#theebonyjaniceproject

[rememberebonyjanice]

Hi! It’s me seeing myself in this moment. This is a moment that I won’t have to look back in a few years from now and realize that I was that b/that nga and somehow I missed it because of body dysmorphia. Yay me! Yay therapy! Yay to a heal/ing moment. Also yes, it is 8:20am CST and I’ve already been in the backyard hot tub in over the top swimwear! 🤭😏🤷🏾‍♀️ ——— Was texting with the homie this morning abt a recent therapy revelation someone posted on Twitter that we both resonated with and I thought, “THIS” is what I mean when I say, “Dreams as resistance” because when blk ppl/ Blk women/woc/POC have to do resistance work all the live long day we never get to settle in our bodies in these types of healing moments that other folks have as a given or a luxury. The decision to focus on ME as a whole, free, liberated person isn’t selfish... it is radical, revolutionary, and the balance of God! <- Sometimes God will hold your hand and step by step you. And sometimes God will fall back and see if you ready to run. I am learning how to be Balanced God because I’ve had a deep investment in only being “Good God” (Good Good via Thea Monyee, 2021). ——— #DreamYourselfFree is always available for your tangible support. Learn more at bit.ly/EmmasLegacyFoundation ——- #TheEbonyJaniceProject (at New Orleans, Louisiana) https://www.instagram.com/p/CP5r0h1hcDX/?utm_medium=tumblr

[rememberebonyjanice]

On Softness: Whew! (Full stop) I have been on this intentional “softness” journey for a little while now. Saying, “Black women aren’t just the mules of this world” and actively healing from my conditioning as a “mule of this world” is two different things. Softness ain’t just laying on my hood couch with my flower wall in the background either. Softness is feeeeeeeeling! 😬 Ewww! (sigh) And I learned this practice of naming my feelings from Thea Monyee by way of @tarabrach’s “Radical Acceptance” work. I just stop when something comes up that feels like it can’t just be grazed over and I lost my feelings. It may look something like this: I am feeling anxious, disappointed, frustrated, embarrassed, afraid, uncertain, confused, heavy, some anger, a tightness in my chest, a knot in my belly, my breath is shallow, the thickness of my breathing is strained, there are tears right at the edge of my eyes, I want to weep, I want to tantrum, and and and... And there’s actually nothing instagrammably magic about what happens after that. I just feel my feelings, accept that they are information and I don’t have to meaning make them any further... and then I move on (if I am able). And this is radical and revolutionary and righteous movement work because when your entire existence is historically linked to your production and labor for others... when has a Blk woman ever had time to just list her feelings and feel them and be held (even if the holding is just herself holding herself). (Slide 2) saw this article from 1918 on Le Twitter the other day and it reads that Blk women were refusing domestic work so the city passed an ordinance requiring them to have a job because we couldn’t find cooks, cleaners, or someone to raise their children. 😭😂 Unable to can. Honestly. I share this in this context because when I say Dreams (Healing) As Resistance Work — There’s theory to back it up when historically Blk women legit cld not choose to NOT! Healing is hard work and it’s the only hard work I’m willing to do at this point in my life. #TheEbonyJaniceProject https://www.instagram.com/p/CPq7amqhwJo/?utm_medium=tumblr

[rememberebonyjanice]

I saw this photo of Toni Morrison chilling in her apartment and it stirred something in me. Made me think of some of my other favorite photos of brilliant Blk women just chillin chillin minding their business. I’m in a major shift, for prob the last year or so... but daily I’m becoming. Who knows what but something. I think it’s good too! 🙏🏾🖤 These photos of Blk women doing nothing and being everything really speaks to where my work is pulling me. We gon’ see! —- I have built a business of being a smart black girl. It’s actually quite impressive. I have no regrets. But really... I just wanna live a life of ease and pleasure and play. No religious, raced, or gendered gaze keeping me from whatever is next. Just the sweetness of being. It’s a dream. I don’t know where it’s leading me but I got my walking shoes on. #TheEbonyJaniceProject www.ayearofblackjoy.com https://www.instagram.com/p/CPjh-D0hJFC/?utm_medium=tumblr

[rememberebonyjanice]

“I can do all things through Christ who clearly leans in my direction a little on the heavy and a lot on the extra.” - (Sacred Scripture) 😏 Phoenix Ring (Photo 2) from @alkemiejewelry Jessica Ring (Photo 3) from my love Cara at @gildedgrotto Confidence (Video 1) from daily devotion to LOVE at my altar each night focused on #TheEbonyJaniceProject ————— Doing so good. This too is my activism. 😏 #TheFreePeopleProject (at New Orleans, Louisiana) https://www.instagram.com/p/CL5UXKzlfgz/?igshid=rsqpyzbnyf0f