#thatveronicagirl

[thatveronicagirl]

Darkness

I understand The darkness was everywhere Poisoning my soul 

Still, I loved you Even when you didn’t love me Why did you do this?

So many times I asked you to leave What a fucking coward, you stayed

Called me crazy Said I needed help The problem was you all along

You took advantage Of the good parts in me I understand 

[thatveronicagirl]

I Forgive You

For making me feel less than when you ignored me at school

For letting a negative influence be apart of my everyday life

For putting unrealistic expectations on me instead of letting me be who I am

For making my big heart feel like a weakness

For taking advantage of my kindness because you knew I’d stay

For cheating and proposing to another woman before leaving me

For crawling into my heart only to reject it

For cutting me off after the relationship we established

For acting like you cared when all you wanted was a hook up

For not seeing my true worth

I forgive you all.

[thatveronicagirl]

The Door

Unfortunately, for now, it’s over It didn’t work No matter how hard I tried

It was real That kind of connection It’s not easy to find

So for the time being I need to close this door Because leaving it open isn’t fair

Closing it is difficult I’m still right outside Back against it, hoping you’ll knock

You showed me something I didn’t think existed For that I’m grateful

Maybe you’ll never come back Can’t keep my hopes up But this door isn’t locked

If it’s meant to be You’ll know where to go With us, it’s easy to find

I love you and I’m letting you go. 

[thatveronicagirl]

[thatveronicagirl]

The Light

I’ve always been scared Rejection is a very common theme in my life It’s foreign when I’m accepted

They say to be different But when you are Nobody can actually see you

Never cool enough in school Couldn’t even make sorority life work Too forced and fake

Is it so wrong To want simple connections? Shouldn’t be this complicated

Sometimes it feels Like a game that never ends Or a code I can’t crack

To some people it comes easy Yet they’re shocked when they get hurt Guess that’s the difference

When you’re screwed over Countless times It’s easy to build up a wall

Started as a kid People of all ages Showing me who they truly were through harmful words

Rejection is a bitch But if you look at it the right way It’s possible to save yourself

Don’t let the world bury you Hear it and process Keep the ones that matter close

Sometimes they just can’t see the light

[thatveronicagirl]

Symptoms

When did they start?

Always have been worried About anything and everything Never able to calm down

Five years old Convinced my parents died in a car crash Crying to my babysitter

All the stomach aches All the doctor visits How come it was never brought up?

Ten years old Scared of the tightening in my ribs What is this?!

Wasn’t until college At the age of twenty My tightening chest called normal

‘Oh yeah, that’s just anxiety’ Just?!?! The moment I learned the word for what I was feeling

People joke about it Somehow it became mainstream If you only knew

So many people understand We stay strong But often I do wonder,

Will it ever go away?

[thatveronicagirl]

Scared to Love

You walked by There was something about you Tattoos, lip ring, purple hair

Had a crush on the new guy at work Used to feelings not being reciprocated But you were different

You knew what you wanted There was something about me Showed me what it’s like to truly be loved

We moved pretty fast I said “I love you” first Couldn’t help myself

I’ve tried to push you away Scared of being hurt again Yet you always stay

Thank you for loving me Just the way I am You’ve made me better, stronger

Don’t get me wrong We’ve had some dark days already With you it’s worth fighting

You’ve shown me respect Always there when I need you How did I get so lucky?

I hope this never ends Because with you It’s forever <3 

[thatveronicagirl]

Funny Feeling - Veronica Brown

It’s a funny feeling 

When you feel someone 

Slowly slipping away 

Moments turn to memories 

Love turns to anger 

And suddenly we’re alone again 

 Now you’re a stranger 

I used to know 

Better than I knew myself