#the despicable guy

[roserendipity]

KevJe’s Wedding Vows

Jersey

Kevin, wala akong pinrepare na speech for this. Ang goal ko lang kanina ay hindi madapa habang naglalakad ako sa aisle, ‘wag na ‘yung vow. Joke lang. I want this to be natural as much as possible. Sorry kung ganito, ha?

Alam mo bang Icelot ang nickname ko sa ‘yo? You may ask why. Because... you are possibly the most complicated, annoying, and bothersome person I have ever come to know, yet you’re also caring, passionate, and loving. I loved your crooked, smug smile, and the way you laugh. I love how you make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world, sometimes without even saying a word. I know I don’t always believe in you, but you persist in telling me until I give in. That’s another thing, I love your determination and passion.

Kevin, hindi tayo katulad ng iba na naging madali ang pinagdaanan bago makaabot sa ganitong point. Ang drama kasi natin e. Mas lalo ka na, parang action movie lang ang nangyari sa ‘yo sa Germany. Ngayon, maraming makakaalala sa ‘tin kasi araw natin ‘to. Tatagal ‘yan ng ilang araw, linggo, buwan... pero saglit lang ‘yun e. Feel na feel natin ang atensyon sa ‘tin ng mga tao ngayon. Pero Kevin, eto lang ang tandaan mo, ‘di ako natatakot na makalimutan ng maraming tao ang araw na ‘to, wala akong pakialam kung after 3 days hindi na nila tayo pag-usapan. Well, sino ba tayo? Hindi naman tayo malalaos e, kasi never naman tayong naging sikat... except ikaw. Joke lang.

I promise when I’m old and cranky, we will still hold hands, go on dates, and share our dessert... pero syempre dapat mas marami ang sa ‘kin. Thank you for your respect. Thank you for still loving me when I buy yet another stash of vinyl CDs that cost a fortune and I will probably play them once. From this day onward, I am your wife and you are my husband. And through the course of true love never did run smooth, with you at my side... those bumps in the road will be so much easier to bear. Through the tears and laughter, we will remain strong and our love will be real.

Cheesy man, pero alam mong totoo ‘to. I love you always and forever. Don’t ever forget that.

Kevin

I think it would be safe to say that when we first met, neither of us would ever have predicted we would end up here today. I’m sure that if anyone ever suggested it, you would have likely said that they would need to tie you down and drag you here to marry me, something I’m sure I would have gained immense enjoyment out of, nonetheless. Always spoiling my fun, Jersey. Well played.

Yet here we are. And I’m not a fool, I know that it hasn’t been an easy road for either of us. Yet you have trusted, understood, and brought out the best in me. You’ve even perfected your own little eye roll just for me. Joke lang. It’s the way I need to be loved. And I want to thank you for that.

Dati may nagtanong sa ‘kin, kung mabibigyan daw ba ako ng pagkakataon na baguhin ‘yung 3 years na pinagdaanan nating dalawa, kukunin ko raw ba ‘yun o hindi? Alam niyo ba kung anong sagot ko? I told him no. Sa 3 years na ‘yun, marami akong natutunan about love and life. Kung babaguhin ko ‘yun, parang niloloko ko ang sarili ko e. Kung hindi nangyari ang mga ‘yun, siguro hindi ko rin mare-realize na pwede pa palang ma-in love ako sa ‘yo nang sobra-sobra, Jersey. Akala ko sobra na ‘yung dati, may hihigit pa pala. Ang dami nating natutunan, we even have scars that serves as a reminder for those trials. I don’t want to erase those things because no matter how painful and excruciating they are, they deserve the credit for bringing us here today. Sabi ko nga, worth it lahat ang sakit at pagod na napagdaanan natin kasi alam na nating pareho ang gagawin kung may darating mang problema sa susunod.

Mahal na mahal kita Jersey. Alam mo ‘yan, sobra. Just like what I’ve told you before, you and I will always be the first. Now, we’ll always be the first and last. Not unless, hmmm... alam mo na.

— Leng de Chavez, The Despicable Guy

[roserendipity]

The Best Way to Lose

The best way to lose is to sacrifice yourself. The best way to lose would be to actually lose and know you’re losing. Some people hate the idea of losing to someone, for they think it shows weakness and how incompetent you are. For example, during elections. You gave everything you have, showed everyone that you are capable for the spot and when reality bites back, you lost.

