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Natsuki knocked softly on yuri’s door. No answer and natsuki knocked harder and harder until she was banging on it “YURI OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!!” She stiffened up her body still overly tense from everything that was and did happen. Natsuki heard a slight sigh after a jolt of gasp of short shock and pain and hears footsteps approaching the door. Yuri opened the door “what do you need natsuki....?” Natsuki pushes through yuri’s way and went into her house like it was a secret hangout “come on show me your arm yuri..” natsuki said putting one of her hands on one side of her hip while the other folded out. =~=Bandages=~= chapter 2 part 1. Yuri flinched as she started to sweat. “W-what!! W-why!!” Yuri sounded panicked as she held down on her arm. “Just let me s-see it at least!!” Natsuki sounded more angry then concerned but the concern was still there in her eyes. “See w-what!!” Yuri said still panicked “how much I hurt it!! The cuts are it y-yuri!! Let me see them!!!” Natsuki said losing her patience. “Look I ALREADY know they are THERE so just give me your FUCKING wrists!!” Yuri looked at natsuki with more fear to let go of arm then anything else then natsuki breathed heavily to calm herself down and gently grabbed yuri’s wrist and yuri didn’t fight back so it was fairly easy. “Thank you..” natsuki said as she rolled up the sleeve on yuri’s sweater and saw the cuts a lot of them too..then sighed “yuri I’m s-sorry for hitting your wrist that hard...it’s like if you hit one of my Bru—“natsuki stopped herself from finishing that sentence as yuri was silent “you get the point...” natsuki reached down into her bag and grabbed some bandages that were all thick and soft and started wrapping Yuri’s cuts as yuri flinched back a little bit. “HEY!! Don’t move while I’m doing this I still have one more arm after this!!!” Natsuki raised her voice at yuri and rolled yuri’s sleeve on her left arm up and rolled up her right sleeve and repeated the same process. Natsuki when she was done looked at the time and sighed and grabbed her bag ready to go and headed towards the door. “Wait natsuki..?” Yuri asked rubbing her new bandages softly “yeah yuri..?” Saying with a tiny bit of sass yet it wasn’t laid on thick enough to actually do anything “d-do you think you could stay just a little bit longer....” natsuki looked at the time once more and looked at the ground and tapped her foot on the floor. “I....no I’m sorry but I have to go now..” yuri looked at natsuki as she left without saying goodbye. “O-ok then....” yuri rolled up her sleeves again to stroke the bandages that natsuki wrapped around her wrist and smiled softly looked at them more until she looked up at the door with her hands in her lap. “Thank you...”. End of part 1 of chapter 2

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It’s been three hours since the event at the school building happened Monika and Sayori were planing the tactics on how they are going to help or find out at all what happened as much Monika wanted to admit that they saw everything and could just point fingers but that wouldn’t be justified so she went with Sayori to make a plan to get evidence that yuri didn’t punch natsuki. Yuri in the other hand was at home sitting on her bed covering her face with her hands and looked at her knife collection right by her bed on the nightstand and reached slowly towards it but the sudden pain from natsuki’s dads grasp and push recoiled even after three hours the pain was still there. Yuri looked around her room and closed her eyes slightly as fuzzy sounds of children laughing and swearing to eachother in such way it’s like another language and yuri’s mind went blank as a small video played in her head and she felt as if this was all happening again.... =~=Bandages=~= chapter 2 part 5. The loud talking in the cafeteria was normal everything was normal and as yuri sat alone that was also normal but then a very small kid her age walked over to that table she was sitting alone at eating whilst reading at the same time. “Uh excuse me but is this seat taken if not I’ll gladly vote too” yuri jumped up in surprise as the small girl sat by her she didn’t say anything but stared at nervously. “What are you looking at..!!” The small girl scrunched up here face as yuri quickly turned back to her reading and realized the girl didn’t have a lunch In front of her then