Pairing: (Jester x Reader)
Warnings: gsw, blood, verbal abuse, angsty angst angst
A/n: This is for @r0yalj3ster’s event. I hope you enjoy! ~Fox🦊
The noise doesn’t stop, even after it’s over. Even after the second shot echoes through the tent, after the crowd breaks into something frantic and ugly, after bodies push and shove and scream as they try to escape something they don’t understand, you still hear it. It lingers, ringing in your ears, mixing with the pounding of your pulse until you can’t tell which is louder.
You don’t remember moving. One second you’re frozen in place, watching him fall, and the next you’re forcing your way through the chaos, shoving past panicked bodies, slipping on the edge of the stage as you climb up.
He’s still there, collapsed where he fell, one hand pressed hard against his chest, the other bracing uselessly against the stage as if he could push himself back up and pretend this is all part of the act, but it’s not. You can see it; The blood.
Your stomach twists violently as you drop to your knees beside him, hands hovering for just a second before you force yourself to act.
“Hey, hey, I’m here,” you say quickly, voice shaking despite your effort to steady it. “You’re okay, I’ve got you, just…just hold on!”
Your hands press over his, trying to stop the bleeding, trying to do something, anything, even though you don’t know what you’re doing. The warmth of it seeps through your fingers almost immediately, slick and terrifying, and your breath stutters as panic claws its way up your throat.
“Stop moving,” you murmur, more to yourself than him, your hands trembling as you try to apply pressure. “I can—just—stay still,” a sharp sound cuts you off.
It’s wrong and it shouldn’t be there. Jester’s head tilts slightly, his breathing uneven, shallow, but his lips curl anyway, that familiar, unsettling smile dragging its way back into place like he’s forcing it there out of habit.
“You’re…terrible at this,” he rasps with a venomous bite.
The words are quiet, but they hit harder than if he’d shouted them. His hand shifts suddenly, not to help, but to shove yours away just enough to break your rhythm, to disrupt what little control you thought you had. The movement makes him wince, just slightly, but the expression that follows isn’t pain. It’s irritation.
Sharp, focused irritation.
“Look at you,” he mutters, breath catching faintly as he drags in air, his eyes locking onto yours. “Standing there… shaking… making it worse.”
Your hands hover uselessly now, unsure where to go, what to do, your thoughts spiraling too fast to catch, “I—what do you want me to do?” you ask, voice breaking despite yourself.
That’s when it changes. Whatever thin thread of humor he was clinging to snaps. His expression hardens, the smile fading into something colder, something far more dangerous as his gaze sharpens.
“…Useless,” he says flatly. The word lands like a blow, “You are my most useless pet.”
Your breath catches. You don’t move. For a second you forget about the blood, the chaos outside, the fact that he’s hurt. Because that, those words, that hurts more.
“I said—” his voice cuts through the silence, harsher now, more strained as the effort of speaking starts to catch up with him, “—get Doctor.”
Your hands curl slightly at your sides, “I can’t just leave you!”
“Yes,” he snaps, sharper than before, his head lifting just enough to glare at you properly despite the way his body protests the movement. “You can.”There’s a tremor in his voice now. Not weakness; Strain, “Because standing here,doing nothing, is far less useful than bringing someone who can actually fix this.”
“You are,” he interrupts immediately, his words cutting clean and precise despite the uneven rhythm of his breathing, “You’re panicking.”
His gaze flicks briefly to your hands,
still stained, still shaking, before returning to your face, “And I don’t have time for it.”
The weight of that settles heavy in your chest. Not won’t. It’s ‘Don’t have time’.
“Okay,” you whisper, the word barely there.
For a moment, neither of you move. Then you push yourself to your feet. Your legs feel unsteady, your head spinning, but you force yourself to turn, to step back, to leave him there even though every instinct is screaming at you not to. Behind you, his breathing falters slightly. You hesitate.
“Go,” he says, quieter now, but no less firm.
You don’t look back. If you do, you won’t leave, and right now, you can’t be useless.