Losing, to most of us, means that others have a strong hold on us, and they are better. I don’t think that way. I think to sacrifice is the best way to lose, because in sacrifice, you win by losing. You wholeheartedly give up something for the sake of others, and they gain from your loss. We live in the time wherein gentlemen and sincere(est) people are rare species (based from experience). And I gotta say to be able to sacrifice something for the people we care for is an extreme noble thing to do. Material things could never surpass the genuine intention of a sacrificial gesture.

The best way to sacrifice is loving. Love is a very complicated realm. It involves risks, ups and downs, and to quote Ricky Lee, the ‘tatlong K’: kabog, kilig, kirot; and these things would make you think twice (and for some, million times) to give in and love someone. But, if you are ready to sacrifice yourself in order to love, you would take them all and finally, give yourself to someone (not in a sexual way, of course, but it depends on the context). Because loving someone requires you to sacrifice and surrender yourself entirely to the person you love.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m ready to sacrifice myself in order to love someone. I did it once, and sadly I failed. But that doesn’t mean I couldn’t find someone worth sacrificing for. Maybe I’m not yet ready to open myself again for the possibilities. Maybe this isn’t the right time yet. I could enumerate a long list of maybes, with the postscript that, someday, this list will serve as a reminder or a memoir of my waiting. It has a self-destruct button that will burn itself when I finally found that someone. The someone who is worth the risk, who is worth sacrificing for.

Pardon my hopeless romantic side, Ma’am. These past few days I’m swamped with scripts, papers and a ton of personal drama that got me thinking what if, just what if I have that someone who I could talk (more of rant) to, and when the time gets really really bad, the one who is willing to be enveloped in my arms and go on with the cuddling stuff. Yes, the feeling is good. I’m not alone. But the big question is, is he worth sacrificing for? Choosing the right person worth for the sacrifice is a hard thing to do. I just have to be patient. Good things come to those who wait, right?

Did I make sense? The bottom line is, I think the best way to lose is to lose yourself to the one you truly love. Once you lose to that person, you know it is for the better, and with no regrets.

— Jersey Santiago | Leng de Chavez, The Despicable Guy

[albinokoi]

Pop Fiction Spring Break Reviews

During the Spring Break (or Holy Week break), I finally had the time to catch up on reading some of my collections. We went to Bataan to relax and get away from the busy aura of the metro. I decided to bring lots of Pop Fictions instead of Novels because they were lighter and smaller per book. During the vacation, I managed to read 4 (counting the one I re-read in order to understand the 2nd book)

Book 1 : Finding Cinderella Part 2: The Chase by Kia Amazona 

               Score: 3/5

               The story was generic (but good) and I didn’t see much heavy conflict. The only good part with the story is that there were several plot twists and amused me for a while. The narration lacked solidity; it only told what will make the story move on and made it hard for me to visualize the story itself.

Book 2: For Hire: A Damn Good Kisser by Ariesa Jane Domingo

               Score: 4/5

               As expected of the author of Seducing Drake Palma, FH:ADGK was good and it gave an “otome game” feel to me. The premise wasn’t generic for me and it had a good potential to actual be a real dating sim game. The only problem for me thought was the character development for some characters. Some of them had conflicting and unfitting personality with how they were build up. I liked how the story have the essence of eroticas but still manage to stick with just kissing and making out – which is too light for erotica. I wasn’t able to read the next book for this so I felt frustrated with the ending.

Book 3: The King of Jerks by Helenaelise

               Score: 1/5

               Whoa. Transitions. I liked the idea of inserting the trend of Cosplay in Pop Fiction stories but this was disappointing. First, the two main characters had high positions (Cosplay Queen and Student Council President?) and the descriptions with their titles were extreme (Miss Cosplay Queen is chilling while  surrounded with lots of ‘fanboys’ who take her pictures without consent and Mister SC Pres here has a cape and his own office at the school to show his authority). The occasional use of Japanese terms in some scenarios such as ‘sugoi’, ‘desu’, and ‘ouji’ made me cringe because they weren’t suit for the situation, it felt forced. Speaking of forced, another forced element on the story was the conflict. It was too illogical like, why will someone not check the background of their employees first before accepting them? Since the premise of the story was fitting for a teenage romance kind of thing, the story should’ve ended after they finished studies, but no, they had to extend it until marriage – after a few complications like unwanted pregnancies and scenarios of being a single parent with an abnormally smart child. I handled the first half of the book with just cringing every now and then, but when it comes to the latter half, 85% of the time I was cringing. Sorry.