finally yuri started talking “a-a-aren’t y-you h-hungry...?” She said muffled by her own nervousness and the small sized girl rolled her eyes yet at the same time they dulled “pfttt What!! No way am I hungry!!” Yuri nodded and looked down “Hey....what’s your name anyways? It’s not like I want to be friends or anything!!but it is needed to survive here!!” Yuri looked at slightly “t-tell me y-yours first...” the girl rolled her eyes in frustration. “Fine whatever!! My name is natsuki!! Happy?!” Yuri looked at once more “y-yuri... m-my name is y-yuri..” the girl that is so called natsuki was looking at yuri’s food instead of paying attention to yuri. Yuri noticed this but before she could ask once more they were due to go outside. And so natsuki quickly got up and walked outside as yuri was the last one out and started to climb the tree. High pitched squeals of terror were heard and it was a small group of girls running from a bee as yuri watched from a distance and opened her book. Apparently no one knew she was up on the tree branch and a group of kids were right underneath her “so there’s a new student...?” The other kids replied as the new student question got her attention and started listening “yeah and she sat by the psychopath should we go tell her so she dosent get hurt..?” Yuri felt her own heart sank and silently pray in her head that they won’t tell her a false fact that every believes and leaned against the main trunk of the tree and hugged her self as for some reason she continued listening. “Good idea let’s go find them..!” Yuri looked down covering her face ever so slightly as natsuki fell down onto the lower branch and yuri flinched. “Ugh...ow...” yuri pretended that she didn’t witness that and covered her tears face in her book. “Hey uh yuri right? Ok listen up lets say they did actually find me...” yuri’s attention shot straight up “y-you d-don’t t-think——“ natsuki raises her eyebrows “no I don’t that is stupid as hell to think...anyways I’ll go and leave you be for now...” natsuki said as she climbed down the tree and yuri watched her take off in a sprint and her eyes sparkled and smiled softly as the actual world happening currently faded back in and yuri opened her eyes again and this time they shot up. She ran to her closet and put on a light jacket to keep her warm And pulled her hood up as she knew what to do and she had to do it she ran to natsuki’s house. It’ll be ok I promise just wait..I’ll be there soon. End of =~=Bandages=~= chapter 2 part 5

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I felt warm as I started to wake up or at least feel like I wasn’t dead and my mind just couldn’t see the light and then I heard a fire very close to me which is one thing that was keeping me warm. I know something else was by me keeping me warm but my memories were very faint and I was super light headed. Then I felt a slight stroke on my head going through my strains of hair and as I slowly opened my eye the fingers jumped off my hands like a fire cracker. “H-hey!! Don’t w-wake up if you d-don’t want to!!” The voice jingled through my ears it was natsuki after a moment of gaining my somewhat hollow brain at the moment and or time and jolted up to hug her but my shoulder and head said otherwise pulling me back down with a sharp Yelp of pain. “DONT DO THAT YURI!!!” I was slowly gaining my grasp on what happened and once I did.… “N-natsuki your ok right!?” I said as I retreated back in pain and held down on my heavily wounded shoulder with about two layers of bandages and my head was not bandaged at all so it honestly felt to most gut grinding and painful. Natsuki quickened her breath angrily clutching her teeth together in a very un happy expression “yuri I said d-don’t move an fucking bit your already hurt enough, PLUS what the hell is wrong with you?!?” I stared at her for a moment thinking what she could be— oh my I really did nearly kill us Jesus i need to say sorry that was terrible! But my mouth didn’t move it’s like my normal shyness couldn’t compare to a yelling small hothead girl who’s bark was bigger then her bite. “I didn’t need THAT!!! Everything could of been better if you just minded your own business!! Idiot idiot idiot!!!” Natsuki seemed like she was calling herself an idiot despite that she was at least trying to aim it towards me. I opened my mouth to say something that was not needed nor could I control it... :~:Waterfalls:~: Chapter 3 part 2. “H-hey it’s not my