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[the-kimberly]

this year

blessing, money, testimony

some of my favorite lines from the song "this year" by victor thompson and ehis d' great. oh how I love listening to this masterpiece absorbing the high frequency energy and abundance. few years back, I see myself wishing, hoping and praying for something to happen. as someone who gets overstimulated and overwhelmed easily, I am trying my best to do the inner work again and focus on one thing at a time. that way I can keep track and focus on what I really want being able to nurture it with as much time and attention.

MARCH 2025 - I can't believe we're on the 3rd month of this year already! how fast time flies. I was in my hotel in Perth aka my fave destination to operate. I found myself waking up confused whether I am in my own room or some hotel outstation. typical me checking phone once my eyes opened from such good sleep, I was talking to my family about an ocular I asked them to do. I kept bugging my aunt about the said trip because it really has the best of my interests. everything went by so fast that the next thing I knew is praying asking God to guide me through it as I am closing such a good deal. if the walls could talk, they would know how patient and faithful I have been for this very day to come. even I myself couldn't believe it up to this very day. my heart is filled with so much love, life & hope!

I feel so proud of myself because who would have ever thought all of these would be brought to life? I remember years ago how all of these seemed to be just living in my vision board. if we would track rewinds from years of my life, "how do you see yourself in 5 years?", you may ask, I would straight up tell you I would have love to have a family of my own by now. but God has other plans, it is not yet the time for me to build a family of my own but subconsciously, the perfect time rather to build foundation, assets that would give me and my future family a good, comfortable life. the Most High blessed me with the something that my whole being desires the most - my source.

as a 27 year old, I know people my age feels either lost or left behind because of peers mainly. and I think that is completely normal and okay. but I have learned as time pass by, that there is beauty within the silver lining of patience and slowing down. it enables you to focus on the bigger picture - to appreciate what you have while working and praying for what you want.

forget the past, work of the future and cherish today.

because today is indeed a present.

[the-kimberly]

our dawn is hotter than day

taken from one of my fave track by my fave kpop group - seventeen. here it goes again, the deafening noise of being alone in my flat confined in these corner where intrusive thoughts seemed to be painted on the walls making my mind interpret such abstract designs. for the past few weeks, i have been living alone with my flatmates being barely at home. don't get me wrong, i am happy for them - they are enjoying the freedom and love they have been deserving. it has been awhile since i have posted a brain dump in this safe space and I feel like I have so much more to ay but it's just that, the words and context aren't coming out write as composed as I wish for it to be.

at this very moment, I am on the 2nd day of my standby - the code on my roster I almost loathe. I just feel like it's a waste of time to wait whether or not they want me to go to work. I am craving to be grounded to the outside world enjoying the fresh breeze, appreciating everything around me rather than being stuck at home doing nothing but overthinking.

this year, I have vowed to put myself more out there - to meet new people, gain experiences and truly see the world not just via layovers. as I have come across the post that says, "I recommend going on solo trips. we gotta stop waiting for people to see the world" which in fact, hit's the bull's eye. so many unplanned trips but schedules never matched, different priorities or they just don't value you that much, whatever the reason is, should never be a hindrance most especially if you're well aware that you are capable.

now I'm sitting here infront of my laptop pouring down my thoughts while listening to music planning some self care shenanigans for my days off. I just want to be in my unbothered, do not disturb era lessening putting my life behind the screens but living it instead.

I never had any issues doing things alone - in fact, I really do value my me time but I just wish that on some instances, people would do the same thing for me like making time.

if you think I'm behind my laptop with a frowned face, you are wrong. I'm actually smiling at myself reminiscing about how I was before circa 2018. hurrying to sign out my shift just so I can catch the sunset, have a stroll at the mall and sometimes even treat myself to a nice meal if my budget allows. or how I was during college days - going to binondo to unwind and kill time - or let's not stray away, that version of me during pandemic who has been dedicated to journaling, listening to podcasts and just living - all done alone.

one thing I realized is that - we have to stop waiting for people to do things with us or even for us. that would be such a waste of time waiting for uncertainties. it's like standing under and umbrella waiting for it to rain.

I hope we find the right circle for us - without the guilt of fitting ourselves in a circumference of a wrong equation. or sometimes, just appreciate being alone.

happy 2024!

how have you been?

[the-kimberly]

Dear Diary,

3rd of December 2023,

Dear diary,

I love my life - I woke up around 5 am in the morning feeling hungry with a bunch of things going thru my mind right now. I realized last now how it has been exactly one year since my "downfall" related to being stuck in a rut.

Just a quick recap on December 2022, I have been offloaded from one of my requested flight, Dublin because I have been unfortunately diagnosed with pityriasis rosea (if you are curious, please look it up on Google). I had it from October 2022 until the first week of January 2023. I have been so sad during those days because that was honestly one of the most beautiful roster I have never had, stolen away by unforeseen circumstances.

