ASK FROM @theophagya / ( BETTE & BEA ! ) ↳ ❛ when you fantasize, am i your fantasy? ❜
YOU FANTASISE ABOUT SUCCESS. you fantasise about coming out on top and being respected for it. you fantasise about achieving something for the greater good - about winning at something and making the lives of other people better . . . but deep down, maybe just maybe, you do fatasise about her. it’s so rare that you get to meet another person who shares your values and your habits - even if some of those habits are bad and need rectifying. even your ex wife didn’t understand those parts of you - even tina couldn’t relate to your constant need to push yourself to do better. but bea does, doesn’t she? she’s just like you. she reminds you of a younger version of yourself, working harder and harder and harder until she burns out. you can respect that. you can appreciate that.
❛ i’m not sure i should answer that. ❜ because you’re colleagues and you want to remain professional. but it’s hard when faced with the overwhelming presence of lust. you cannot deny the chemistry. when you look at bea, you see the perfect version of a person. you see everything that you have worked so hard for over the past decade. and now you’re sat with her in your home, wine in hand, already passing the boundaries of professionalism. you have to get out of your head. you have to start living. ❛ if i was to say yes - not that i am saying yes - how would that make you feel? ❜ christ, you need to be more straight forward. get your head out of your fucking ass, bette porter. open yourself up.