Something’s Missing
Chapter Four
The pain in Medic’s chest was unbearable and so was the pain in Pyro’s stomach. You could say they were even now.
Pyro’s vision was blurred with tears, “I’m sorry,” he repeated over and over again.
Medic looked at the Pyro. He couldn’t think. The pain was just too much. He did the only thing he truly remembered. Healing.
Pyro had stopped apologizing. He was out of breath and his head felt fuzzy. He looked up and saw Medic staring down at him.
Medic kneeled down, “I’m going to use stitches it would take to long to get the medigun ready,” The doctor sounded completely apathetic to the situation. The truth was he was trying to mask the embarrassment of not being able to turn the machine on.
“Thank you,” Pyro winced as the needle pierced his skin.
Once Medic had finished stitching and disinfecting the wound reality began to catchup with him again. The scalpel still lying on the floor where he’d dropped it, no longer glistening because it was covered in drying blood. Pyro’s blood.
“What happened?” Medic’s voice quivered as he sunk to the floor.
“You stabbed me.” Pyro said trying to avoid the topic. He wasn’t upset just hurt, mentality and physically.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know what I was doing. I just needed- never mind… I don’t need anything from you.” Medic immediately regretted adding that last comment. It felt so wrong to say.
Everything was beginning to look blurry even though he was wearing his glasses.
“Why do I want you?” Medic didn’t mean to say that but he’d already said so there was no point in taking it back.
Pyro didn’t know how to answer that question. Saying “Because you love me” just sounded wrong and he also hated speaking for other people. It had happened to him to many times to count.
“I’ll take your silence as an ‘I don’t know’, Well thats great someone else who’s as clueless as I am.”
“I’m not clueless I’m just confused and upset and I think you are too.”
“I have another a question you might have an answer too. Why do you keep bothering me?”
“That’s because I love you and- and I know you’re memories are in there somewhere and Engi told me you were ran to your lab and I don’t think you should be alone.”
“Please don’t that you love me. It hurts so much.” Medic’s voice broke.
“I don’t want an apology I want you to stop.”
Medic just wanted all the pain to stop, his throat was beginning to feel like little knives were tearing into it, and his vision was even worse.
Pyro suddenly got up and despite the pain made his way to Medic.
“What are you doing,” Medic could barely speak.
Pyro brought a gloved hand to Medic’s face trying to wipe away the doctor’s tears “You’re crying.”
“I asked what you were doing not- oh I am” How could he have not noticed that?
Pyro had only seen Medic cry like this one other time and he hasn’t noticed until it was pointed out him either. This was bad Medic only cried when he was really upset.
“I can go away if you really want me to,” Pyro knew how embarrassed Medic must be feeling right now and he began to pull away.
“NEIN!” Medic latched on to Pyro’s arm made him jump and surprised himself, “I mean you’re injured so it would be better if you stay.” His voice shook as he forced out the words trying his best not to sound like he was crying, he began to lessen the grip he had on Pyro’s arm but he couldn’t bring himself to let go completely. He suddenly hated his gloves and the Pyro’s fire proof suit. 'What’s happening to me? I just stabbed him now I want to hold him.’ Medic thought feeling ashamed of himself.
Pyro didn’t move and didn’t make a sound. He didn’t want to scare Medic away. He also was horrified. He didn’t want to set the doctor off again. He knew it could have been so much worse. He realized Medic was looking at him, waiting for him to say something.
“I won’t go anywhere, I promise.” Pyro said doing his best not to move, but his arm was beginning to fall asleep.
“Good,” Medic felt so relieved he couldn’t be alone, well Archimedes was there but, sadly birds couldn’t comfort him the way Pyro- a human could.
Medic finally let go of Pyro. He made his way over to his desk. His tears had subsided enough for him to read the papers in front of him. They made little since. The upgrades he must have made to the medigun over the years had made his beloved machine completely foreign to him.
The Pyro sat on one of the operating tables, trying his best to entertain himself without his lighter. No matter how much he wanted to he could not go to the happy place. He needed to stay completely with Medic.
“DAMMIT,” Medic slammed his fist on the table causing Pyro to jump and Archimedes to flutter away, “This makes no sense how am I supposed to understand this nonsense!”
“Maybe you should ask Engi about this tomorrow. You did a lot of work with him, and right now you should try and get some sleep.”
“Sleep? Sleep when I feel like this!” Medic had gotten up and was making his way toward Pyro, his body was shaking with rage and he fear. He didn’t want to be anywhere near darkness, “I ca-” Medic collapsed, Pyro caught him before he hit the ground.
“Are you okay?” Pyro held Medic in his arms.
“I’m fine just tired,” Medic finally let go of his pride, “You’re right I do need sleep, I apologize for my outbursts.”
“It’s okay.” Pyro said glad that he’d kinda gotten through to the Doctor.
Medic relied on Pyro a little more than he liked but it was nice to feel someone else supporting him.
Pyro guided Medic to one of the operating tables that could function as a bed if need be.
Medic shot up “You can’t go anywhere you are under my orders to stay here! What is so important to you that you decide to disobey them?” He said frantically.
“I’m sorry I was just going to get you and I a blankets”
“Oh…” Now that he thought of it he was kinda cold,“Well I suppose that would be acceptable. Just be quick about it.”
Pyro put on his mask and gave the Doctor a thumbs up and power walked down the hallway. The pain in his stomach wasn’t that bad anymore.
While Medic sat there alone. Alone. No he couldn’t be alone. Archimedes was there. But he didn’t see her. He didn’t see anything it was all dark.
“Not again! Pyro! Come back! Don’t leave me again!” The darkness surrounded him threatening to swallow him whole. Suddenly he was jerked away from his nightmare.
“Medic what happened? You were yelling and scared!” Pyro had his hands on his shoulders, his mask was off again and he look about as upset as Medic.
“It was nothing- I was just- uhh- I guess I’m just scared.” Medic admitted.
“I’m sorry I shouldn’t have left you alone like that.”
“No its not you its well- embarrassing.”
“Medic,” Pyro’s voice had turned serious “I’m a grown man who has a stuffed unicorn and my favorite color is the rainbow. There is nothing you should be embarrassed about telling me.”
“Really?” A smile crept across Medic’s face. Pyro nodded, and Medic started to chuckle. Pyro was thrilled that was the happiest he’d seen Medic since he came back. “That’s adorable.”
Sadly Medic’s happiness had left as soon as it appeared. He remembered what they were talking about. “I’m afraid of the dark.”
Pyro was confused for a moment and then he remembered his dream, how there was darkness all around them. Pyro decided not to bring that up right now. Medic looked so tired and he was exhausted too.
“I can leave the lights on in here if it’ll make you feel better.”
Pyro handed Medic a blanket and walked to the corner of the room he liked to stay in. “If you need anything just ask.”
He held the blanket for a moment. It felt so familiar. He laid down and tried to sleep.