fault that I had to save your own sour ass butt from someone that you could of easily reported your damn self!!” I breathed heavily as I immediately regret my choice of words or to speak at all and I can tell natsuki wasn’t immune to it even my eyes sinked down into a sorry position to the point even my heart ache from my own careless words. “Yuri...IF I HAVE REPORTED HIM THEN I WOULD OF BEEN MORE BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF DO YOU THINK I WANTED THAT OR THIS OR FUCKING HELL YOU AROUND MY ASS WHEN IM HELPING YOU!!” I began to saw tears and I instantly began to feel my already aching heart drop into my throat as I tried to speak but was interrupted again... “and w-when I c-care a-and s-show my r-r-respect for you...” natsuki couldn’t finish her sentence as she clutched her hands so tightly together and tears fled down her cheeks in a stingy movement so fast it dropped to the ground before I could count it. “Y-you just t-treat me like the pile of shit I treat you!!” Finally I managed to pull my act together “n-natsuki!! I don’t mean to m-make you feel these things!!” Natsuki growled at me with tears standing up “NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU SAY THAT YOU NEVER FUCKING ACTUALLY FIX IT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO FIX MYSELF!!!” I gulped and wanted to see if she still cared about my physical being and stood up wobbly as she looked at me “I’m s-sorry...I don’t want to fight...I don’t mean to make you feel these things...and sorry I ruined your already shitty life...” I breathed stuttering my own air through my lungs as I tried being mature and not to cry right now. Without warning I found myself collapsing onto natsuki in a tight hug where instead of fighting back just let her strong angered yet saddened expression drop down as she hugged back and cried and cried eventually I found myself doing it just not as hard and we sat down by the fire...natsuki didn’t let go of me for the rest of the day as we didn’t eat or move...it didn’t appear to me that there was a little flash of something I never expected towards someone like natsuki and it was strange....yet smoothing..I liked it...”Hey yuri when this is over can we not bring this up...” natsuki said burrowing her face into my jacket “most likely.....” natsuki looked at the clouds and then looked around “.....yuri can you walk and hold things a little at least...” I felt my shoulder where the bandaged up wound was and stood up and nodded. “Alright good we should get moving we can’t be out here without supplies...” I shake my head in a no movement. “You didn’t get to read the books whilst I have, we can make shelter out of the t-trees and life’s and little weapons...” you know the books Monika told us to read well I did a highly advanced one telling more of a survival in the woods instead of actual camping needs “I thought you were to busy reading your horror things” I chuckled “what!? You don’t expect me to believe you don’t stop reading a book halfway through and then read the next one!! That’s unlike you!!” Then I smiled softly at her “don’t judge a book by its cover didn’t you tell me that about manga?” Natsuki got flustered right away and crossed her arms And pouted” OK fine fine!! I believe you tch!!” You know I’m always trying to remember why i was better friends with her in middle school and actually interacting with her like this. Even if it is happening after our near death.... end of part 2

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..........…………........it’s silent………very silent..... the thoughts rushed to my head.... I knew what I was about to do would possibly make things worse then they already are..yet I can’t stand the fact after what I just learned has been happening for so long, why didn’t she tell me earlier this could of been less of a risk..! Either way I am doing this regardless of the things that could go terribly wrong she was for the longest time my only friend until I met Monika and Sayori. So I wasn’t going to witness her suffer through this! Usually somebody like me, shy and timid wouldn’t do this but I had to this is what is happening and it’s not a dream or a book you are doing this for her not for you..! I caught my breath as I realized I was talking to myself in the dark...that probably didn’t look good if anybody saw it...but good thing no one did for that reason... I approached the house that just looked like a tall shadow that would