I’m gonna start tagging all the affirmations I post in case these banal feel-good sentiments are annoying anyone, but I have to say, I started yesterday and I already feel weirdly better. I don’t know if it’s just coincidental. Maybe my cycle has shifted and I’m back on the upswing for purely chemical reasons, or maybe I’ve finally adjusted to my half dose of antis, but I am starting to remember what it felt like when I was okay with myself. And how that peace and okay-ness with who I was made me so much more charitable to others. I kept it to myself because no one needs or wants to hear about the bitchiness that takes over me when I’m unwell, but I was starting to just fume at people - primarily just celebs, people whose beauty is celebrated for some reason or another. I was falling back into that pattern of seeing nothing but ugly, and that only happens when I’m angry at myself and wishing I loved me. When I love me enough, I don’t feel angry at others who are beautiful or successful or loved. It’s pretty simple. Anyway, today I feel happy. I don’t know if it’ll last. But this is a really welcome reminder that even though I’ll have more bad days and lows, I’ll also have more days like this, when I’m comfortable in my body and I feel kind.