Book 4: The Despicable Guy by Leng de Chavez

               Score: 2/5

               Generic story. It’s your typical college barkada love teaming story. Think of it like a Sit Com focused on shipping two people together but in the process the whole circle of friends kind of got together into pairs for some unknown reason. I liked it that I can relate to their college life but that’s all. Everything else was pretty generic – something I can experience, except for the part where the guy buys the girl some overpriced designer black pumps for Christmas. Not even my parents nor my future husband would ever be in their right mind buy me things like those.

That’s all for now. I’ll try to make short book reviews for the previous books that I have read.

[lengwritesstuff]

Ilang beses ko ng naiisip yung phase ni Kevin na naeexcite kapag nakakarinig ng pinunit na wrapper or paper. Naiimagine ko si jersey na pinagtitripan si kevin whenever and wherever. Please please gawa po kaung ficlet ( . ^ .)

Can someone write this, please?

[lengwritesstuff]

April 30. Happy anniversary, Kevin Santos & Jersey Santiago!

[lengwritesstuff]

Mature. Read at your own risk.

sa mga nagtatanong o naghahanap ng After Hours ng KevJe at ng Team Ref, eto po ang link. Naka private po yan sa Wattpad. I don't know kung makikita pa 'to sa Wattpad app pero dapat naka-follow po sa'kin para mabasa niyo :)

[lettersbychesca]

The Despicable Guy by Shirlengtearjerky

[calculatingcries]

TDG AGAIN!

12/23/14 11:42AM

THE DESPICABLE GUY again!!!!!

Soooo.. I just finished reading The Despicable Guy 1 for the nth time! Guess what?

Nag-iba yung feelings ko about it. Ano raaaaw? Maybe it’s because sa UPLB na rin ako nag-aaral and naiimagine ko talaga sila! Like the Math Bldg, NCAS, etc.

Sembreak-slash-Christmas Break ngayon so more than one month pa bago bumalik sa LB! Omg, I admit it, namiss ko ang eLBi dahil sa pagbabasa ng TDG! Shetifying shet. This is really new to me, ako? Namimiss ang LB? Hahaha halos isuka ko na ang LB. Huhubels. Wag nyo kong patayin, elbi peeps!

Anw, so eto nga, I copied some lines from the story. Tapos lalagyan ko ng comments! Lol, like what I always love to do. Hehehe!! Parang posts lang ni Mam Des sa group na ni-print tapos sinusulatan ko ng comments ko! Lol okay, Math 17 A feels. Huhubels again.

So here it is! (Bored talaga ako, sorry. K.)

JERSEY: Mahirap daw kasi Math 17, kaya kailangan ko makakuha ng story para matakot si Amae, ang Ms. IE. (Math 17 – College Algebra & Trigonometry)

-          Eto yung tinatanong ni Jersey si Kevin (back then, she knows him as Edward!) about sa UP life! Yaks. Binasa ko nga rin pala ito before mag-start yung classes kaso hindi ko natapos. Huhuhu Mangiyak-ngiyak ako when I read this! Echos! Hahaha! Pero kasi, Hello 5 units Math 17! Tsaka feel na feel ko ang pagiging Amae. Miss Industrial Engineering! Oha oha! Asan na kaya ang Keith ko? Siguro nasa kabilang bloc din (sa Bloc UV) Hahahahaharot!!! Anw, Math 17 turned out to be hard of course yet suuuuper fun. Yes, thanks na naman kay Ma’am Des! Yikes! Heart heart! :>

Mahirap pala pag sanay ka na sa presence ng isang tao. Pag nawala sya, parang ang lamig ng paligid, ni di mo alam ang gagawin. </3

-          Okay. Trip ko lang ‘to, wag na natin pag-usapan! Hahahahaha!!!!!

Jersey: Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating, Kevin.

