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[tomockthekillingbird]

March 1

I'll try to write as much as I can this month. It might be a good time for it. Any other moment in the past three years would have been soaked up by checking my phone, freemium gaming, or chatting on location-based anonymous chat applications. I have finally kicked a lot of that bad habit. Not completely of course, and I am sure I will have my leaps from from wagon quite frequently, but I think I have turned a corner. It kind of came to a head when I was making notes of things to say on Yik Yak when I would be closer to downtown so that more people could see it and upvote it. I finally realized, after some intense soul-searching, tears, and eventual arguments with faceless IOS software... the futility of it all and deleted the app from my phone. And I don't miss it, really. It was just so hard to break that tie between what I thought I had created and built up and reality. Because in reality it was nothing. Like when I deleted Candy Crush about a year ago. Part of what kept me playing and grasping at the logic of keeping it was that I had somehow achieved something. The ability to play to levels. A number to tell people. It is all so worthless. 

And it's not just futility. Or time wasting. These games, media, and other attention grabbers seem to be fundamentally changing who we are as humans. I have read a lot about it lately. The need for boredom. The drive for likes and recognition. The way these technologies tap into a very sensitive part of our brain that we cannot necessary control so well. Like the way we all hate hyperbolic news stories but we cannot help but tune in because our amygdalas are, by definition, an automatic response system. You can learn to calm the response through patient practice and mindfulness, but it takes time.

Likewise, it will take time to learn how to put the phone away and look up at the world. To choose boredom when there is another option just waiting in our pockets. To make time for disconnecting.

[lolcatsdeamon13]

theglasscage said: i know nothing about your schools bureaucracy, but could you go directly confront your prof and ask why you were dropped and pointedly explain your situation? could you file a complaint? idk i usually get my way if i force it with dumb policies :/

I mean, she didn't even try to hide the reasoning. She's a great teacher and a great person, but the head of the vocal department is a stickler and a bit rude when it comes to the rules (I almost got kicked out of lessons once because there was a mix up with my credits, and the department head told my TA to just drop me. Things like that) I'm composing an e-mail back to her, but haven't sent it because I need to be at a point where I won't be flying into a rage when I read it. I might just ask my mum to look over it instead of waiting, 'cause waiting might take too long. 

She worded it really nicely: "I’m writing to give you a heads-up about lessons next year: I’m sorry to say that at this point it looks as though I won’t be able to keep you in my studio now that you've finished your four semesters of lessons. We have a number of BMs and MMs joining us in the fall, all of whom are guaranteed places in faculty members’ studios. Due to limited studio space (many are already at capacity), I am currently not able to keep BAs once the voice lesson requirement has been met." 

So I really can't be mad at her and I know she can't really do much, especially being new to the department. I just want to explain to her just how much the situation sucks for me and for all BA's.

[lolcatsdeamon13]

Ahoy. About the whole gwen stacy thing. It's during a fight between spider-man and green goblin (in amazing spider-man #121) that she dies. Green goblin knocks her off the top of the bridge with his glider and peter stops her with a web and breaks her neck.

Ahoy! Oh! I’d only seen the tumblr post about it, so I hadn’t gotten the context. I think I was mixing what was in the movie with him throwing her out the window with the bridge scene from the actual comics. That’s even worse since it’s not his fault 0.0 Thanks for clearing that up!

[lolcatsdeamon13]

theglasscage said: if you have to ski, load up of vitimin c and water and maybe thatll help a bit. maybe go through a puppy tag for a few minutes or deep breathe or something :P idk the more you tell yourself you dont want something the less you want it

Well, luck of all luck (<- is sarcasm) I got more sick and nearly passed out getting out of a warm bath, so I'm not skiing today... I'll be having a bunch of water and going through the puppy tag or whatnot so I hopefully can ski tomorrow. Like, I really didn't want to leave my apartment, but I actually do enjoy skiing once I'm out there, and Colorado's pretty darn well known for skiing, so I'd like to be able to ski here at least once in my 4.5 years here. Thank you for the advice! YAY PUPPIES!

[lolcatsdeamon13]

theglasscage said: hey that looks like my schedule! its not so bad if you’re motivated and love your majors! i could technically graduate in 3 years with 2 ba’s if i werent doing a yr abroad my last year. :P i dunno if they let you, but i used major classes for gen ed

Yes, some of the gen ed is covered by my major, but I didn't include things that I'd already done/didn't need to do. This gen ed is "human diversity," geography, one english, "ideas and values" etc etc. 

I just have so many things other than school that I want to also work on, plus I want to take a semester abroad in Israel. I didn't even work this year, and I'm still having some trouble keeping up with my classes. I love both of my majors, and I don't believe in doing things you don't love (unless those things get you to things you do love), but loving a subject doesn't mean I won't procrastinate on it... actually it means I'll procrastinate more. There is no way I'm graduating in four years, unless I don't wish to be a healthy individual. My mental health (and physical, but that won't be as affected by this) is more important than school.

[lolcatsdeamon13]

theglasscage said: never settle for less time with family!! you only get to see them so often now. a video game(?) is nowhere near as good as a sister :P politely force them to spend more time with you!! besides whats so great about doing the same thing for 5 days??

Ilu so much! Thank you for reading through my 1am ramblings. I agree. If Scott doesn't want to come to the shopping/gardens day (if Jen wants to, of course), then hey, extra skiing day for him! But they're coming up here, and while Colorado is great for skiing, it's also great for seeing the Rachie muffin. So they're gonna goddamn do both!

But yeah, it'll be easier when it isn't just him and me talking about it. Once Jen gets back from Israel we'll have an actual real talk about it.

[swimpuku]

theglasscage reblogged your photoset:Ms.Mankanshoku appreciating some grade A dick

why is that one dudes private region glowing

its their special way of censoring lool

his nipples also glow when theyre showing