#thecrystalmadness

[meadowlarkx]

jan/helena from Pas de trois by @sparklingdali and @thecrystalmadness ❤️

Helena would expect regret or perhaps even shame that she just jumped into bed with a boy she barely knew but in reality that was not how she felt at all. She thought this was the first time in her life when she wanted something and instead of stressing about it or telling herself she can’t, Helena simply reached with her hand and took.

And did it feel good to take what you wanted.

-

“Hey, if I did something wrong, please tell me. You can be honest with me, I can take it. I’m a tough guy, you know, I do ballet.” Jan grinned and Helena actually snorted in response. He was happy to see her smile again, the tightness in his heart gone. He could look at her all day. 

[sparklingdali]

3,4,11,14 hetalia

thnx mate

3. Have you ever unfollowed someone over a fandom opinion?

:D :D yes, but only when there’s a lot of it (you are allowed to have like a shitty opinion in a while), some people are actually entertaining or I follow them exactly because they have different opinions but when they start acting like EVERYONE who doesn’t agree with them is wrong and other ridiculous if not made-up adjectives I know it’s my cue to say goodbye

4. Do you have a NoTP in your fandom? Are they a popular OTP?*

I mostly got over my dislike to certain pairings by shipping them in a different way that I like. It’s actually really hard to dislike hetalia pairings, for me it’s more about the way it’s shipped.

Long time ago when people were actually talking about this kind of thing, I didn’t like us.uk but nowadays I have a firm headcanon that Alfred calls Arthur daddy during sex so... (not counting the rich relationship the actually countries had).

11. Is there an unpopular character you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why?

Honestly what even are opinions of Hetalia fandom nowadays? Back then people disliked Belarus whom I like but I think the dislike was more about her not having much of a fleshed out personality. 

14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom?

Fans who talk about nothing than how they know history better than Hima and then they do nothing else but spouting complete inaccurate bullshit are in everything are ten times worse than rabid 12 year olds who write fanficiton about catastrophic events. Some justifications I had read... please do not make me remember them again.

[lgbt-cz]

ahoj, zrovna jsem viděla video s julií koubovou a zarazilo mě, proč by měla být vnímaná nutnost trans lidi sterilizovat předtím, než podstoupí chirurgickou proměnu, jako špatná? určitě by bylo lepší, kdyby nebyli nuceni do chirurgické změny pohlaví, pokud ji nechtějí, ale pohlavní orgány produkují přece hormony, které právě způsobují na těle ty nechtěné a nevratné změny a které, si myslím, by působily proti účinkům těch hormonů, které trans lidi berou? moc nevím, jak proměna vlastně funguje...

sterilizace lidí je podmínkou tranzice v čr, jak společenské (zákonní), tak chirurgické. během chirurgické tranzice se často stává “vedlejším účinkem” sterilizace - jde o součást procedury v mnoha případech, ale například u ftm jedinců nejde vůbec o nutnost. 

[sparklingdali]

2, 13, 25 8D

2)what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

of course you’d ask that 

I think the only piece of mine I ever fully deleted and didn’t just lost was a self-insert fanfiction that involved prison break, Russia and me betraying my country. 

Also a moment of silence for my early hetalia things when I was 16 and didn’t know we were part of Holy Roman Empire. I mean I did know that we elected the emperors and one of our rulers was the emperor itself. I just didn’t realize it was so... definitive? Like I literally thought we were so important that they’d invite the Czech king just because they respected him so much. The reality was such a downer.

13) My strenghts? dialogue... and that’s it

25) oh u :D (paragraph that I’m proud of)

First I wanted to write the paragraph where Václav in post-coital giddiness without shame declares to himself that Rasťo in future won’t leave a) his political program b) his bed. The implication that later Slovakia partly won independence by fucking Czech’s ass is hard in that one.

But seriously: anything mentioning the oh-so-horrible-taboo subject of Slovakia joining Germany in WW2. Because that thing is fucking comedic gold. Czech shits himself every. time. I generally like digging in the worst bits of their relationship. Btw: Rasťo also made like a minute before a lovely comparison between Jozef Tiso and Jan Hus. Not even I think Václav deserved to hear that :’D (okay, lie).

Nakláněli se jeden k druhému, Václav rudý zlostí a Rasťo svírající desku stolu, jako by jí chtěl rozdrtit mezi prsty.

"Víš, co udělám? Než abych tě nechal zase se trhnout, raději tě předám Sovětskýmu svazu! Ať tě Rusko srovná!"

Rastislava ta myšlenka zřejmě úplně dorazila a začal se hlasitě smát. "No iste, práve ty!" nasadil ufňukaný hlásek. "Už nikdy si nenecháme Slovensko vzííít!” Václav doslova pohoršeně zalapal po dechu, tváře barvící se do ruda teď už nejen vztekem. “Vaše noviny sú plné týchto propagandistických sračiek. Preto ma vážne dojímajú tie hovná, čo tu na mňa teraz púšťaš. Ty ma totiž potrebuješ-”

"HA-HA já tě nepotřebuju!" vyprskl Václav. "Než abych ztratil přístup k Rusku, raději se tě jednou provždy zbavím, ty nevděčný zmetku!"

- insert lame fighting and Rasťo being sad that Václav doesn’t want to rub one out with him during their righteous ‘man fight’ and instead starts looking like he’s gonna cry -

Honestly I don’t have much of a personal style so I mainly like the parts where I think I managed to be extraordinarily funny or some huge character development (often by something horrible) happens.