-          Ang daming alam nitong mga CommArts students na ‘to! Pero sabagay, totoo nga naman. Teka, anong konek din nito sa LB? Wala. NVM nalang ajujujuju.

Mag-isa lang ako ngayon papunta sa Math Bldg Lecture Hall.

-          Si Jersey ata ‘to nung nag-away sila ni Kevin. Ugh. Ang loner kaya maglakad to MBLH. Huehuehue araw- araw ko kayang gawain yun! Quarter to 7 in the morning, naglalakad ako papuntang Math Bldg. Math 17 ba naman ang first class eh! Moment of truth iyon! Ang dami kong naiisip. Hahah charot! Pero srsly, nakakaemo kaya iyun. Ajujujujuju ulit.

Sath: I scanned it. Wala naman. Hindi yan Elbi Pie na sobrang bulgaran about sex. Safe yan, Je.

-          Huhubels! Calling Bea Deriquito na katabi kong manood ng Elbie Pie sa EE Audi dahil required sa Eng1 class namin! Aba, naiintindihan kita Sath, though wala naming sex chuchu sa Elbie Pie this year, mej na-stress kami sa last scene! Enebe. Kung hindi lang talaga required eh! Hehehehehe!!! :>

"Y-yung.. result ng Math Midterms, nakapost na sa Math bldg. Napadaan kasi ako kanina, kaso di ko nabasa lahat. Ang dami kasing tao."

-          JM exhaustedly told Jersey about the Math17 exam results. Shet alam nyo ba feeling nun? Wait, ganito kasi ‘yan, yung Math17 Midterms exam ay ang first long exam. In our case, August 11 nag-start ang classes pero midterms nga so sa First Monday of October dapat yung exam! Kaso holiday ang October 6 nun so naurong ng Tuesday, 7pm-9pm. Nakarelate na naman ako dun! (The rape case happened so ang second at third long exams ay nagging 4pm-6pm na!) Ayun, haba ng coverage ng exam. Iyak tayo. Atsaka since first exam yun sa Math, windangers naman sa type of exam, pointing system, etc. Shax naalala ko nung binalik ni Ma’am Mariz yung bluebook namin tapos dasal ko talaga ay maka-62 ako kasi 61 point something yung passing! 63.5/103 ako dun!! Shet ang saya ko! Para akong pasang-awa na ang saya-saya talaga! Anws, after a week nun ata nilabas yung Midterm Standing namin. Ha, buti nalang may group kami sa FB at dun nalang inupload ni Mam Des. :> Anyhoo, atleast hindi siya nakapost dun sa MBLH, pag-alam yung SN mo, aba patay na. The feels! The feels!!

Sir Lawas: Oh, about that. Sorry kung late na'to ha. Si Ma'am Liza kasi, kahapon lang nabigay sakin yung exemption list sa mga recit section nya. And sa section nyo, ikaw lang ang exempted. Nagtake ka pa tuloy ng exams.

-          Sir Lawas? Meron atang Sir Lawas talaga eh! Wait, checheck ko yan sa IMSP! Hahahaa! Anyhoooo, yung Liza naman ata, si Ms. Liza Zamora, yung colleague ni ma’am Des? Hahahaha daming alam atsaka ansaveh ng exemption ni Kevin? May ganun ba talaga? Parang wala naman ata. Huehue anyway, wala naman akong pag-asa dun if ever. Err.

Kevin: Jersey Benitez Santiago, sa'yo na rin nanggaling eh. T@nga ka talaga. The best way to lose is to lose yourself to someone you truly love. So yeah. I accept defeat. I love you, Jersey.

-          The infamous (echos!) pagtatapat ni Kevin kay Jersey sa CAS Ruins! (or NCAS Ruins? Shet!) Everytime na naghihintay ako sa labas ng CAS Annex2 MPH2 para sa PSY1 or SOSC3 lecture classes ko, nakatingin lang ako dun sa Ruins tapos iniimagine ko na nandun si Kevin at Jersey. Na nangyayari yang “best way to lose” eklavu nila. Kinikilig naman ako! Echosera!

Amae: Ewan. Pero ang weird nyan, nakatulala lang kagabi dyan. Nagfreak out na nga si Paolo, akala nya narape. Ayaw kasi magsalita.

