Be Present
I naturally tend much more toward my routine. When my days are open, I tend to lose track of time and being more hectic on my daily job. Several hours in front of my monitor, controlling all developmental progress of children in center, while I finish my weekly and monthly report, socializing with parents, and co-worker in Center. At the same time, I also have a difficult to take a space for my self to be relax and purging. I start to fall behind on extraordinary tasks, until my health is not meant an issue for me.
Being productive is not an issue, because this is the big things to make me fall and drawn into my present. But actually, I don’t. My job take me to work long hours, day-night, and weekends. I tend to be so productive in my professional environment, but in the same time, I can not be truly present and focused on the things, I most value as my longing for being a wife and great mom in the future. I also getting my track off site. Maybe this time for me to take a seat, reflect, and set my value’s back. What the important thing that matters of the most.
I know, I was so greedy to handle all these things just alone. I want to be successful at work and home, to be a great wife and mom in the future. I know that every human has a limit, and we can not be a super human that can take it all by myself, I need to be helped by others. I also realize now, if I want to make it successful in both, I need to catch on my fully present, my breath of wellness, and carve out time to simply be.
Ruang Rencana
24 Januari 2021
