Every so often, we get reminders...
So it's a Saturday evening, and I'm at church (@crdschurch). The series is The New Man, all about the proper definition of a MAN.
So today's message was all about being a good FOLLOWER...going where God leads you, whether or not you like it, whether or not you're afraid, whether or not you know what's next.
That's what The Edward James Project is for me...it's about OBEDIENCE. I don't want to sing. Never in my life have I had a desire to be in front of the microphone. It's the scariest place in the world to me. Despite my fear, despite my complete and total lack of desire, I feel as if it's where God is nudging me to be...at least for now.
And I figure, it can't be any worse than the shit storm I've made of my life, so lets give it a shot.
But while I'm listening to the guest speaker (a former exec at P&G, and a new exec at Google), I'm thinking about how all of what he's saying applies to my life, and what I'm doing. He talked about going skydiving with his son, and when that door opened, it was the scariest thing in the world.
That's where I am. I'm in a plane, 12,000 feet in the air, and literally the door JUST swung open. And on June 1, I have the choice to either jump, and trust that God's gonna guide me safely to where he wants me to be, or I step back into the familiarity of the plane.
So I'm sitting there, soaking this all in, and I get this feeling that I should stay after service, so someone can pray with me. Great....here's yet another thing that I don't want to do. Ugh...
So then, the guest speaker starts saying a prayer for EVERYONE, and I'm like "GREAT!!! That's the prayer at the end, so I don't have to stay! Nice!!"
Then after he finishes, up on the screens flashes a message that says "Stay in your seat, and a volunteer will come by to pray with you".
Alright God...fine. I get the message already.
I say all that to say, that sometimes...actually ALL the time, God leaves breadcrumbs to show us where he wants us to go. In my journey of obedience, throughout this whole dark, really scary time in my life, I'm growing to understand that, and trust it.
In much the same way he left me little clues (okay, a huge message on the screen may not be such a small clue) in church, He's leaving me the same types of breadcrumbs in my life...and all i have to do is pay attention to them.
So with that, I guess I'll follow my breadcrumbs...to the microphone.