consume me which wasn’t helping the situation c-crap... my pacing slowed as I examined and looked around the house and peeked through the windows at one point I saw that man and quickly ducked away my chest was thumping. Why am I so scared..... the coward side started to take in as I fought it and looked up and started climbing the side of the house to the only top window and I heard a gun click and I didn’t know what to do............... Chapter 3 *~*Waterfalls*~* part 1. My instinct kicked in to run but instead of away I went faster and I looked through the bedroom window to see..natsuki!? Her nose was bruised along with her jaw from earlier but her nose seemed to not stop bleeding and she was covering it with her hands that themselves has little droplets of blood seeping out in between her fingers. I grabbed one of my pocket knifes and broke to window with my fist and knife together. “Y-YURI?!?!?” I shushed her quietly as blood was leaking out of my hands I inhaled in pain but shouldn’t I be used to this kinda pain by now..? “you need to get out now yuri if not... My dad is going to kill you!!” Yuri heard the turning of the door handle and quickly crawled through the window and my head farted around as the door was slammed open as I grabbed natsuki and threw her on my back. The gunshots were fired and I quickly jumped out the window but he keeper on following us “YURI STOP WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING YOUR GOING TO GET US BOTH KILLED YOU IDIOT!!” “You are not going anywhere you piece of shit!!” There voices surrounded me I blacked out as my feet continued carrying me I felt natsuki pounding on my back and the warm smoke of bullets nearly hitting me then finally...yuri your such an idiot and natsuki was right a sharp pain hit my shoulder and broke through my jacket a bullet hit me in my shoulder and I gasped in agony as I lost my balance and my grip on natsuki was so lose she could slide right off I tried to keep running but the pain was weighing me down “YURI!!!” Natsuki yelled I saw a upcoming waterfall that I could not avoid that would lead to a dead end but my sight is getting worse by the minute and I looked around slowly slowing down as I heard natsuki’s dads thumping feet hitting the ground I saw a tree branch and looked behind me with sweat and blood oozing out of my shoulder staining my cloths and I looked forward again at that branch. “Yuri w-what are y-you..! Wait no no no YURI DONT YOU DARE!!” I didn’t listen as I charged at the branch and leaped towards hanging from it one arm natsuki climbed up me to the thick branch and she grabbed my other hand but then he fired another bullet nearly hitting natsuki’s hand as I had to move my body to avoid the bullets myself my right arm was numb it hurts so much why did I make this stupid choice I’m a fucking idiot!! Natsuki continues to try and pull me up but to none of our knowledge the bullets that were missing me were hitting the branch and me and natsuki heard it snapping and I looked at her and she looked at me finally almost pulling me up as her dad was reloading the gun and then.…… he shot again breaking the branch and as well fell into the mini waterfalls that would soon lead to the biggest and last one I grabbed natsuki and with what I could do hug her and wrapped myself around her keeping her above water and protected from the rocks I could barley breath and as the biggest and last waterfall came up I was already almost out cold and my grasp on natsuki started to loosen as my skull was already damaged by the rocks hitting against them protecting natsuki “y-yuri!! Don’t you Fucking dare!!!” I couldn’t tell if it was water or tears going down her face as she hugged and wrapped herself around me as tightly as possible as I blacked out the thing I saw before blacking our was natsuki’s dad looking over the waterfalls and us falling to what seemed to be our fate and the end of it...but it wasn’t..………we ended up on a dirty muddy shoreline of the lake we floated to natsuki was just then lifting her head up and she looked at me with what I saw tears “y-yuri you fucking idiotic bitch” as she launched towards me in the Blurry vision I could still put together she hugged me so tight as I felt hands rubbing against……it hurts like a living hell………………. End of part 1

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So I did three pen sketches today and one of them was my very concerned probably scared tsundere bean.

