#theoretical thoughts

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i think it fucks so severely that pretty much the earliest written text we have is the epic of gilgamesh. we have been so so sick in the head about grief and death and life beyond mortality for the entire time. we have been cruel and wild and stupid and loving and humbled over and over again. a thousand's thousand people related to the epic in different ways when it was first written and now, thousands of years later, we're still doing it. christ. fuck me. my friend is dead and the world is ashes in my mouth, and i can hear bunch of strangers from the edge of recorded history saying yes, in this you are like the mightiest of kings and the lowest of beggars. there is nothing to be done but to live.

Let the gate of sorrow be barred, let its door be sealed with tar and pitch. For my sake, interrupt the dancing no more, for he and for me, be happy and carefree.

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a little feedback for whoever is in charge of Bodies:

i do not think that my human chassis (a machine generally understood to be optimised for finding and consuming calories) should get nauseous (making the machine temporarily avoidant of calories) when it is hungry (has insufficient calories in the processing tank). this is bad design. please revise.

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actually thinking about music. damn. i think my first concrete memories of music are of Jagged Little Pill playing in the kitchen. that's neat.

i do not play music out loud anywhere near as much as my parents (mostly my mom, tbh) did, though. i should fix that.

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i try not to reallifepost too much (beyond funny anecdotes and the landmines), but sometimes it is warranted.

right now, for example! because someone just tried to legally steal control of my disabled mother's life and finances and almost fucking succeeded.

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there's something so captivatingly horrifying about psychosis. along with progressive memory loss, it just so thoroughly puts the nature of the brain as a fallible computational machine to the fore. inarguable in its relentless horror. increasingly i feel as if a morally upright universe would simply not allow this sort of thing to happen.

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talking about food with people irl makes me feel absolutely crazy sometimes.

"ugh why is this so high in carbs and fat-" because the job of that specific foodstuff has been, historically, to deliver carbs and fats. because it's a good combo. they taste good together. also you need those things. if you proteinmaxx and don't get enough carbs and/or fats then you (literally) die.

carbs are good. fat is good. they are nutrients. they are important nutrients. you cannot subsist on lean protein and fibre and 'resistant' starches.

honestly most of this comes down to tremendously bad food education (from both school and parents and also a predatory 'wellness' industry) but still. you are an adult! you have the capacity to learn things! how have you gone through life believing that two of the three main types of Things Food Is Made Of are somehow intrinsically 'bad' for you?????

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oop. the landmines! forgot about those~

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really not sure what the massive fuss is about this claude mythos dealio. if it genuinely is much better at finding security vulnerabilites than prior models, then... okay?

people who are tasked with defending large internet-exposed software platforms will have equal access to these tools, if not more, than most attackers. the tools can therefore be a force multiplier for defender efforts - arguably more productively than for attackers.

idk, it just seems like such a strange oversight in basically all coverage/commentary on the topic. if you really do have a tool that is good at a thing, then well-intentioned people can and will make use of it, not just bad actors.