I can easily compare my feelings about relationships to my feelings about driving.
Currently, I do not do either.
I feel similarly about these things in a lot of ways. I'm afraid of both, for reasons I both do and do not completely understand. I am predisposed to believe that I'm bad at both, though there is not necessarily any proof of either. On some level I understand that there is a learning curve to both of these things and the skills in both won't just come to me overnight yet I still find myself nervous to even approach that learning curve.
They say that practice makes perfect, another concept that I believe applies to both and that I do agree with, in theory. The more I drive a car, the better I will be at it. The more I actively try to have relationships, the better they will be and the better I will be at making them work out. And yet...
People have expectations of me when it comes to both of these things. "When are you going to learn how to drive?" "When are you going to get a boyfriend?"
My answer to both of these questions is usually just,
"No."
There is something holding me back and until I can get over it I won't be driving and I won't be dating because I live by a philosophy that if I don't enjoy something I won't do it. Right now I don't even enjoy the idea of either of these things. That is how strong my aversion to driving and dating is.
I plan on changing. Just biting the bullet and pushing past the first awful humps of uncomfortable awkward learning stages because I want to be able to do these things, not because it's expected of me but because I'm tired of being held back by my own fear.
Wish me luck, guys!