-          Ang creepy naman kasi talaga ni Je kung madaling araw sya uuwi tapos tulala siya! Osge, baka bangag siya sa hellweek pero hindi! Hay, pag-ibig nga naman. At natawa naman ako kay Paolo, concerned/protective as ever kaiyak! Huhubels!

Kevin’s POV: OKAY OKAY! JUST DON'T SHOUT, OKAY?! DON'T SHOUT!!" nagdabog pa sya bago pumasok sa loob ng tower. Kaines! Pumwesto kami sa gitna.

-          Birthday ni Kev, tapos dun sila sa Kwek Kwek Tower kumain ng kalderetang gawa ni Jersey! How sweet! Osge, pag pauwi ako nang gabi at napadaan ako sa carabao park, iisipin ko nalang sina Kevin at Jersey yung mga nagdedate dun sa tower. Huhu. K.

Kevin’s POV: Blue book nung Math Pre Finals namin. “TENGENE NANG-AASAR KA ATA E!!! BAKIT MO BA BINIBIGAY SAKIN TONG BLUE BOOK MO! OO NA!! IKAW NA NAKA 150 POINTS!! AYAN, BASAHIN MO!! 150!!”

-          Mahal na mahal ko ang Math17 ngayon kaya sobrang kinikilig na ako sa pagtatapat(?) na ito ni Jersey! Dati, di ko maapreciate, nung panahong galit pa ako sa Math! Parang tanga, math exam, srsly? Odiba, pero ngayon? Eto na ang pinakanakakakilig sa lahat! Erk. Math17 bluebook! Shet kaso OA naman 150/150 ano yun huhuhu masyadong matalino! Lels.

Jersey: Ay ang bilis ng araw! Graduating na ako! :)) Este kami, minus the Engineering couple (!). Kung gusto nyong makagraduate ng maaga, wag kayong mag-Engineering! :PP

-          Grabe naman Jersey, isa ka pa. Pinag-iisipan ko na nga itong pag-eengineering! Shet! Kailangan ko ng Keith! Hahahaha joke, may crush naman ako sa Math 17 pero waepek, wala naman kaming project dun eh! Tsk. Jklang. (Ipopost ko din about sa paglipat ng course! Shet!! Confused as always!)

Kevin: Sorry ka, masyado akong busy nun. Then pumunta ako sa ATC, tanda ko pa yung araw na yun. September 17.

-          Lol, okay sige, ATC usapan dito, anong konek na naman sa  LB? Hahaha joke lang! September 17 kasi ay Banamos Festival sa Lb! (Teka, fixed date ba yun? Kasi yun yung this year eh!) Tsaka September 17 naging sina DL at RT ahahahahaha kilala niyo? Kilala niyo? Hindi! Kami lang ni Bea nakakakilala niyan! Echos! (Baka hindi na ngayon huhubels!)

Kevin: Pano ko maeenjoy ang isang napakagandang lugar kung.. kung wala ka dito? Medyo unfair ako diba? Nandito ako, ang ganda-ganda ng nakikitang view araw-araw.

-          Nasa Germany na si Kevin  nito pero applicable ito sakin sa LB. Ang ganda-ganda ng Lb, anober!!! Hahahaha kidding aside, maganda naman talaga LB, kaso hindi ko maappreciate kasi loner ako. Hahaha joke. Recently, lagi ko nang kasama si Bea so okay lang, pero nung dinala ko dun si Bondi nung Dec. 16, I saw UPLB in a new perspective! Ay ansaveh? Pero srsly, loner ako kaya di ko maappreciate. Eh si Bea pati yung blochead namin, pinupursue nila ang paglipat sa Diliman since tiga-Diliman sila. Ipupush nila na after a year lang so may isang sem pa sila. Eh ako? Hindi ko pa alam. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong gusto ko sa buhay! :< Huhuhu drama kills me again. Booo!

  Yan lang kasi yung mga naisulat (luh!!) kong lines. Marami pa dapat pero ayan! Nung mga unang araw ko sa LB, lagi kong iniimagine na nandun sina Kev at Je at ang barkada!

  The Despicable Guy! <3 Ugh, iba ka talaga ate Leng! Kundi dahil sa TDG, wala na, di ko namiss ang LB. Echos. Basta important sakin tong story na ito! Wuush! <3