[sparklingdali]

Phichit, JJ c:

JJ

character: hate them | don’t really care | like them | LOVE them | so bad its good

ship with: his gf 

favorite friendship: he has no friends between the other characters :D its sad

general opinions: I think him being an ass is only like 2% of his whole character, the rest is the over-the-top weird-ass king jj show which absolutely stops me from taking this man seriously, not sure how people can hate him

Pichit

character: hate them | don’t really care | like them | LOVE them | too good for this world

ship with: nobody really

favorite friendship: Yuuri, seriously that guy is so lucky to have a friend like that

general opinions: if I had to pick a friend between the characters who do you think I would pick? the russian drama queen? the walking anxiety? fashionable angry boy? no, the hamster man all the way, I mean he just wants to others to see how fun skating is, somebody get me a napkin

[still-intrepid]

I love your pieces, especially the november polonaise (i'm thinking about playing it someday, i've already saved the sheet music) since i'm a big fan of chopin myself! Do you write the orchestral pieces using a computer programme or? Do you study composition at a music school or are you a professional? Or are you self studied (if so big respect!)? I believe you're too good to make music just for fun. Thanks for an answer!

Thank you!!  Aw I’m really glad when people like my stuff, and especially to hear you might use the sheet music.

Sooo, I use Logic and a bunch of sound samples from various places to put together the sound of my digitally produced stuff mostly.  I might occasionally record myself singing or on oboe for e.g.  I write, as in come up with the ideas, either completely by sitting in front of Logic and playing lines in on my midi keyboard, or to varying degrees by writing it down after coming up with it on the piano/singing/walking around making vague humming noises.  That’s for this sort of soundtracky stuff anyway.

And I am sort of.... all of the above?!  I am studying; I’m quite a ways through a PhD (!?! help, how) in music composition (part-time, which is why I seem to have been doing the same thing forever), but I don’t post as much of that stuff, largely because it’s not all recorded.  That’s more... “””contemporary classical””” and I find that I am.... overly tuneful and accessible and simple compared to a lot of my peers, but still slightly weird and out there compared to what people who aren’t used to this sort of music think :D  But!  I’ve been more recently I think finally re-reconciling What I Want To Do with What I Think I Should Be Doing -- some of my favourite pieces I’ve done for the course have been for our medieval/contemporary womens’ choir, for example Aphorisms and this Psalm (that I just remembered to upload!) from a longer piece.  And I plan to include some piano pieces, if not necessarily the pianowrimo ones, in my portfolio.  it’s scary!

I am technically professional (got the self-employment tax forms to prove it....) in that I occasionally get some money for my work. In the past I’ve worked with a director I met in uni on some paid projects, promotional things and one longer short film/documentary which I get royalties for if they ever show it on Channel 4 again (watch on vimeo / listen on bandcamp!); I have stuff like bandcamp and commissions a bit these days; and I got one proper commission through university last year which was amazing (that’s actually what the psalm was written for.)  But I’m by no means sustaining myself by composition alone! (And I’m fine with that--what I’d like in future is to shift the balance more to composition but I enjoy teaching and at the moment even restaurant work in so far as it gets me out of the house and sociable!  And actually what’s starting to pay more is the improv and playing for musical theatre karaoke night ;) )  

And I am self-taught in terms, especially of computer music production and film music, and in that there’s only so much you can be taught about composition (there is some!  but everyone learns on their own too I think, if that makes sense.)  And on my degree programme I meet with my supervisor who is most definitely a proper professional composer of some note, but I don’t have classes or anything.

This got super long.  But maybe some background on my musical stuff for anyone who’s interested in that...  (also?  I really rather do want to talk and hang out with more composer types -- it seems kind of crazy that I don’t at the moment..  I want to do it in a kind of excitable no pressure way though, like, uh, like we talk about fic and art basically;;;  Also I’ve been posting all this experiments in Logic stuff recently, so, yeah, anyone out there, come say hi!)

[lethargicnecromancer]

8, 35, 77

8. How often do you listen to music?most of the time im on my computer which is every day 35. Did you have a dream last night?yep i went to buy an alcoholic beverage, and not only i didn’t get asked for an id like the person before me, but they even gave me a free shot of vodka (yes i dream of things like that lol)77. Are relationships ever worth it?unless you want to be alone for the rest of your life then maybe

[krchov]

3,12,13,22,49 tereza

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory? 

aaaahahaha no. Like, it was literal angstfest. Her childhood issues have issues. Any better memories she has are all centered around her grandma and literally everything else could be called bad memory so

12. What is their favourite food? 

ok so im sure you know those fast food kiosks centered usually around major bus stops. okay so take menu of that, pick the most greasiest, oily thing and there is really big chance she will love it

13. What is their least favourite food?

she doesnt really have least favourite food, but generaly dislikes sweet stuffs

22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back? 

you looked at her for too long? what the fuck are you staring at you pissfucked maggotreaction to people generaly existing? go shit a chainsaw

ah yes, and of course the good old kurwa

like the probability of any word she says being insult is circa 33%, and youll never know if she really means it or if its just sort of habit

and shittaling behind your back? she will call u a syphilis mangled slut and then go and say it again in your face

49. What is their most valued object? Are they sentimental? Is there something they have to take everywhere with them? 

she has this matryoshka doll that she did with her grandpa on visit to yekaterinburg that she really watches over, but other than that… nah, probs not. like she is hella sentimental sometimes but has no problem with getting rid of old stuffs