I feel like I have gathered myself enough after the episode of Not Me today to have a legitimate discussion on what went on. I am going to be honest, Not Me hasn't been my favorite show so far. I have liked it but it has not knocked me out of my chair or anything of that nature. Well today, I ended up on the floor.
To start, the rainbow flag scene. It was fucking beautiful. I mean that with my whole heart and soul. White has finally found something he truly believes in. He does not like the power Tawi holds, he believes that everyone should have equal rights, and he believes that love (in all forms) is love. And he is going to fight for what he believes in. And to see progress happening has made White find his purpose again. He is going to celebrate, jump around, and scream it from the top of his lungs. Because he found his voice. And he did it through the help of Sean. Sean wants to see change and he wants the people who have hurt him to suffer. This fight and strength that Sean has is appealing to White. It pushes White to be better and different. It makes White want to support Sean and see Sean be happy. When Sean shows up at the protest, he sees the change they have started. He sees the good he can put into the world, and that good is from White. Sean knows the bad that Black puts into the world, but this "Black" that he is falling for is so different. He is the light in Sean's world right now. He is the good that is helping Sean see that not only can he be better, but he must be better. And when Sean walks under that rainbow flag to find White, he is accepting that his feelings have changed. He is accepting that he needs his light in order to continue on this path. White said that he is the fear to Sean's bravery, but I think to Sean, "Black" is his bravery. And you see Sean accept this as he grabs White's hand. They both have feelings for each other and are coming to terms with that. But together they are stronger. Together they stand a chance to make a change. Together they are scared and brave and every emotion in between. But together they are also fighters.
Now Yok, he is such a good boy. He deserves a best friend of the year award at least. His talk with Sean could win him the award alone. Sean wants Yok on his side and to bash Black. But Yok is going to tell it how it is. Sean's plan sucked. And Yok won't sugar coat it, not because he is mean but because he cares for his friends. He wants to see them bring forth change and accomplish all they want in life. There are times we need to hear the truth and be knocked down a few levels. Yok will kindly do that while also offering beer, which really is the test of a true friend right there. On a side note, Yok has literally become my favorite character in this show. I'm not sure if it is First bringing some great charisma to the screen, the writing, the nature of his character, or what but he just makes my day better every time he is on screen. I feel this way a little about Gram to but not to the extreme that I do about Yok. If anyone knows what it is let me know!
And the main reason I feel out of my chair today.... DanYok! Oh. My. God. Who allows these two to be on screen together with that much chemistry. It is oozing out of them and I turn into a squealing teen fangirl when they are together. But beyond the fact that Dan brought Yok handcuffed to his secret bedroom and Yok laid on his bed after the two had some serious flirting moments, I found their conversation so fascinating. Especially Yok talking about why they do this. Yok doesn't want to be a hero. He isn't doing this to be a symbol for justice. He doesn't even believe what he is doing is necessarily OK. He is fighting for his voice. He wants to be heard. He wants to be acknowledged. And he wants everyone else to have a voice that can be heard as well. His mother does not have that ability physically. She never will be able to talk louder to make her voice heard. So Yok is fighting for that equal playing field for all. Yok, like Dan, is kind of sitting on both sides of the fence. No side is all good or all bad, there is no easy fix for the problems. All they can do is their best to make sure the other side is heard. I think Yok believes in the cause but struggles to accept the ways they go about it.
This episode I feel was the best episode so far. It felt different from previous episodes in that it let the characters exist and react. We understand them better now and we are rooting for our main four more because of it. I am excited for more seanwhite, danyok, and gramblack next week to knock me out of my chair again.
