it will be one of the more prominent things that will happen when i return to it. i missed my last period? which i think it a little weird seeing how when i was on t i still got it but my periods always been irregular. ive been sooooo fucking moody and sensitive and i WILL let the full moon take some of the blame on that one but its also probably the hormones in my body saying “alright girls its time to estrogenize!” and thats okay i guess -__- my acne is kind of sucky still but its not as bad as when i was on it, and i work at at a fast food restaurant rn so i guess it makes sense that im greasy but i wasnt greasy before t so .... F........ all in all what ive learned from this experience is that i definitely want to go back on t when im able. i need to figure out a correct dosage and proooobably go about it the right way this time (maybe... but gabriel if youre reading this ToT bro.. i love u). now that im in this awkward stage of definitely still not passing- which is a whole nother topic that, as a bigender individual, is difficult to understand even myself- but having a slight taste of the effects and being disappointed that i cannot continue at this time is pretty stressful and saddening. it awakened and enhanced certain aspects of dysphoria i wasnt so familiar with before which is kind of upsetting but i know someday ill be able to continue. this is so long and nobody is reading it but i think its important to myself that i document it. i could put this under a read more, but i will not, because i am rude now >:)