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Sayori stopped and leaned against a stop sign as was already out of breath and Monika was able to fully catch up and held out her hand with Sayori grasping it and Monika pulling her up as Sayori chuckles nervously through her fading heavy exhales “s-sorry moni I should of waited for you and maybe I wouldn’t be this tired hahaha” she laughed with weak lungs. Monika chuckled and let go of Sayori’s arm “it’s ok Sayori if you want to we could hang out at your place for a little bit then go to your moms we most likely will need a plan anyways”. Sayori looked around then sighed with less energy then usual “no no no we have to go to her house now...let’s go...!” Sayori’s voice dulled as she grabbed monika’s arm and ran towards her mother’s. Monika caught on to the sudden dullness of Sayori’s voice and now she was worried for all of her friends and she was silent as she spaced out in her thoughts while her feet carried her themselves.... =~=Bandages=~= chapter 2 part 4. They arrived at a front door with wilted flowers and broken lights basically it looked dull and looking like Sayori’s mom dosent try anymore or ever did. Monika looked at Sayori who waited patiently for an answer from the door then finally a low pitched raspy female voice come from inside the house “Sayori honey it’s unlocked already...” Sayori’s face dulled but then put on a big smile for her mother as she walked through the door with Monika “Hi mom!!!” Sayori said as she went and hugged her mother and her mother hugged Sayori back “glad to see you were free today sayo...”. Sayori’s mother’s dull eyes as she stroked Sayori’s hair. Monika looked around while just Sayori and her mother talked and amongst the Wall were different army badges and gently sliding her fingers against them getting dust on the tips of them. “Woah...” but then something else caught her eyes. A family portrait all together as Monika approached it and saw a man in army clothing with a brighter looking version of Sayori’s mom and a very small Sayori as monika’s eye sparkles from the shine of the frame as she reached to grab it but then Sayori’s mother jumping in front of causing monika to flinch backwards. “Don’t...touch this ok...who are you anyways..?” Sayori’s mother asked looking intimidating like at Monika as Sayori jumped in “This is Monika!! Mom say hi to Monika monika say hi to mom!!” Sayori’s mother stifled a weak laughter and Monika chuckled nervously along with. Monika cleared her throat and began talking “listen You already know I’m monika but I’m also the club president of the literature club and two of my former friends have been in a incident where me and Sayori were wondering if you could help in anyway of sorts....?” Monika said as Sayori was going up into The attic “hmm depends on the incident..what happened when and where..” Monika looked around thinking to herself Sayori is related to her? “Well for starters me and Sayori believe that the friend that got blamed for punching another friend of ours didn’t actually do anything..and it just happened quite literally..” Sayori’s mother raised an eyebrow “and why is this so important Monika...?” Monika looked around then looked Sayori’s mom straight in the eye “because...because...” Monika couldn’t think of anything that was convincing “exactly...you probably don’t know anything about what happened and your asking for help for no reason so either you can not bring it up whilst you visit or you can grab your butt and leave” Monika was surprised as Sayori came back down with a huge backpack on her back “hey what’s with the backpack honey?” Sayori’s mother asked as Monika looked at Sayori “it’s needed!! Anyways mom I’ll see you another time sorry this was a lot shorter visit the usual hehehe” Sayori said as she hugged her mother once more. As Monika and Sayori waved bye Sayori’s mother didn’t wave to Monika and only Sayori. As Sayori and Monika walked out and away Monika started talking “is she really your mother?” Sayori looked at her with a disappointment look “yes she is my mother Monika..! Why wouldn’t she!” Monika paused the replied quickly “well your usually all happy and well not rude then your mother comes along and she is dull and can be just a bit rude just a tiny bit” Sayori looked at the ground and began walking slower. “I-I get my personality from m-my dad...” Monika made a oh sound and put one of her hands on Sayori’s shoulder and Sayori looked at Monika with her sparkling blue eyes faded and tears in her eyes. Monika looked at worried and toke her hand off Sayori in the heat of the moment “AAaaa I’m so sorry!! I didn’t mean to make you cry!!” Sayori felt the tears drip down her cheeks and wiped them away as she smiled with a pained expression. “Monika is not your fault don’t worry...” Monika looked at Sayori and Sayori looked at Monika there was a moment of silence.. then Sayori shakes her head “hey Monika... you do want to know what’s in the bag right?” Sayori was trying to lighten the mood and perk up her voice. Monika sighed and lost her concern tone “course I do! I’m actually very curious now..” Sayori chuckled “they we have to go to my house so we can do that plan of yours to help nat’s and yuri out!!” Monika smiled but then faded “actually how about we go to my house..?” Sayori and nodded “I haven’t been there before anyways!” As she let Monika lead the way. Whilst Sayori’s mother from the window watched them from there and smiled putting a cigarette in her mouth while opening the window and looked at the sky dully. “You’ve done so much for her..your job is almost over...” Sayori’s mother said looking up at the sky...... end of part 4

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i did this yesterday but im going to post it because i need to like i need more then paper art on here (hiding anger)

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Today marks the day I went through my sketchbook and remembered how I didn’t want to share yuri but then I said fuck it as I lay in my regret of not posting it with natsuki.