Ahawww! Also, bad choice of words.
Interestingly! Interestingly. I think that’s exactly what was used against me. Brosef told me he had a terminal illness (one we’re all pretty goddamn certain he doesn’t have at all) in our very first conversation, so I was never working on a level playing field. I was always working with an aggressive manipulator, trapped there by politeness, because while I kinda went “oh boy” the first few times, he was astute and rational on seemingly every other subject. Why would he lie? I guess he’s just really unlucky, and that’s why he says he knows all this stuff! He’s had a hard, interesting life!
Like, he could always go “oh, I just don’t feel so good.... just thinkin’ ‘bout stuff.....” and I’d always say “what’s up” and he’d immediately volunteer the most amazing loads of bullshit. But it taught me that that was normal, to unload all your worries on someone, and we started always knowing each other’s exact mood. One time I admitted I’d been feeling Jealous and he ran with that for the rest of the relationship whenever he needed to tear me down. When I said stuff bothered me, he just found sneakier ways to mention it. He seriously just slowly drove me insane, probably literally convincing himself and a few others that I was horribly mistreating him, while from my perspective I was nicer and more accommodating to him than I was to anyone else, because I legitimately liked the person he presented to me. While never telling me what I was doing wrong when I asked. I asked what to fix and how. You know damn well I did.
And when he did tell me, it was silly shit? “You shoudn’t have answered that anon like that.” I recall one of his friends even said “Don’t make those jokes with me, I know that you use sex to manipulate people.” What the fuck was he saying to people? I don’t even DESIRE sexual relationships or interactions, he’s the one who constantly approaches people saying “what if your favorite character did your favorite thing... with his dick?” like a fucking creep. Like, and I took it as feedback every time! Maybe there is something wrong with me that I don’t know! Gosh, sorry guys, any ideas for how to work on it? No? Okay, I’ll figure it out myself, thanks for telling me! Oh, you have something else...? Ahah... this pile’s getting a little heavy, but sure, gimme another! I CAN TAKE IT.
Holy shit, this is fucking fascinating.
But seriously. Fuck Tucker G, twistedteeth, thatchett, whoever. Fuck that guy. He is nothing even CLOSE to a good person, and anyone who believes him when he says he’s suddenly changed is even more naive than I was.