Though being grounded for a month, I found myself being so frustrated, questioning myself as why it has to be me out of all people, I was somehow able to make the most out of my "rest period". Inevitably stressed, I would always click the Talabat (food delivery app) on my phone and order whatever I wanted. Despite spoiling myself with food cravings that time, it has been an extremely unhealthy habit that made me gain 10 kg within a span of one month.

My flatmate and also a good friend of mine was also on grooming with me, Aiah - there I shared one of the best moments of my life with her - sleeping at the living room because we felt so empty and alone confined at the corners of our room, going out enjoying the remaining days of World Cup season, strolling around Qatar in winter, slowly healing ourselves trying to move forward with hiatus in flying.

I will always be grateful for people I have met along the way that made this agonizing month somewhat bearable.

Looking back, I hope and pray never to be in this position again most especially as a breadwinner of the family fueled with hopes and dreams, practically speaking I have lost a good amount of money because I was unfortunately unpaid during those times.

Now that I think about it, eagerness takes toll when it comes to taking one step at a time towards my dreams and goals. And no matter what, I will always all ways ask for His guidance to help me keep going even if there are days I question myself as to what am I doing this for again.

Here I am randomly writing this online journey down at 8am in a cold morning, I already have plans of being productive to start the day and re-evaluate my plans including trying to create my vision board for 2024.

How have you been?

[the-kimberly]

Perth aesthetics ✨

Hi, how have you been? It has been quite sometime since I made an entry in this safe space. Life has been pretty good lately though, I hope yours as well. I just love having quality time with myself most especially in Australian sectors for it makes me reflect about my life so much. Recently, during my Perth flight, I just realized how life has been so stressful for me last year. But here I am now, enjoying every moment of it no matter how tiring, draining some days could inevitably be.

Long walks, mornings, retail therapy could really be therapeutic to me.

[the-kimberly]

Lifted 🩰

Despite crying, obsessing as to why and how come I do not have a boyfriend yet for the past few weeks, (disclaimer: turned out it was just period hormones), I have fully grasped the fact and reality that as of this very moment, it's not yet the time for me to fall in love or be in a committed relationship with someone. Not solely because no one has ever met my standards yet or at least a fraction of it but because I have always prayed, wished and imagined myself to be living this kind of life I have in the present. Of course if I have someone in my life right no, would also be so good to work on who we are in and out of the relationship, but I want to give this time to myself — I have always valued my previous relationships more than myself at some point.

I do miss having someone in my life but if it traps me to the toxic cycles I've been through before, then it's not worth it. I know time will come for me to fall in love again. No one knows when or with whom but as of this very moment, I want to live life in my full potential without the stress of the future and uncertainties robbing me off the present moment. I want to stay firm when it comes to self actualization and awareness before I decide who to let in my life rather than romanticize the bare minimum again.

For the past few days, I have been listening to Ariana Grande's track called "Everyday" and for some reason, I have no idea what power this song has but I can sense love coming. Contradicting with everything that's been stated above right? I actually don't know what this is but it feels like something light, vibrant and protected is fast approaching. Recently, I have also been so reserved when it comes to weighing who deserves my time and energy. I hate putting all the effort carrying conversations, saving friendships and making myself always available when people cannot even reciprocate a portion of it.

[the-kimberly]

𝐍𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞, 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 ♡

– a spontaneous excerpt from thoughts I have been having days, even weeks ago.

Hi, how have you been? It's been awhile since I last had an entry on this safe space. That's because I was somehow pre occupied living in the moment. I know how I promised myself for a birthday blog but unfortunately, I was under the weather during those days.

My one week worth of leave is coming to an end in 2 days and I am unable to have a firm grasp of thoughts to put in this context so it might be a but all over the place. For the past few weeks, I was able to meet people who made me rethink my choices in life. Being a stubborn taurus who would take risks, leap of faith, solidified in her choices in life, I realized that it is completely okay to unlearn what you have learned in life.

Whether it be about relationships, connections, factors when it comes to life in general, our perception changes subconsciously through time. I had so much fun exploring a bit more of this country with my best friend and her lover (grateful for them and to my friends who would tag me along even on their dates so I won't feel left out). I was able to think clearly when it comes to things that I want and would work for despite having an amazing time outdoors.

I am 26 and there's more to life ahead of me. Undeniably having life crisis at times, I have learned to patiently wait for things to unfold and trust the process. 2022 has been a life full of surprises for me and I just want this year to be slow and steady despite living in a fast paced world — even how much I value time. It would be easier for me to clutch on the goals and plans I have this way rather than putting yet again another pressure on myself.

So far, I am grateful for achieving what I have once pictured in my mind – what I have dreamed into life. And I am willing to put effort when it comes to knowing myself more, continue moving further to higher level of consciousness. My thoughts might not be put together at this very moment but that is okay. I just want to appreciate everything within the universe whether it be living or not, yin or yang, be more soft spoken yet straightforward.

I will keep re-introducing myself as I discover more within the depths of my thoughts, transpire of the present and promise of the future.

Life is amazing, isn't it?