#theinnermachinationsofmymindareanenigma

[shakedatcass4me]

I should be happy, but instead I feel nothing. I feel a lot of nothing these days. I've cried a few times, but mostly I'm empty, as if whatever makes me feel and hurt and laugh and love has been surgically removed, leaving me hollowed out like a shell.

-Jennifer Neven

[shakedatcass4me]

Current

You ever walk up to a river and watch the flow of the current? Notice how sometimes it’s so fast and messy and you know if you’d happen to slip in you’d probably drown and get caught up in the flow of things? So messy you can’t even understand it. I feel this how people will be once they try to slip inside my mind, drown in the mess of the flow of things. Drowning kills an average of about 10 people each day, even the rivers that look so calm. You don’t know their under surface, same with people. You may think the current is calm, until you slip in and now you’re drowning from how messy the under surface is..

[shakedatcass4me]

“ in better terms. It’s like two people on a motorcycle, but there’s only one helmet, you know what you’re doing is dangerous but you try to enjoy the ride anyway. However, someone always ends up getting fucked up. It’s hard not to let it happen, sometimes it’s out of your control. But it doesn’t change the fact that it’s not okay and that it hurts like hell... so when it comes to relationships, why do we only pick one helmet”?

- my fucked up self